[Whoever really likes a lonely life is just a kind of self-protective shell formed after experiencing sadness and pain again and again.] 】
I used to have many friends, and I like to laugh with everyone in the crowd, make noise together, and open up to them.
However, I found that I treated everyone around me with a sincere heart, and in the end I was hurt with a lot of holes and no skin.
The original fiery heart was trampled on the ground by those so-called "friends", and I could hardly breathe in pain.
It felt like falling from the altar to dust, and all the light and joy around him were swallowed up by the great darkness, wrapped in the cold rain and hit the body, falling into the abyss of despair in an instant.
I didn't want to experience that bone-crushing pain anymore, so from then on, I stopped believing in anyone, and I thought that as long as I was alone, I could avoid harm, stay in my comfort zone, and protect myself.
I began to go alone, go out alone, eat alone, walk alone on the road, subconsciously avoid the crowd, but listening to others walking in groups, laughing and laughing, I still can't help but secretly envy in my heart, but it is only envy, I know that this beauty does not belong to me.
A broken heart can no longer accept any feelings with impurities, because I am afraid of disappointment, so loneliness is the best choice for me, at least so that I will not be sad.
Although loneliness is conducive to self-preservation, I sometimes curl up in the corner of the room in the silent night, crying silently.
A drop of tears fell to the ground, and the whole room was quiet only the sound of tears falling to the ground.
The bright lights of the house outside the window reflected my helpless figure on the floor of the room through the glass, illuminating my loneliness even more desolate.
Gradually, I was used to being alone, and I thought I would always stay that way. But one day, I was buying books in the bookstore, but when I went out, it rained lightly, although the rain was not large, but it was enough to wet clothes, I watched several people around me with an umbrella and laughed and left side by side, my heart flooded with a sour feeling, and finally calmed down, took the hat on my clothes, and prepared to leave.
Suddenly someone patted me, and I turned around to find a girl who was about my age hand me an umbrella with a sweet smile on her face and said to me, "You hold this umbrella, and you will catch a cold in the rain." ”
I was a little surprised by the girl's behavior: "Aren't you afraid that I won't return the umbrella to you?" ”
The girl shook her head and said softly, "No, I'm an employee of the bookstore, I can see you read books every day, and when you come back to buy books one day, just give them back to me." ”
The girl's inadvertent actions were like a ray of sunshine shining into my dark world, melting all the cold and letting me find my long-lost self.
I think that the world is so big, there is truth in it, and you can't deny all hope because of a trauma.
Later, I began to try to strengthen my heart, to be my former self, and there were more and more friends around me, even if I occasionally experienced disappointment, but most people will still reciprocate with kindness and treat you sincerely.
If anyone really wants to be lonely, but is only afraid of disappointment, maybe your warm help and action can make a wounded person let go of the past, get rid of loneliness again, and accept more love and sincerity.
The world is big, life is very long, to maintain love, believe that the beauty of this world, will eventually be linked with you.
With this article, may all people be free from loneliness and be treated tenderly by the world.