In 1927, the 30-year-old Xu Zhimo had just lifted the shackles of 11 years of marriage and traveled with his newlywed wife Lu Xiaoman to the shores of Xizi Lake to take photos of their love.
At the same time, in Shanghai, not far from Hangzhou, full of cloves and deep alleys, 22-year-old Dai Wangshu met the "lilac girl" who influenced his life in a quiet alley.
In this year, the two most absurd loves in the literary circle of the Republic of China appeared: Xu Zhimo, who was in the heart of the flower, collected his heart for love, and the hazy Dai Wangshu went crazy because of love.
Love, the most moving, countless people because of love and fold, countless people are famous for love.
And Dai Wangshu's deep affection is not only an emotional expression, but also represents his attitude towards life.
How many people's infatuation has failed to reality
Dai Wangshu was a poet, but unlike other fair-faced and graceful poets, he was of great stature, dark in color, and suffered from smallpox in his childhood, leaving his face full of numbness.
Therefore, when Dai Wangshu first saw his friend Shi Zhencun's sister Shi Chenian, he frightened people into hiding behind his brother.
But after getting along day and night, Shi Chennian gradually adapted to Dai Wangshu's appearance, and sometimes tried to chat with him.
Dai Wangshu felt that the girl in front of him was like a vigorous flame, bright and hot, which instantly ignited his boring heart.
Perhaps, every poet has his own romance.
Dai Wangshu inscribed Shi Chennian's name in "Whispers Under the Forest"; he wrote his thoughts about the girl into "Rain Alley".
The girl knows the man's admiration for her, but she does not understand how deep the man's unspoken affection is.
Dai Wangshu pursued Shi Chenian again and again, and Shi Chenian neither agreed nor refused, and would only be invited to go out for a walk when Dai Wangshu was about to give up.
This can be bitter Dai Wangshu, all the way to chase, never touch the other party's heart.
Finally, he let go of the harsh words: if Shi Chenian did not accept his love, he would die in front of her eyes.
In desperation, Shi Chenian had to agree to get engaged to him. But Shi Chennian also put forward a harsh condition, asking Dai Wangshu to study abroad, saying that she was only willing to marry after she obtained a degree abroad and found a decent job.
On October 8, 1932, at the urging of Shi Chenian, Dai Wangshu set off from Shanghai on a cruise ship to study in France.
At this time, Shi Chenian was no longer the young and shy female college student.
After graduation, she entered the Shanghai Post and Telecommunications Department and became a clerk, and what she asked for was no longer romantic sweet words, but actual and reliable broken silver.
After Dai Wangshu returned to China, what awaited him was Shi Chenian's empathy, and it turned out that Shi Chennian had fallen in love with a refrigerator salesman!
For people whose love is low to the dust, it is not that there is no successful marriage, nor is there no one to love, nor is it that they are cut off from feelings, but they lack the ability to resist the wind and rain.
After all, a touching love must first have bread, and the people you love are willing to accompany you to watch the sunrise and sunset.
Otherwise, in the face of the harsh reality, no matter how obsessive you are, you will eventually be vulnerable.
How many people have no bottom line in their hearts
In 1937, shortly after Dai Wangshu returned to China, the Battle of Songhu broke out, and the Japanese army quickly occupied Shanghai.
After the Japanese army took control of Shanghai, it tightened its control over public opinion.
If there is a publishing house or newspaper that has improper discussion about them, it will be ordered to rectify or cancel its business.
Panic spread in everyone's hearts, and many literati who remained in Shanghai chose to stop writing and remain silent in order to calm things down.
However, there are still some people who rely on pens to support their families, and if they don't write, their lives will be lost. So some people wrote gossip and hunting stories that the citizens loved to read, and some people wrote praises to the enemy with a clear conscience.
Fearing that the people would be affected by it, Dai Wangshu sank, and under the pretext of writing an article praising the awakening of the Turkish people, calling on everyone to fight to the death instead of being slaughtered.
With this bloody cry, the enemy saw not only anger, but also trepidation.
Soon, Dai Wangshu was targeted by the Japanese authorities, forming an invisible pressure around him, and he also really had a premonition: behind this shadow, it was the enemy who crushed and killed him.
So Dai Wangshu decided to flee Shanghai first and go to Hong Kong, which had not yet been occupied by the Japanese.
As soon as he arrived in Hong Kong, he immediately joined the newspaper of Sing Tao Daily as an editor of its supplement, Constellations.
He said that his duty was to replace the stars in the sky and give some glimmer to the reader who lived under the "haze" of fascism.
Dai Wangshu made many remarks through "Constellations", making him an active member of the anti-Japanese camp in Hong Kong and a thorn in the enemy's eye.
December 25, 1941, was a black Christmas for many Hong Kongers, because on this day, the Hong Kong authorities "opened their doors" to welcome the Japanese army into the island.
After the Japanese army entered Hong Kong, it wantonly arrested "reactionaries", and Dai Wangshu was soon imprisoned by the Japanese army because he did not evacuate from Hong Kong in time.
In the Japanese prison in Hong Kong, he was tortured no less than the scum cave in Chongqing.
In "Waiting (II)", he wrote down his hard memories of the detention: the Japanese army pressed the spikes on his knees, the bricks were placed on his heels, and the enemy waved the whip vigorously, and fell on him again and again.
But no matter how cruel the enemy was to him, Dai Wangshu always insisted on loyalty to the country and did not submit to the enemy like the people who easily rebelled at that time.
How many people live without love
One day in May 1942, after many rescues from his best friend, Dai Wangshu was finally released from prison.
Dai Wangshu, who was standing in the sun again, was in a much worse physical condition than before, and the torture and harsh environment in prison caused him to suffer from tracheitis and various dark injuries.
Even so, he still cared about his relatives and friends, and wrote "Prison Wall" to comfort them: "Friends, don't be sad. ”
A few years later, when the news of the liberation of Beijing came, Dai Wangshu, who was recuperating in the south, despite the persuasion of his family, decided to go to Beijing to see his lifelong beliefs.
Shortly after arriving in Beijing, Dai Wangshu received an invitation from the International Information Bureau of the State Administration of Press and Publication.
The newly established French group of the Information Bureau lacked many materials and classics, so Dai Wangshu carefully selected the books that could be used from his own collection, wrapped them with blue cloth, and brought them to the French group under his armpits the next day.
It is hard to believe that one day Dai Wangshu will personally send out his long-cherished books. You know, he is a "book-loving" person
When Dai Wangshu studied abroad, most of his leisure time was spent in searching for good books.
He visited all the book stalls in Paris, and finally concluded that there were four zones: one was selling cheap new books, the other was selling English books, the third was selling ancient books, and the fourth was selling pornographic books.
However, because he did not have money, every time he just wandered around various old bookstores, although he returned empty-handed, but he felt very satisfied in his heart, and he also masturbated to name this way "Visiting Books".
In addition to "visiting books", Dai Wangshu can forget himself as long as he stays with the book.
Once, in a revolutionary struggle in Madrid, there was chaos all around, and he read books in the book market for half a day, completely ignoring the gunfire around him.
Even, Dai Wangshu was arrested in Hong Kong because he was reluctant to find a few boxes of rare books abroad, and did not follow the rest of the people to the rear in time.
This time, Dai Wangshu gave his "favorite" to the French group for use, which was enough to see how much he attached importance to the French group.
For Dai Wangshu, reading books is the greatest pleasure of his life, and it is precisely because he loves herbs in time, and he loves jiamiao books.
The happiest thing in the world is that there is something in the heart that is loved.
After all, everyone's feelings are limited, but the limited emotions that can be poured into the things we love are the best vitality and adjustment we inject into the monotonous life.
Nobel laureate Steven Chu said at harvard university graduation: "Life is too short, so you can't walk empty-handed, you have to pour your affection into something." ”
Who would have thought that Dai Wangshu, who never understood love, would end up with a little more affection than Xu Zhimo, a talented man.
In his life, although he mispaid his infatuation to the "Lilac Girl", he insisted on leaving his clear love to the motherland in danger, even if he was tortured by life, he still did not give up his inner love.
The most difficult thing in the world is that when you have gone through thousands of sails and recognized the truth of life, you can still respond to all the grievances affectionately.
Perhaps, this is the meaning of life.
Author | Nine edges, appreciate the current events, write the heart Chinese
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