My ordinary life
Author Zhang Wenshan
The sun rises, the heat waves sprinkle, and a seedling is about to sprout. In the early morning of June 18, 1961, I was born in Wang Chen Group, Nanguan Village, Liuzhi Town, Huaxian County, and my parents named me Zhang Wenshan.
Nanguancun Arch Building photographed by Gao Zhenqiang
Coinciding with three years of natural disasters, the mother has no food, let alone an adopted son? At that time, I was as thin as wood, but I was born from a strong mother's body, and I created a tenacious life perseverance in my bones, and gradually grew up. Later, two younger brothers and a younger sister were born one after another, and the nine of us brothers and sisters formed a complete class like a step: the eldest brother Wenmin was the class leader, leading my little sister and little brother to collect firewood, cut grass, raise pigs, dig up dates... Subsidized living. By the time I was seven years old, I was in elementary school. The eldest brother graduated from high school and returned to his hometown as a private teacher, and my two older brothers and two sisters also have a certain ability to work.
The children of rich families are playing, and the children of poor people are struggling to find money. After school, we went to dig up stone dates, and my mother, who had worked hard all her life, boiled them into stone date soup. The soup was ruddy and sweet, but the family was reluctant to drink a sip, so they let the two newly adult sisters take it out and sell it, two cents per bowl, which was also an income. We not only dug up dates, but also peeled the stalks and picked cypress seeds in exchange for some small money. As we get older, life should be getting better. Unexpectedly, fate struck like a nightmare.
His father was a carpenter, building houses, cars, furniture, all kinds of work are a good hand, but also can repair machines, repair water conservancy, for the brigade, production team rushing endlessly, is a generation of famous craftsmen in the eight villages. However, the world is hot and cold, and the creation makes people. My sister is hard-working and capable, doing the same job as other girls of the same age as the team, but the treatment is different: others have nine divisions of labor, while my sister has eight divisions of labor. His father was furious about this, and once decided to leave the team and go to another country, but after being persuaded by his uncle and good friends, he did not leave in the end. However, with a stronger nature, he was depressed from then on, and soon he hated Jiuquan. I was only ten years old, and it was really cold and frosty.
Tearfully bid farewell to the old father, the whole family to strengthen themselves.
Do not take off the hat of poverty is not willing, determined to become a talent to respect the mother.
Willow branches have three treasures: stones, mosquitoes, and grass. To the south of my village is a pile of inexhaustible piles of stones, and to the north of the village is a puddle left over from the flooding of 1968. It is overgrown with weeds, and there are many mosquitoes in summer and autumn. The name of the water pit is: Big Pit, North Pit, West Big Pit, and the side of the pit is a long river.
There are thousands of acres of reeds on the side of the big pit, and the wild fish in the pit rush into the reeds, and the reeds are also birds and wild lotus vegetables... There are many fish, one here, one pile there. Unfortunately, the farmers at that time could not eat and had no oil to cook. Li Jicai and others in my village once picked up the fish and buried it under the roots of the bud valley in the field, and used it as fertilizer.
There is a perennial flowing creek in the west of the village, the fish scale grass in the creek is lush, there are small fish beating in the grass from time to time, and there are inexhaustible small fish and shrimp in the creek. My mother was originally a bridesmaid, good at cooking, and with just a little green salt, she could make the small fish and shrimp we caught into a perfect fresh soup. Now that I think about it, I drank it so fragrantly and deliciously! alas! I want to eat another bite of mom's taste...
When I was eleven or twelve years old, I was still living a hard life of going to school, collecting firewood, cutting grass, and raising pigs. At that time, there was no firewood on the edge of the village, so we went up the mountain under the leadership of the eldest brother to cut firewood and collect cypress seeds. We climbed the Qinling Mountains with great vigor and vigor, cut from the front mountain to the back mountain, cut the thick one and took it back to dissolve into small plates, made into a thin one, and beat it into a table, chair, and wardrobe. During the busy season, we pick up wheat, pick corn... Although it is hard work, everyone works together, so happy!
Like my father, my eldest brother has both responsibility and ability to speak: he can carry it in his hand, he can carry it on his shoulders, he can play songs, he is versatile, and he teaches students a large piece. In the evening, the eldest brother told us stories and novels. What I remember most clearly is "Journey to the West" "Three Dozen White Bone Essences". A big family of twelve people, living together is really warm and happy.
At this time, catching up with the "agricultural village, industrial science Daqing", the leader raised his arms and called out, the countryside reclaimed terraces, repaired canals to control water, built reservoirs; schools work-study, rice planting, raising pigs and sheep... A thriving scene.
NanguanCun Jigong Temple photo by Liu Wentao
Yet things are always divided in two. We gave up studying, opened the exams, turned in white papers, and abandoned our studies. Of course, I'm no exception. The time of youth is fleeting, we have a full body of energy, but our minds are blank.
Teenagers are empty of culture, and old people are idle for careers.
Looking back and trying to find it again, it is a fantasy.
History is history, and no one can erase or erase it. Criticizing the forest and criticizing the holes, overthrowing the rich and opposing the bad right, the storm of the Cultural Revolution, my family was deeply disturbed. My grandfather was rated as a landlord, and my uncle was a Kuomintang translator who came anyway, causing our political stain. By the time I graduated from junior high school, I wasn't even a Red Guard. The same is true of the family, none of the brothers and sisters are qualified to serve the country as soldiers, alas!
Time flies by, and it is always difficult to find it with all your heart.
Exhaust the energy to make up for the whole body, in the end still can not get back.
The stars shifted, and in the blink of an eye, in 1976, I was 16 years old. When our books were loudly on campus, a bad news spread throughout the earth, rivers and mountains, and roared for nine days! Our great leader Chairman Mao passed away, the whole country mourned, and the people wept, and I wrote a poem in praise of the chairman:
On the ninth day of September, the bad news spread for nine days:
A generation of leaders Mao Zedong, the capital died in the Xianban.
Mourning the national exhibition, gushing mourning to mourn.
The leader made a bold statement that he would overthrow the three mountains!
The people must be the masters of the house, and the mountains and rivers must be changed!
Seek the truth changsha to see, make friends with a large piece of talent.
Lead the peasants to riot, the autumn harvest uprising to do action,
Jinggangshan uploaded the order, and traveled from east to west, south to north.
The direction of the Zunyi Conference was fixed, and the Long March of the Red Army headed north.
Four crossings of Chishui Liupan Mountain, Dadu River on the emergency pass.
Wading through the mountains to Shaanxi and Gansu, the Xi'an Incident united front.
The Kuomintang and the Communists cooperated in fighting the enemy stubbornly, and the eight-year War of Resistance against Japanese Aggression was remnant.
The Jiang family dynasty turned its face upside down, and Chairman Desheng sat in Yan'an.
Command the three major military wars and unify half of China's sky.
It is advisable to chase after the poor and bravely, and cross the river to fight in the south of the river.
Jiang Bang had no way to escape to Taiwan, and the remnants of the bandits hid deep in the mountains.
After the blow is destroyed, it is called the sun and the moon for a new day!
Put down the barrel of the gun to engage in production, and the Korean battlefield is turned upside down.
The War to Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea defended its homeland and sent troops to strike at the United States.
The Chinese and DPRK people have won victories and are at ease in building their homeland.
The Soviet Union fought against the country and the battle on Treasure Island.
The Soviet Union wanted to play with the atomic bomb, and the chairman plotted to say it again:
You hit your atomic bomb, I hit my grenade!
Rushing up to the Soviet Union, releasing atoms is called beauty.
Can go up to the moon for nine days, dare to go down to the five oceans to catch turtles,
The savior's heart is as big as the sky, and he is full of righteousness!
Since then, I have worked hard to study, determined to break through the barriers, and repay the rivers and mountains with excellent results. In 1977, I came really fast, and in the first year of resuming the college entrance examination, I fell behind.
It is too late to make a vow, and it is hard work to re-read and re-read to revive the spirit.
Work hard to study and study hard and fight again and again, and if you don't succeed, you won't climb the peak and never return.
As I hesitated and was about to go home, a magical figure quietly approached. She was a gentle girl, a classmate of mine, and a public teacher. She encouraged me to continue my studies, and gave me a lot of help, both in my spiritual life and in my material life. However, no matter how many advantages there were, in the end, the day did not go according to people's wishes, and I reluctantly returned to my hometown and began a pastoral life of sunrise and sunset.
Finally, the heroine of my life appeared! Her name is Chen Zhifang, and she is a beautiful and moving girl. It was 1984 and I met her. She was generous, dressed in the most fashionable yellow military uniform of the time, and was a flower in the village. She was a private teacher, and we both saw each other as we were, and in the same year, we got married!
One heart and one mind, one culture, sympathy and common meaning and outbreak.
The two loves are sprouting, forming a pair of Mandarin duck flowers.
A lover eventually became a family, and she and I were in the same boat, and then I wrote the article "Husband and Wife":
As the old saying goes, "Husband and wife are originally birds of the same forest, and they fly separately when they are in trouble." "This is not false, there is nothing wrong with it. But there is also a kind of bird called "Mandarin Duck", they form a mate, and they never abandon each other, live and die together, and do not separate. This so-called "alliance of Qin and Jin" and "the union of Mandarin and duck".
Husbands and wives do not need to take vows of mountains and seas, but only need to take care of each other. Do not abandon, life and death and coexistence, share happiness and suffering, this is called husband and wife.
After marriage, we both frothed and loved each other. In 1986, we worked together to build three large houses with red brick and red tiles, which were also unique and good residences in the village at that time. Although our lives are not very rich, our lives are very pleasant and smooth. That same year, my daughter was born. The little girl's small mouth is like a flower with buds waiting to be released, and we named her Zhang Beibud. In 1988, my son was born too! He was born white and pure, like a piece of beautiful jade, so he named zhang Lu. Not only our whole family, but also the whole village came to celebrate and eat happy wine: laughter, fist strokes, so happy! At that time, my eldest brother like a father split up and started a family, and I also changed from a private teacher to a public teacher.
With the reform and opening up and the economic tide of dividing the fields into households, I began to learn bricklayers and met many friends at the same time.
Nanguan Village Convenience Service Center Liu Jingfu
"Ten thousand yuan household" was a term that everyone dreamed of at that time, and it was also an astronomical amount of rural income. My wife lost her beloved education, closed the small shop at that time, handed over a pair of children to my elderly mother and brother, came to the heart of the motherland, Beijing, and began a six-year snack business. That was at the end of 1995.
Our husband and wife are hard-working and down-to-earth, and the business has been doing well, attracting guests from all over the world. At that time, communication was difficult, and the first year in Beijing was very busy, and I never corresponded with my mother and children. After more than half a year, when I first wrote a letter to my family, a short family letter took more than three hours, my hands have been shaking, tears have been flowing, and I don't know where to start writing.
Thinking of relatives and thinking of relatives, mothers and children, fathers and brothers.
True feelings, true thoughts, hometown relatives.
The years are quiet, and the sun and moon shine for a long time.
The moon has clouds and sunshine, and people have sorrows and joys.
I love my career all my life, I have spent my life protecting my family and loving my mother, and I am like my father's eldest brother, who has been sick due to years of hard work and is suffering from evil diseases. I waited for my brothers and sisters to rush back to greet me, but in the end, my eldest brother, who was only in his early fifties, left my elderly mother and a family of wives and children dead.
In August 1998, I lost my eldest brother. At the funeral, the whole village and the teachers and students in the school came to mourn, and they all felt tears.
Malaria plagued the brothers, and the brothers did not repay their brothers.
The relay chief was respectful and kind, comforting the old mother before filial piety.
In Beijing, we worked hard to celebrate the return of Hong Kong. The cheerful mood of the people of the capital is as bright as fireworks. Immediately after ushering in the fifty-year anniversary of the motherland, the happy scene of the red flag flying in Tiananmen Square, the floats lined up, and the crowds flowing were deeply rooted in my heart.
Suddenly, in six years, the daughter began to enter junior high school, and the son will also graduate from elementary school. People often say: "Hope the son becomes a dragon, hope that the daughter becomes a phoenix", but to earn money but must not miss the future of the children, we husband and wife decided to return to our hometown and read with our children.
Dan's heart is finally in vain, and the ideal person generates thoughts.
I hope that the younger generations will come to perfection and complete this life without regret.
For the sake of my children, I am ambitious and full of energy. On the ninth day of the ninth lunar month in 2001, my husband and wife returned to their hometown, and the reconstruction of the house began to open a wholesale department. Daily necessities, fabrics, lamps, decoration materials... Among them, the variety of goods far exceeds 100. Business is booming and the market is like a market.
Unexpectedly, in August 2003, an unprecedented flood engulfed my hometown with impunity. Hundreds of thousands of acres of fertile land, roads, villages... I also suffered from the loss of more than half of the goods, the crowd dispersed, and had to stop business. I pulled up the pole again, set up a construction team, and played my own piece of the sky in Huaxian County, Huayin Bao Road, and Private Room with excellent quality.
In the blink of an eye, one of my sons and daughters was admitted to college one after another, fulfilling my college dreams and fulfilling my unfulfilled wishes and regrets in life. This is the pinnacle of my life, I am drunk, I am proud, I am proud!
The children fulfill their father's wishes, and the father is very happy.
Open your heart and shout loudly: Half a life regret has been overturned!
In 2009, my son was admitted to Northwest A&F University. At that time, very few rural children were admitted to a university, and Murakami sent movies and bonuses to encourage them. Our family was immersed in joy, relatives and friends and the whole village came to congratulate us, the sound of firecrackers rang from morning to night, my mouth could not be closed, and my heart was beautiful. In 2011, my son and I joined the party at the same time in the same month and the same month.
One by one, we ushered in the eightieth birthday of our mother. On the first birthday of the first month of the second month of the lunar calendar in 2008, the zhangfu was full of lights and joy, and we knelt on our knees one-on-one pair and one pair to wish for the birthday, and wished our mother and grandmother blessings like the long flowing water of the East China Sea, and the longevity was longer than that of nanshan. Flower baskets, flower plates, peaches, fruits, operas... The whole family is extravagant.
On the ninth day of the first lunar month in 2012, my little princess was out of the cabinet! That day, my heart did not know what to do, like a cat scratching: it is difficult to think, it is also difficult to think, it is also difficult to think, it is difficult to see Yiyi, it is long, it is difficult to give up, it is difficult to say... The flesh and blood that have lived with us for twenty-six years are far away from home, and the pain of parting is indescribable. The next year, my daughter brought me back a little grandson who was happy.
Spend a good full moon affectionately, and the classmates are sweet.
With one heart and one mind, we will form a happy couple.
In 2015, my son formed a beautiful marriage with his classmates, and they got married on May 16th!
Gongs and drums, floats running, Mercedes-Benz open lanes;
Pick up the lady, greet ruiqi, sycamore phoenix nest.
The opera song stage is noisy, and the traffic is full of laughter.
Gao Peng was full of wine, and the fist stroke made the laughter high.
A piece of auspicious light and auspicious stars, entertaining guests and friends to eat well.
The in-laws were overjoyed, and the whole family was happy.
Three years later, the granddaughter was born, and the three generations were in the same house.
Go together with one heart and one mind, happy and happy family!
To this end, I wrote a combination of three generations of names for the whole family: both steady and kind, and the flowers and branches are fragrant and buds to be released, white and pure like jade, ruiqi auspicious light, that is, tao tao hao qi, and a little bit of sunny happiness and glowing. We are all three generations in the same house to form a complete world.
This time the neck guards and joys ordinary half life
Enjoy a lifetime of happiness and happiness in front of you
Time goes by and the years flow. My children started a family, bought a car and a house, and our old wife and grandson were full of happiness. I grew older and lived a carefree and happy life with my children. In my spare time, I wrote the essays "Traveling in Shaohua Mountain", "Love", "Letters to the Children of the World", as well as short comments, opinions, poems such as "Peach" and "Ode to Mother" and other small works...
Recent photo by the author Zhang Wenshan, courtesy of the author
Although my life is not brilliant, it is also healthy and healthy, ordinary and happy.
Original source: Author's contribution
Original author: Zhang Wenshan
Compilation and editing: Huazhou Literature and History Collection