#有没有特别迷茫的时候 #
For a moment, I felt that my life was so weak now, and the light was in front of me, but I couldn't touch it. I also want to eat three meals regularly, have a regular schedule, be excellent and self-motivated, but the bedroom is like a quagmire that keeps me sinking. Go to bed at one or two o'clock at night, basically ruined the next day, what scholarship, non-existent, in my mother's words is "daydreaming". Tomorrow will be foggy and gray. I also want to be calm when proposing dinner in the dormitory, I also want to put on a light makeup to add luster when I stand on the stage, and I also envy the little sister who wears a small skirt, pedals Martin boots, and a brace hat. I want to buy my favorite small clothes, instead of not buying new clothes for a year to reduce the burden on the family, only a cotton pants sent by my mother when it is cold, and I was jokingly called "Ma Bao Girl" by my classmates. I also don't want to, when I was carefully choosing to bite my teeth to buy a few skin care products and simple cosmetics for myself, when I was collecting the payment, I thought that I had a one-year-old sister at home and chose to empty the shopping cart all. repeatedly.
I also want to learn guitar, learn dance, go to the gym, but this is not financial support, I never opened my mouth, I think I don't like it, lazy. Who wouldn't want to be radiant and versatile, I'm diligent, what's the use? Go part-time, be blocked, stay at home to take care of your sister. I really want money crazy, I want to learn a skill, I want to be like which one does not want money.
Maybe my future is to become a teacher according to my parents' wishes, in a small place, just like that for a lifetime. Look at others in the future.