165 days away from the college entrance examination: the third year of high school is helpless, but it can also be happy

Friends, are you doing well today? I hope my words can bring you warmth and strength.

Everyone has a wound, light or dark, and wants to hide but always wants to cover up. Sometimes, addiction is to prove existence, and depravity is to remind yourself not to indulge. It may seem so contradictory, but it is uniformly reconciled. I said to myself, "I want to be a good kid," I said to myself, "I want to be an independent and mature person," and I said to myself, "I want to protect my mom and dad one day." I said to myself, "Ah, you have to be obedient, read seriously." I say so much to myself, but I always do very little. As I told myself what to do, I felt a lot of resistance in my heart. This resistance was even undetected until the English teacher said to me, "You don't want to learn subconsciously." At that time, I suddenly realized, and I took a leave of absence to go home at a rapid speed. Play! Playing until the spirit is empty, I love to learn!

In fact, I don't hate learning, if it is not the college entrance examination, if it is not the future future, if it is not the future of goddamn money, I will definitely love to learn to death. Physics, chemistry, mathematics, biology are not things I hate. But when learning is covered with the rules of the exam, everything changes the taste, what to do? What to do! There was no way but to read. High-profile opposition to the education system will not change anything in our lives. All we can do is survive in helplessness and overcome it in helplessness. To paraphrase a sentence that a teacher said to me before, let's live forever in the fire together!

The third year of high school is like this, there is no way back in the third year of high school, and the third year of high school cannot compromise. As seniors, we can only move forward. Taking leave seems to be indulging myself, but I am very sober inside, and I don't want to force myself anymore. Reading is a process, and I don't want to turn it into a chore. I hate that every teacher in the third year of high school says, "Students, you have to learn to suffer", can you say, "Students, you have to learn to learn!" "Is reading so hard?" It's inexplicable, it's just that we're all doing something. Is it so painful to learn knowledge? What about bad grades? Do we have no hope? Won't we try? The autonomy of life in the third year of high school is in our hands, although helpless, but also very happy.

Classmates, don't be discouraged because you didn't do well in an exam, life is a long road, and success or failure is undecided. As the saying goes, life is a 10,000-meter run. Now I'm willing to rest and stop, just so that in the future I can run farther. Really, I just don't want to, my senior year is gray. I would like to stop and look at the beautiful blue sky and look at the stars in the sky. I know that the world is far bigger than where we exist, and in the future I must go and see the beautiful world I have seen. Those who survive on the Tibetan Plateau, those who laugh in the Sahara Desert, Venice in Italy, the pyramids in Egypt... Those places gave birth to an infinite yearning, and I wanted to see the miracles created by human beings with my own eyes.

The source of life is long, the flower of life is always undefeated, my happiness is far away, and my path is in the present. Although the third year of high school is helpless, it can also be very happy! Only because of my senior year of high school, I paved the way to happiness...