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He climbed up with both hands and shrank his feet upwards; his fat body leaned slightly to the left, showing the appearance of effort.
Then I saw his back, and my tears quickly flowed down. I quickly wiped away my tears. Afraid that he would see it, and afraid that others would see it.
When I looked out again, he had already picked up the vermilion orange and walked back.
When crossing the railway, he first scattered the oranges on the ground, slowly climbed down, and then picked up the oranges and walked. When I got to this side, I hurried to pick him up.
I watched him walk out. He took a few steps, looked back at me, and said, "Go inside, there's no one inside." ”
When his back blended into the people who came and went, and I couldn't find it anymore, I came in and sat down, and my tears came again.
alas! I don't know when I'll see him again!"
——Excerpt from Zhu Ziqing's "Back Shadow"
I think of going to college to study nearly a thousand kilometers away, and I also think of working outside the home later;
Think of the figure of the first-year mother helping to pack her bags in the dormitory, and think of the time she leaves home at the station to wave goodbye to her father every time the school starts;
I remembered that from the beginning I couldn't wait to go home for the winter and summer vacations, and then I was afraid of the repeated sad parting that I had to leave home soon after each time I came home;
I remembered my mother asking me to pull out a few strands of white hair that she had quietly grown, and I remembered my father sighing: "Looking at you all grown, I found that we are starting to get old";
I remembered grandpa carrying a small biscuit and a small kettle waiting for me on the corner of the path outside the school gate waiting for me to finish school;
I remember that when I was a child, my grandmother got up early to cook, but I ran out early to "avoid" because I wanted to eat a variety of breakfasts in the breakfast restaurant;
I remembered that my father brought a few very large raisins to the living school, and said: "Your mother let me bring you to show you how fat these raisins grow, it must be sweet";
I think of my grandfather saying: "You sing 'Grandpa I love you' like when you were a child", but I have difficulty opening my mouth because of the so-called shyness of growing up;
Remembering that when he wanted to fight again after losing the college entrance examination, his father said: "In fact, everything is good, because I even think, if you go out a year late, we can accompany you for one more year";
I think of the soap pod tree on campus that several children can't hold hands with, and I think of the fragrant osmanthus flowers on the way to school;
Think of the legend of Nezha and Diga Ultraman who arrived as scheduled after dinner, and think of the joy of doing homework and throwing sandbags with friends jumping leather bands;
I think of us who grew up and went our separate ways, drifting away, but thought it would be easy to say goodbye...
Do I want to see them, or am I afraid to see them watching me leave?
I do not know.
How many more times can we see each other? How many more times will we part?
The only thing I feel fortunate about is that maybe I love you a little longer than you love me.
In your present life, you have only known me for 24 years, but how fortunate I am, you exist in my complete life, and if I can live to be 80 years old, I can love you for 80 years.
Maybe we have been separating all the time, maybe I can hardly show love like when I was a child, but I have loved you with all my life.
The love that is shamefully expressed between parents and children is an eternal proposition that cannot be escaped Chinese implicit, and among them, the father and the son are the most important.
Have you ever expressed love for your parents outright? Are you still in a foreign land or are you with your family? How long have you not been home to have a meal with them?
If you have time, make a phone call; if you can go home, give it a hug.
Li Zhen/Wen
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