The Sixth Chemotherapy - Anti-Cancer Diary (147)

The sixth chemotherapy was officially started today.

As a rule, go for indwelling needle surgery first. The last time I did it, it was more painful than before; this time it was much better, and almost before I was aware of it, the surgery had been completed and took less than twenty minutes. It seems that the key depends on the doctor's technology.

The infusion begins. The medication is basically the same as before, but with slight adjustments. It starts at 10 a.m. and ends at 3 p.m., taking about five hours. The temporary reaction is not big, just weak, at night, eat three vegetarian stuffed buns, can not stand much, the amount of food is not small.

My neighbor's bed, from a couple in Toko. Dongguang and Botou are neighboring counties, with depressions for farming. The woman who operated on it was in the same situation as I did. She had already had an ostomy correction operation, that is, the initial diversion of the stoma, after medical care, recovered well, so the excretory tract was changed back, just like normal people.

Because what she is experiencing now, I will also experience in the future, so I am very concerned about the process of her recovery from surgery, so I asked about the details in detail. She said that after changing back, restoring the function of the anus required a considerable process, and the process was painful. Because the anus is re-activated after a long period of inactivity, there will definitely be a difficult adaptation process. She said it had been half a year since she changed back, and it was only now a little better. Her experience was a stimulus to me. I said that I am not afraid of death, but I am afraid of pain, and pain can make people feel that life is worse than death. I was optimistic about the prospects after the re-diversion, and her experience made me feel a sense of fear.

Of course, I also understand that shrinking your neck can't stop being stabbed, and you have to face it, unless you really don't want to live.

In the evening, go to the hospital restaurant for dinner. The wind was a bit cool. I was dressed up tightly by my wife, cotton pants, cotton hat on my head, and my body was round and rolling, like an astronaut in a spacesuit. Even so, when I stroked my hat with my hand, my fingers were numb and crispy, like an electric shock. Of course, it is due to the effects of chemotherapy. Hopefully, the response to the sixth chemotherapy will be better than the fifth. Amitabha.

Anyway, a few things come together and it's still unpleasant. The clouds are thick, and only by waiting for the clouds to open and the sun rises, can it be clear.

2021，12，15.