July 30, 2020, this day the weather is gloomy, very hot, these two days my mother skin is yellow, so this day took my mother to the hospital for examination, to the hospital to see, pay, draw blood, take a full abdominal film, etc. A dragon examination, about an hour and a half, the film came out, I showed it to the doctor, because the two-year-old daughter has been crying and refusing to enter the clinic, she is afraid of the doctor, I pushed her in the corridor, and after a while I heard the mother in the corridor calling me: "Yang Qing, Yang Qing, Yang Qing." When I walked in, the doctor said that my mother was in a very bad condition. I nervously asked the doctor "big problem", and the doctor whispered "big"!
I felt a chill on my back until the back of my head, and I quickly looked back at my mother, who was still dazed standing behind me, and said let her push her daughter out, she was too noisy here, and the doctor also hurriedly said: "The child can't hear the speech here, let the push out and walk." "In fact, we all know that it is impossible to let the mother know the condition, the doctor said that the preliminary judgment is a mass pancreatic tumor, let me now immediately arrange hospitalization, do further examination to enhance the CT, and then we take the film with the mother to arrange the hospitalization, I clearly remember in bed 37 on the fourth floor, the mother sat on the bed, the doctor came to check, the nurse came to fetch hanging water, everything was done, I sat numbly on the edge of the bed, and the doctor just said in my mind...
The mother told me to take my daughter back, let the father come over in the afternoon, by the way explained a few words to bring some toiletries, I pushed the baby ready to go out, the baby kept shouting back and shouting "Come... come... Come..." Just like the usual outing to play, before going home shouting family to walk home together, has been beckoning grandma to come, the child's emotions can be released, when she is reluctant to be alone, she will express, will call, but adults can not, I really can't help shed tears, I am afraid that my mother will think more when she sees it, I dare not look back at my mother, push my daughter out of the hospital to go home. Back home, Dad listened to the sound of our car and came out, Dad cooked the rice, hot food, as usual waiting for us to go home to eat, sometimes I and my mother with the baby to go out to buy things, every time I come back, Dad is also so cooked good rice, hot dishes waiting for us to go home, but from today everything is different, and can never go back, how to know that those most ordinary days are the happiest, small noise, bustling!
After getting out of the car, I went directly back to the room, cried for a long time, while preparing toiletries for my mother to go to the hospital, while slowly calming down, lunch, dad rode to the hospital, I closed the door tightly, I don't know this afternoon time has passed a long time, in the evening I and my mother sent a voice chat, just want to listen to her voice, talk to her about tonight she is alone in the hospital, originally dad went to accompany the bed, mom worried that I was alone at home scared, let dad come back, mom's heart has always been on me. Mom still has a lot of things to do, I remember once I wanted to lose that dirty tablecloth, my mother wanted to stay and explain that she would raise chickens in the spring of the year, and then I could build chicks.
Mom has had short hair for nearly ten years, I have been telling her that she has long hair to look good, ask her to keep long hair, before she refused to listen, this year finally said to move her, short found in the long very dense, should wait for next spring can almost pull up. Mom pickled a few unsalty salted fish last year, I said it was delicious, mom said that now summer can't be pickled, wait until winter, when the time comes to give me food, all need time, can you give my mother a little more time, she is a kind person.
On August 8, 2020, he was hospitalized after seeing a doctor, undergoing nucleic acid testing, and hospitalization. From the afternoon of the sixth to the morning of the 8th, the mother's skin became more and more yellow, the 7th hit a few bottles of liver protection potion, and pasted a half-patch of fentanyl pain relief patch on the collarbone, and on the morning of the 8th, the mother said that she slept really well at night, her stomach did not hurt, and she dreamed, I really hurt her, sleeping was the most common thing, for her now it is like a luxury.
After breakfast, the mother appeared dizzy and vomited symptoms, the nurse said that this is the reaction after the sticker, the back will adapt, it is really uncomfortable to hit an antiemetic injection, if it is torn down after the pain then its resistance will be almost, that is to say, a little pain will be very painful later, I know that the mother will be very painful in the later stage of this disease, so I went back to the ward to comfort her, like a child said: "You are with this painkiller to get along with the run-in, today to fight, tomorrow will be reconciled, the day after tomorrow you are good friends, do you want to stick to it, There will be no stomachache in the future. Mom curled up on her side on the bed, her eyes blank, and she let out a sigh.
August 10th mom finished draining, I went in to push her out, I saw her upper body is yellow disinfectant, the room air conditioning is very cold, but her head is sweaty, I used to grab her, trying not to let myself shed tears, throat like blocked, really hurt my mother, she grabbed my hand and said: "I'm too guilty, it's better to let me go, it hurts too much," I grabbed her all the way and pushed her back to the ward, told her that I immediately called the nurse to give a painkiller, soon it didn't hurt, it was good right away, you have to obey, you have to be obedient, you have to be obedient, you have to be obedient, obedient, obedient, Say it over and over again, and tell her these words that comforted me when I was a child, and then I felt a lot of pain like I did with her.
Shivering a night of sleep, I was afraid that my mother would suddenly appear in the situation, the heart rate monitor sounded my body was shocked, reflexively sat up from the bed, looking at my mother is still asleep, I put my mind at ease. After a week of drainage, obvious changes, skin and tone are much better, sleep and eat are very good, will want to get up and walk, mom said feel like I feel like a lot better, I don't know what the future will be like, now I can only take one step to see one step at a time!
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