A phone call with The Pig Brother on the summer night of 2020 made me feel unable to calm down for a long time, looking back on the past, I didn't know that the Pig Brother of the Year of the Horn at that time had borne such a heavy burden alone, he was my brother, but I always felt that he was as self-evident as the elder brother. Whenever I talk to him, I am always timid and cowardly, and his words always reveal the reprimand and expectation for me.
Every time I finished talking on the phone, I would cry with grievances, and even call my mother to complain about the "nosy" of the pig brother, so many times, I was bored. When the mobile phone caller shows the phone number of the pig brother, I will always calculate in my mind before I dare to answer: "Have you eaten?" Well, I'm busy, I have time to talk..." I let out a long sigh as the phone hung up, which is a way to avoid the disaster! Otherwise, when I talk to him, I will always be afraid or reprimanded for being wronged.
When he was a child, his temperament was like a delicate girl, and when he was told a few words, he cried his nose, and his courage was small, so he was scared to cry when he showed him a few bugs. Now, he has grown up and become a real man, brave, strong, responsible, and more valuable, he is very simple and frugal. And my contradiction with him is at this point, I am very different from his way of life. When I blurted out, "I'd rather spend a hundred bucks on a glass of boiled water in a fancy restaurant than a hundred bucks on a crowded and noisy food stall." Brother Pig was very excited, I knew, fortunately it was said on the phone, if he was in front of me now, he must have pointed at my nose and scolded: "No wonder you have not been able to save a penny after working for so long, spending money is always weighed and weighed, how?" Food stalls chill you? Eat you to death? It is not wrong to say that you are a big shower, you just haven't lived a poor life, the most difficult time in the family, you just happened to be in junior high school, only a trip home a week, your parents also took care of you, you don't know anything, you don't know how I came over as the eldest son of the family during that time, you don't know what I endured when I was a teenager, anyway, I was poor, I was eager to break open the dime and spend it. How much money is not enough for me, you are good! ”
I was ashamed to hear it, teardrops silently slid down my eyes, and quietly listened to him say, "I have been wearing a piece of clothing for several years, do you see any young man who wears a piece of clothing for several years until it is torn?" Don't you like it and change it? But I can't! I have to save my money, you give you food when you are studying, and once in order to pay for your food, I ate instant noodles for a month! Now that you've read the book, I'll send it to my mother to save up and build a house. The family house is too old, everyone in the village has built a new house, even the poor family Tu Gui family has built two floors, but what about our family? ”
I still remember that on the first day of the New Year, my mother and I went to the Land Temple to worship the gods and came back. Along the way, we talked and laughed, and we were about to arrive home, and my mother sighed and said, "Every family has a new house, our family..., alas!" Somehow this happened! I was very sad in my heart, and I hated myself for not being angry and not having money to build a house for my family. Over the years, the family has been unhappy, my mother's thousands of yuan of meager salary to support the crumbling home, looking at my mother's thin figure, my feet seem to be filled with lead, is my mother, my family's "umbrella man"!
"Do you think you have enough to eat for one person and the whole family is not hungry?" You see how shiny and how many clothes you wear, and a few of your clothes are a month's worth of food for the dog. How much do you give home in a month? How did you give three or two thousand a month for six thousand? Where did the rest of the money go? Hearing this, the shame I had just felt was swept away, and I retorted excitedly: "I rent a house for rent, my own insurance, weekend food and daily consumption, I think I can do enough." And why do you say I give less money to my family? ”
"You can live in a company dormitory!" Dare you say you're not traveling? Look at your circle of friends life is very moist, free to know to eat, drink and have fun! ”
"The company has no dormitories! Moreover, how to spend the money I earn myself is my own business, you have no right to ask, and I have not spent half a cent of you. ”
Brother Pig was silent for a long time: "You have disappointed me so much!" ”
"You know what? At that time, the family was poor enough to eat meat for a few days, still semi-fat and lean, the cheapest kind, Dad only bought a small piece, I cut the meat thinly, I wanted to cut it thinner, as if the quantity of more can make up for the weight of the less. The dog burns the fire, I carefully rummages the slices of meat in the wok, I must fry it fragrantly, preferably a piece can eat the next bowl of rice... I saved two cents to buy leek packets for the dog, bought two of them, and stuffed them all for him. The dog saw that I did not eat, and handed me one 'brother, you also eat', I said I don't like to eat leek packets, in fact, I love to eat leek buns, I swallowed one bite after another, but I am a brother! ”
"Do you remember Liangyuan?" Dad's colleague. Wasn't he unlucky once and was slashed? People said that he had crickets calling in Qu Qu the night before, which was a bad sign. At night, I slept in a small house, and I always heard crickets calling, and I was very scared, afraid that the house would not be good. I got up to catch crickets, one after another, and you all slept, and I cricketed in the dark while I was afraid, and I thought my family was all right. I also heard that there is a stove in the stove at home, and I went to the stove to kneel on the edge of the stove to worship the stove king, and worship the earth god, I dare not turn on the light to let you know, lest you laugh at me, but what can I do as a child to help? I can only use my own methods to protect this family, I want my father's health to get better quickly, to make my mother work less hard, to make the family better, as before. ”
"But what then?" You won't understand, too, that you haven't experienced it like I did, so you won't know what poverty tastes like. Maybe you see the colleagues around you are traveling and high-end restaurants or something, you will feel inferior, you also want to be the same as them, so it is normal for you to be close to them. Maybe it's my problem, my values aren't the same as yours, yours may be normal, and mine is deformed. "My tears fell in clusters again, I was a sister, and this was the heaviness I should have borne, but he walked ahead of me and took over the burden for me, and the young shoulders were worn down with scars.
"Think about it, if you have money, give it to your family more, otherwise you will save it yourself and don't spend it indiscriminately." It's time for me to sleep, first. ”
That night, I stayed up all night. Pig brother graduated from junior high school and said that he didn't want to go to school, and his grades were not good, so it was better to go out early to work and earn money, and the burden on the family was light. I know that my brother took the bus to the north on the night of the first year of high school, that day I covered the quilt and cried for a long time, I am a sister, I should work to share it is me, I did not protect my brother, he did not enter the society before he became an adult, I also suspected that he deliberately did not get good grades, so that the suspension of school is more justified, and the parents are less indebted. Mom said that the younger brother decided to go north temporarily, did not buy a ticket in advance, only stuffed a few clothes into the bag, a child sat in the last row of the car, the last seat is the most bumpy, I don't know if he will be motion sickness, hungry on the road... He also used old newspapers to pressure him to save more than thirty yuan when he was studying, saying that he bought meat for him to eat, and the day before he rode a broken bicycle to the street to buy a shirt for his father...
Brother Pig, in any case, is a very good, very responsible good child, after the wind and rain, he has long been stolen by the years of childishness and innocence, although he grew up, although he calmed down a lot, but his innocence and joy when he was a child has always been in my heart forever, so good brother! Such a good brother! Such a good son!