Idle, turn out the old movie "A Beautiful Mind" to see.
The film tells the story of a genius and at the same time the story of a madman. Are people with super high IQ living in a space that ordinary people can't understand? Nash is as eccentric and withdrawn as all geniuses, his arrogance and narcissism may also be inferior, and he attacks others and tortures himself. Princeton' top university has witnessed his life's journey from glory to madness and then to peace.
From a young age, Nash had hallucinations. In his auditory hallucinations, three characters were always by his side: one was his prodigal son's roommate; one was his roommate's niece, a cute little girl; and one was a defense ministry military personnel. The three people in the film are so real that later in the film, it is as difficult for me as Nash to accept that they are fake.
I'm guessing that these three illusory figures in Nash's life should be a projection of his real psychic world. He was lonely and repressed, so he needed the company of a wildly indulgent and sincere prodigal roommate; he refused to grow up, and he had a hard time in the adult world, and an innocent and lovely little girl represented the warmth of childhood; as for the defense military personnel, it was clear that Nash was the embodiment of his desire for value recognition, and he wanted to be a very important figure.
Thirty years of madness. From handsome and handsome to white-haired, Nash walked in a mentally insane wilderness. Fortunately, genius and madman have an angel-like woman alicia by her side, and with her help and companionship, Nash returns to reason. Although the mental illness was not completely cured, although the hallucinations of the three people still existed, he was able to coexist peacefully with these illusory figures and won the Nobel Prize for game theory in 1994.
Finished watching the movie. What impressed me was not Nash's achievements, but his wife Alicia's inseparability towards him.
However, after seeing more dog blood in marriage, I always like to take a gossipy heart, lift the veil of legend, and go to see the real life.
Then, I found two more influential passages, one from Wikipedia, which I excerpted as follows:
In 1955, he dated alicia larde, a beautiful student of his own, from South America who was studying physics at MIT. In 1957, they got married. After marriage, Nash in 1958 seemed to be reborn, and the symptoms of mental disorders were revealed. Dressed as a baby, he appeared at the New Year's party. Later, their son, John Charles Martin Nash, was diagnosed with severe schizophrenia due to auditory hallucinations, followed by a succession of diagnoses, brief recoveries, and new relapses. In the summer of 1960, he was sluggish, disheveled, with long hair and shawls, and a beard like a tuft of weeds, dangling barefoot on the streets of Princeton, and people tried to avoid him when they saw him. A few years later, because Alicia couldn't bear to live in Nash's shadow, they divorced, but she didn't give up on Nash. After the divorce, Alicia never married again, relying on her meager income as a computer programmer and the help of relatives and friends to continue to take care of her ex-husband and their only son. She insisted that Nash should stay in Princeton because if a man behaved eccentricly, he would be treated as a lunatic elsewhere, and in Princeton, a place that recruited geniuses, people would lovingly think that he might be a genius. In 2001, after decades of ups and downs, Alicia remarried John Nash. In fact, in the long years, Alicia had never left Nash spiritually. On May 23, 2015 local time, John Nash and his wife were in a car accident and died in New Jersey, USA, at the age of 86. His wife, Alicia, 82, also died in a car accident.
From 1955 to 2015, the two men walked together for sixty years. In the past sixty years, there have been drizzles, storms and rains, cold winds and rains, fierce winds and rains... Who knows what it's like in between?
They were divorced, which is a true manifestation of human nature. Who can endure being with a neurosis for so long? Even if this neurosis is cloaked in the aura of genius, the actual life cannot rely on the aura to live, and the double torture of the mind and the body is not something that ordinary people can understand.
There is a detail in the film that touched me a lot. One night, Alicia's desire was rushing, but Nash could not give a man's care, and the depressed Alicia hid in the bathroom and smashed the glass, and the fragments cracked little by little, like a broken life.
As a normal woman with the need to love and be loved, alicia's choice of divorce is normal. If you don't divorce, you will put yourself in a place of doom, either madness or death. Breaking away is a difficult process and a process of self-preservation. If you can say goodbye to the past once and for all, wave your hand without taking away a cloud, you will probably have a new life.
Note, however, that Alicia chose to be estranged rather than away. She never left the place where they lived together, nor did she leave him alone. If alienation is a form of self-preservation, not leaving is a form of selfless love and devotion. She was using her presence to tell the other person: I am here. "I'm here" is really important sometimes, especially for people like Nash who are incapable of surviving.
To be sure, It is difficult for Nash to recover without Alicia's company, and Nash gradually returned to rationality in the 1970s, all of which stemmed from the greatness of this woman.
On the Internet, I saw another influential article: "John Nash I Know", written by Shen Shiqi, a high-achieving student who once studied in Princeton, and this article was even selected for the middle school reading comprehension test questions.
The author is very well written, and I excerpt the opening paragraph:
He was eighty years old when I entered school and didn't move around campus very often. I first met John Nash at the end of my freshman year. One day at the end of my freshman year, I occasionally walked on the road, and I was greeted by two old men, the man was tall and dry, and the woman was short and bloated, and they were dressed in formal clothes, about to participate in some ceremony. I recognized the man as Nash and excitedly pushed alongside my friend. He said, "I saw it earlier." I asked who the woman on the side was, "Who else?" His wife, of course. "I was taken aback by the fact that this image was so different from the beautiful wife played by Jennifer Connery. When my friend saw me shy, he was half exhortation and half mockery, "When I was young, I was pretty, but now I'm old." Speaking of which, "A Beautiful Mind" talks about how they are fairy lovers, in fact, she asked for a divorce shortly after he went crazy, and it was not until the film in 2001 that they remarried. The two old men walked past us, staggering and silent, so distant from each other, like the alienation of strangers, and like the estrangement of those who had known each other for too many years. The bubble of the miracle of love that "A Beautiful Mind" created in my heart was thus punctured, and I just saw the humble late life of an ordinary old man.
After reading this text, I preliminarily determined that the author may be only eight buckets tall, but lacks experience in marriage.
First of all, Alicia is an eighty-year-old man, and is it not somewhat discriminatory to describe a twilight old lady with the word short and bloated? It's as if teenage girls often see women in their thirties and feel overwhelmed and call them "old women." As everyone knows, every woman will be old, every woman has been young, look at the photos of Alicia when she was young, it is indeed a beautiful woman. Time will leave traces on everyone's face, but there will always be something beyond the face.
Nash in reality and his wife Alicia
They were also once young
Second, the author mentions the estrangement of two people—both like the alienation of strangers and the alienation of those who have known each other for too many years. Obviously, it is not the same feeling as the tacit understanding and intimacy in the film. However, for Alicia and Nash, even if there is no tacit understanding and no communication, just being able to accompany them is great love. I can't even think of what motivates Alicia to hold out bravely for so many years, and if it were me, I wouldn't have been able to do it.
In addition, from the text at the end of this article, it is known that Alicia and Nash's son is as talented as his father, and he also suffers from schizophrenia, which is a cruel thing for a woman, and I believe that she would rather have a healthy and ordinary son than a healthy and ordinary husband, all of which are warm with geniuses. However, life gave her, she gritted her teeth and continued hard, is this not a kind of greatness?
Fate is uncertain, and the heart is always beautiful.