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On October 27, the marriage documentary observation program "Goodbye Lover" ended, and three couples facing emotional crises either let go or start over.
It is also this show that people see the once popular but quietly retired actress Guo Keyu, see her life in this unknown decade, and see her perception of life.
Guo Keyu was born in Beijing, his parents were introduced to each other, and they did not talk about any feelings and got married in a hurry.
In Guo Keyu's impression, his father would always lock himself in a room to paint, as if he only had painting in his life. The child is particularly sensitive, she can feel the alienation of her parents, the father is obsessed with painting and handicrafts, and the mother only has oil, salt and vinegar in her eyes.
In order to catch up with her husband's pace, Guo Keyu's mother will also read many books and want to get her husband's attention, but she has never been recognized by her father.
Even if it was his own daughter, Guo's father did not let Guo Keyu really enter his own world, and the father and daughter did not have too much communication. The only thing he and his father can accomplish together is when doing carpentry work, and Guo Keyu often gives his father a hand.
But Guo Keyu did not like this pitiful amount of time together at all, and she was afraid of this emotional father, afraid that she would anger him.
After going to school, Guo Keyu's beauty slowly showed.
Once her good friend told her that she was the school flower at school, Guo Keyu was very happy to return home and told her mother that her classmates praised her for her good looks. Father happened to come out and heard the words.
Then he said that girls are beautiful and have nothing to be proud of, and good temperament is the most important.
At that time, Guo Keyu did not understand what "temperament" was, although the relationship with her father was not very close, but her father's words had an impact on her, and she had been exploring this inner relationship with the skin bag.
Guo Keyu's debut was purely accidental. At the age of 16, when Guo Keyu was queuing up on the street to make a public call, he was discovered by director Zhang Jiarui and invited her to participate in "Sun Pigeon".
At the age of 17, he starred in "Red Cherry" and made Guo Keyu famous in one battle, winning numerous awards, winning the titles of Best Actress at the Shanghai International Film Festival and Best Actress at the Golden Flower Award. However, with the popularity of the role of "Chu Chu", Guo Keyu was also knocked down by more and more malicious speculations, and she could not bear to be so sensitive by nature, and gradually did not take the role much.
In addition to picking up a few of her favorite books, Guo Keyu devoted all her energy to music.
She was deeply influenced by her mother, because when she was a child, she watched her mother sing Peking Opera, and she would hum small songs in her spare time. Also out of love for music, Guo Keyu met Ou Yang and Zhou Guangbin, the three of them often ate and chatted together, and sang with music when they rose, but they did not want to send an album run notice, so recording is also very fun.
Without much long-term consideration, she formed a rock band with Ou Yang and Zhou Guangbin, and the three casual people did not think much about it, and at that time, the term "star chaser" was particularly popular, and they used it.
Guo Keyu enjoyed life at this time. Doing what she loves, talking sweet love with her boyfriend, in her words, her love is passionate, whether it is career or love.
However, her love affair ended quickly, and this blow slowed her down for a long time without slowing down, love was too heavy for her, sinking to the point that she did not know how to be good.
When I received the play "Perfect Bride", Guo Keyu was already 29 years old.
In the play, she met the male protagonist Zhang He, and Zhang He fell in love with this girl at first sight, and they were together as soon as the play was over, and a month later they entered the marriage hall. Guo Keyu later confessed that marriage was only a sense of crisis forced by age, and she wanted to have a child who had a life link with her.
But she omitted the most secret part, she was open at the beginning, she tried to be a "virtuous wife" for Zhang He, she was willing to give up everything for her husband, including the acting career she loved, but Zhang He's tendons made Guo Keyu gradually understand that he did not understand her. Guo Keyu said that Zhang He once asked her whether she had eaten, but her answer made Zhang He very angry, she said the decoration of the restaurant, the music between the meals and the dishes, said a lot of she received her husband's disregard, Guo Keyu's heart sank, since he did not listen, then she did not say.
Personality discord led them to quarrel several times, and finally no one was able to turn the page. She consoled herself that the meaning of marriage was not to raise children together? Without love, there is no love, and it will not be good anyway.
The days went on like this.
At the age of 39, Guo Keyu was tired of circling around her husband and children, and a serious illness that had been lurking for a long time knocked him down. She looked at famous doctors, but she could not find the cause of the disease, and could only be treated conservatively.
She took hormone pills, the whole person gained thirty pounds, she could not adapt to her bulky body, the breath became weaker, and she could not sing. She looked at herself in the mirror, and in a trance she did not know who this person was, and Guo Keyu recalled that at that time, she was "just a big aunt."
However, the actors of her generation are very simple, and Guo Keyu has a gentle personality, and many people make friends with her. After getting married, in order to take care of her family, she gave up her screen job and turned to drama performance. But this serious illness made her unable to even perform plays, and she could only drag her bloated body every day to watch them rehearse in the theater.
Guo Keyu, who is very sensitive in her heart, does not know how to express her gratitude to them, so she goes to the kitchen of the rehearsal hall to cook for them, she said that she will not feel owed to others. Tormented by illness and inability to act, she didn't even want to take a child with her, and she shut herself in her room every night, thinking about her life.
In the end, Guo Keyu figured it out that she was going to return to the original her, no matter when, she belonged to herself. She didn't belong to her parents, she didn't belong to her husband, she didn't belong to her son, she was her. She calmly proposed a divorce to Zhang He, who had been sleeping together for ten years, and the two of them immediately completed the divorce procedures.
Guo Keyu moved out of the home where he had lived for ten years with his son and rented a small house to live in.
For the sake of his own life and his son's life, Guo Keyu decided to make a comeback.
In fact, before the divorce, Guo Keyu took the director's phone, but the director gave a particularly low salary. From the beginning of the highly anticipated "girl film queen", and then to the few film contracts now, Guo Keyu is aggrieved, and this psychological gap makes her feel very uncomfortable.
But then she also let go, she said, no matter what, there are also highlight moments, life can not always be smooth. Instead of bitterness, she now has to support her and her son's small family and realize her value again. She lost those thirty pounds, found an agent, and planned to return to the screen.
When the "Goodbye Lover" program team found her, Guo Keyu actually wanted to refuse.
She subconsciously believes that this is a "dog blood" show, and her marriage to Zhang He should not become a joke after dinner for others, even if they are divorced. But after she finished talking to the program team, Guo Keyu changed her mind.
This show has no script, all rely on the guests' own reconciliation, the program team told Guo Keyu, we have only one request for all guests, do not act, as long as it is true. Rushing to this "true" word, Guo Keyu frankly appeared on this program. The purpose of her trip is to work with Zhang He to release the past, and for many divorced couples, this kind of relief is very incredible, and separation represents an incompatibility. Guo Keyu said that in the last section, talking to Zhang He is always talking about things, but now they are like friends, they can talk about the past calmly, and talk about the future by the way.
The current Guo Keyu seems to be the same as the previous Guo Keyu, she is quiet and gentle, kind and sincere, she loves music, sometimes goes to running activities, she is also active on the performance stage. But life internalized her into the current Guo Keyu, she dared to love, but also loved life more, after suffering from illness, she was more in awe of life. She knows what she should be, and she won't wronged herself for anyone.
Although Guo Keyu is not as young and beautiful as before, the years have left not only scars on her body, but also precipitation.