At that time, you and I first met, and the sunshine was beautiful. We met at the next stop happy coffee hut, I was thinking of a wonderful future, you sat across from me, that night we made games to play Truth or Dare, I always lost, talked a lot about my past and future plans, and so did you.
Later, I went with you to register for the exam in a different place, a long journey, you said that you often do this, all the way through the sorrow, I felt sad in my heart for several days, and then I will protect you, give you comfort and rely on the arm, give you all my pure love.
No matter where you go, I am willing to follow you to the end of the world, quit my job and start all over again, those vows are not to please you to say so, that is my heartfelt words. You also asked a question in case you were admitted to the provincial capital, and I did not hesitate to answer: I will go there with you to find a job and struggle.
I go to see you every Friday afternoon after work, and I am full of joy. Sometimes on Monday morning to send you to work, and occasionally late, when the mood is frank and happy, seeing your sorrow and sadness, I want to create all the joy and beauty for you, and share with you all the good mood and the unforgettable experience with me and the scenery I passed.
I know you have a bad temper because I like you and I can tolerate everything about you. In the past, I encountered many difficulties in my work, and I was able to control my emotions and calmly call you to ask for warmth, such as not eating, not always eating noodles, and so on.
No matter where I am, I still call you every day to report my trajectory, whether it is noon or night. That period of country life brought me a lot of good memories, like pearls sliding down the morning when the sun was rising, like a thin light veil covering the hazy beauty of the face, calling you in the quiet night to tell the ancient and close and harmonious past.
If one day I leave the city and someone asks what is the most memorable thing to remember, I think it should be the square. On Fridays or Saturdays at dusk, I would rent a bicycle to take you for a ride, and as it got darker you drifted in the darkness of the square.
I still remember that time, a little girl begged me to buy a rose for my sister on a bicycle, and I asked her to send the flower directly to you, and you gladly accepted it, and the flower is still blooming in my mind. On that green grass, I knelt down on one knee at their request to perform a marriage proposal to you, when I had a wooden expression, and I forgot the plot on tv and said, "Marry me."
Most of the time I will wait for you in the square and the train station, the dusk and night view of the square is very beautiful, seeing the pedestrians sent away by the train, I am suddenly and inexplicably sad, even if I am taken away by the train one day, in fact, it really happens, sometimes telepathy is very strong.
Every weekend as long as you have dinner from the square or food community, I will buy you a rose to make you happy, although you say that sending flowers is too vulgar, but I want to keep that moment, the rose represents a deep love, she represents a responsibility, I am not stingy about feelings.
One night we passed by the square, and it was very lively, and you said you liked that rag doll, and I pitched hard, but I didn't hit, as if you had thrown a few, just like me. You throw darts very accurately, I asked the boss to give you ten darts in a row, when you can't hit, you will call out and pull your legs out, which is really cute.
I haven't played since high school, because I was smart with you.
The night before that marathon you came back from the field exam, I went to the train station to pick you up, that night the train was late, nearly a little bit to arrive, at that moment my heart was very painful, seeing you bumping and wandering was many times more difficult than when I was in a desperate situation, I think a girl who has experienced too much will be hurt by the years, my heart can not be calm for a long time.
That night, I returned to the company dormitory with a tired body and mind, and actually forgot the company door, so I killed the accommodation in a trance. Every time I see you sad, I will like you more and more, love you, and I want to give you the greatest happiness. I posted a note on QQ one day saying that I want to take me back to my alma mater Qingdao in the future.
I have described to you many times, Qingdao is a very beautiful place, where the sea and sky line, the railway station is a hundred is the sea, there are huge ships, and there are fast boats lined up, majestic, in winter seagulls flock, as long as you hold food, you can lure the seagulls to rest on your shoulders. I used to go to our school by ferry, but now I have an undersea tunnel and a bridge across the sea, which is very beautiful. Qingdao is home to many celebrities. Such as Huang Bo, as well as Huang Xiaoming, Qingdao held two events at the time of the 2008 Olympic Games.
The dusk and sunrise there are like falling on sea level, you say unrealistic, there is no time later. I also told you that our school is not far from the sea, there is a beautiful beach, the Tangdao Bay next to the China University of Petroleum is the most suitable for cycling, it is all made of wooden boards on the shore, it is very comfortable and comfortable, and the shore is green. I told you that after our classmates gather, I will definitely take you there, our school has a lot of willows, there is a small river in the middle of the slow flow, on both sides of the willow trees. Benches are set up every few meters on the shore, suitable for falling in love and reading books, and many previous love affairs had to be occupied in advance. I wrote a small poem about the world under the island city, so that you can see the scenery of our school.
You always say that after the stabilization, there is no time at all, I said that time is squeezed out, I want to take you to the British Kangqiao to feel Mr. Xu Zhimo's farewell to the Kangqiao, see the Statue of Liberty in the United States, how eager I am, and the Eiffel Tower in France and its Provence in France, especially the Provence in France is very romantic, you always laugh at me unrealistic, whimsical, in fact, as long as you work hard, dreams can be realized, after all, there are dreams to let it go to reality.
I told you last night
Those good pasts are good if they can be realized, otherwise they are a fairy tale, because this fairy tale is also woven by me and you. I'm always weaving a lot of dreams for you, just waiting for them to come true, but everything has become illusory.
Many parts of this city have our footprints, the wetland park has my favorite rainbow bridge, I often compare it to Kangqiao, that time the old clock came, we went to Fengchi Garden together for a circle, a very beautiful lake, like the West Lake, is also Yang Liu Qingqing, after visiting we went to the old city to eat the pan and drink together, that was the first time I saw you drink, you said that you also cried when you were drunk.
May Day was going to take you to Lijiang to play, all said well, but then the plan changed, did not go to success, a little regret. You said that you have not been to this Jiaxiu Building, that day I came out of the hospital with you to eat stinky tofu in the square, after eating I suddenly said to take you to the Jiaxiu Building, when the car drove there, it was raining heavily, and we played in the studio until dark before returning. The Red Show House is a small regret. I called you on the night of 520, and you seemed to have drunk some wine, and you were in a bad mood, saying a lot of confused words, but it hurt in my heart.
One day I was in a bad mood, the company headquarters called me to go to a meeting, that afternoon I walked out of the company five meters away from the first time to tell you the most beautiful and precious news, I was transferred to the company headquarters, then the mood can not only be described as joy, more is "brilliance". Although you didn't act happy, didn't congratulate or praise, I was incredibly excited inside.
In the face of huge work pressure, I can overcome the face, as long as the feelings have a home, there are good expectations. Although I have to be ridiculed every day, I will still face it correctly, because with you, my heart is open. I told you that because there are so many people coming and going in the office, I will clean up a little early every day.
In fact, I didn't have a good time, and every day at noon I also ate fried rice. Although you don't care and care about me, I just want you to share my happiness and keep my sadness to yourself.
A few days before Tanabata, I thought about an unusual Valentine's Day, not old-fashioned, novel, although there is no experience but you can try to do it, Friday evening you came, I eagerly came out of the elevator door to send the information over, and then I came to the bottom of the mall to pick you up, I took you to eat snail chicken, in fact, I do not like to eat, only heard others say that you like it. When I sat down I took a cool VIP movie card out of my pants pocket, and we agreed to go to the movie tomorrow, saying that we were going to see the movies, and we said that we were going to have four people.
On the morning of Tanabata, I was waiting for you at the entrance of a shopping mall, and I entered the QQ space and saw that you sent a very surprised and joyful speech. You said that you received some strange blessing text messages from all over the country, I would smile at that time, you came to me, I took your mobile phone to read those blessing text messages without jealousy, smiled in my heart, saw you smile happily, I was in a beautiful mood. When crossing the street, I met some acquaintances, and I helped you carry your bag to greet them a bit incoherently, afraid that you would not be happy or beautiful.
In the evening we played a circle game together at the entrance of the cinema, the three of us won a lot of drinks and small wallets, and also took a group photo together, I quietly took a rose from behind and appeared in front of you, I hope you are happy as a flower, you are also happy to take a picture with the flowers, then we are all very happy and brilliant. That good memory was like a CD, and those beautiful pictures appeared clearly in my mind.
After sending off my friends, I lied and said that I would take you back to my office to sort out the information, and it was very late, and I woke up the doorman and begged him to let me in and get something. I hid the prepared blue rose behind me, walked up to you and suddenly said that it was given to you, you were a little upset, I said this is very special and different, you seem to say it again, too vulgar.
The blue rose wrapped in a large grass green heart-shaped box that you like is the most beautiful gift I manage with my heart, and at the bus stop you opened it hastily and did not see anything, one day I suddenly asked you, how many flowers I sent you, you said you did not know, do not know whether you are unintentional or intentional. The hundred blue roses were filled with my pure and immaculate love, and my friends said why not ninety-nine, my love was like this: either don't love, love is 100% love.
A hundred roses means 100% love, white head and old age. Later I reminded you to know that all the blessing text messages you received were deliberately arranged by me, I want to give you a million blessings from all over the country, I wish you a million happiness, it is so simple, this is the reason why you think I always want to look at your phone jealously that day, I want to give you a surprise is silent, I give you a lot of hints, but you did not find out, I am just afraid that there is no aftertaste after that moment, so I finally told you, to say a word in my heart I did not blame you.
After I came back from you the night before, you were in a bad mood, I said a lot of words, I told you that my love is simple and single-minded, there should be no blemish dust, you said that the memories cannot go out, I said: "I can only bring you happiness and make you happy, I can't help you remember, everyone's past is a thick book, I burned my thick title page and you started again". I say a lot, and on an emotional standpoint I admit that I am selfish, as long as you are very serious about me, I am 100% of you.
I lost sleep that night, I didn't sleep all night, and the walking dead were all on my way to work yesterday morning. I think I'm really sad. I also keep sending you WeChat messages, you didn't speak for about a minute, you said that sentence, we are not appropriate, the last sentence is what I said, we talked a lot, talked about our bits and pieces since April, I said a lot of pitiful words, I said I was also tired, although very tired but very happy and frank, this beautiful short time is like a shooting star.
Just remember. We all have our own directions in the future, and I think it should be better to be in a casual and elegant environment on such occasions. It's just that there is no time without that last attachment, that is, an hour of floating across the phone not far away to say goodbye to our distance.
On the way back, there were very few pedestrians, I took out my mobile phone to call you again, the last time in the way of a couple of few minutes, you said I can let go, really let go? That is also the most humble relief to comfort yourself, when I love you, I have humbled myself to a lower place than dust, because you are injured and need protection, I give you the comfort of the soul, I carry the banner of caring for you, give you all aspects of love.
I may not leave as lightly as you said, sometimes I look very free, in fact, I can't get out of the heart network I have woven, love is not so simple, but you give me those memories I should come out as soon as possible to meet a better tomorrow.
In the end, they are all blessings and comforts. I looked at the street where pedestrians were drifting away, holding in my hand the information that I had printed two hours ago, I told you that I was going to take the exam with you, and now it seems that everything has disappeared in an instant, and I want to put the information in this river and let her take away all my sorrows and thoughts, and at the same time I hope that I will suddenly disappear, and then I think about where I will disappear if I disappear? Every fork in the road and every street here is the wait I'm most familiar with every day, and I take my phone every day after work and look at the floor and walk to call you. At most, I disappeared into the night, and I would come back at dawn.
The night before yesterday I recalled the past over and over again, and many beautiful and unbeautiful people appeared in front of my window one by one, although not the safe miss, but much more complicated than the miss. Sitting in the office this morning, I look like I don't have a soul, I deleted the novel called "Girl in the Sun" written for you on the D disk, this novel is an inspirational book about you, I wrote for a long time.
During the time I spent with you, I wrote a lot of small poems and a total of more than eighty poems, and I originally found a publishing house edition to give to you after a total of more than three hundred poems next year, but I also deleted her.
Yesterday at noon when I was ready to call you, asked you what to do, did not leave work, go to dinner, but think about the time difference, but in the end still did not take it out, I did not go to work in the afternoon, work is sad, I want to be quiet, leave myself a little time to take advantage of the sober record of those youth that have passed away in the past.