Christmas Eve of 14 years, for rock singer Jiang Xin is destined to be an unforgettable day, just returned home, did not wait for the peace fruit of her heart, waiting for only the bad news that she could not bear, her husband Zhang Yongguang actually hanged himself at home.
In advance, Zhang Yongguang is a strong and pastel figure in china's rock history, because this versatile drummer created China's first new rock band in 1986: Ado, for Zhang Yongguang, the drum in his hand and the music in his heart are most of the sunshine in his life.
In the rock industry, Zhang Yongguang has a well-known name, that is, "Drum Third Child", those fans who like him are directly affectionate to call him "Three Children", and some directly call him "Three Masters".
The 80s and 90s were the best soil for rock music to grow, and the music-loving drum master took his beloved drums and Ado band to play his sweat and youth everywhere.
Drum Third Master is a cheerful loner, everyone can usually only see him on the stage with a smile and passion to show the charm of music, do not know that behind the stage, he is also silently suffering from the loneliness after the passion.
"The more I sweat on stage, the longer I am silent offstage"
For Zhang Yongguang, the 52-year-old is like a firework that has bloomed, and it is difficult for him to continue to play moving drum music, so he chooses to end his slowly flat life.
Zhang Yongguang left, but his figure remained in Jiang Xin's heart, because Jiang Xin knew that this man was her last choice and the man she loved most in her life.
In fact, sometimes life is so unfair, Jiang Xin's emotional road seems to have always been filled with the word "sadness".
For women who do not have a lot of emotional experiences, once they fall in love with a man, they are big enough to fight for themselves and small enough to blossom in the dust.
In 1988, at the age of 17, Jiang Xin followed his parents' wishes and came to the capital to study, although his parents' professions were doctors, but for the sake of his daughter's future, he resolutely chose an accounting major for Jiang Xin.
Jiang Xin, who has been a well-behaved girl since she was a child, is actually very artistically talented, and the music with strong rhythm and melodious singing is also secretly provoking Jiang Xin's restless heart.
The colorful bar singing performance attracted many freshmen, which became an opportunity for Jiang Xin to fall in love with rock and roll and get to know Dou Wei.
At that time, less than a month after the start of school, Jiang Xin heard that there would be a Black Panther Band in the bar near the school to sing and perform, out of love for rock music, Jiang Xin took advantage of the holiday time to come to the bar to watch the Black Panther Band perform.
The young Dou only had the charm that Jiang Xin was difficult to explain, and at that time, Dou Wei, who was also 17 or 8 years old, had a capable board inch, and his angular face made him an ideal boy in the hearts of many girls.
The charm of rock music is very passionate and charming, and the boy who blooms the rock charm on the stage makes Jiang Xin move, Jiang Xin admits that the moment she first saw it, she knew that her later time may be inseparable from rock and roll, and it is inseparable from this boy who is full of light.
Jiang Xin resolutely threw away the head rope of combing the ponytail, began to wear his hair, and embraced his music and his girlish dream in a new posture.
Open heart knot, flying self, new posture, Jiang Xin knows that rock and roll is what she wants, Dou Wei is also what she wants, in order to have both, she changed into a black personality leather coat, put on a dashing wide-legged denim, this new image makes her very satisfied.
Love is really a difficult thing for boys and girls to describe, it can make the low-key and introverted Dou Wei bravely express his love for Jiang Xin, and it can also make a Jiang Xin who always shows the image of a well-behaved woman become confident and lively and cheerful.
Soon Jiang Xin was with Dou Wei and spent four years, young girls are dizzy for love is a very common thing, Jiang Xin is no exception, in 1991 Jiang Xin made a decision that parents could not understand at all, quit school.
For Jiang Xin, being with Dou Wei is love, singing rock is a dream, and dropping out of school and singing in various places is freedom.
Young life is the love of love, ideals and freedom as faith.
After dropping out of school, the two began to let go of themselves, new and old good luck, CD coffee and other places left traces of Jiang Xin and Dou Wei love and rock and roll, the longer they got along, the more Jiang Xin found that he loved this low-key and free man.
Later, when it came to the age of talking about marriage, Jiang Xin told her parents about her own affairs, although her parents were reluctant to do anything, but after all, things had happened, so the two children were in love and living well together was the most important, so they also agreed to what they were together.
Unexpectedly, the appearance of a woman completely shattered Jiang Xin's marriage dream, and this woman is now the queen of heaven who is also thunderous: Faye Wong.
At that time, Faye Wong was the girlfriend of Luan Shu, the keyboardist of the Black Panther Band, and Jiang Xin was also the girlfriend of Dou Wei, the lead singer of the Black Panther Band, and according to common sense, the two would not intersect emotionally, but Faye Wong was a buddy who was partial to her boyfriend.
It was also after the first meeting between the two in 1991 that Faye Wong began to have frequent contact with Dou Wei in private, and the feelings between the two gradually warmed up in exchanges, but how could paper wrap up the fire?
At that time, Jiang Xin and Dou Wei had already lived together, looking at the extra gifts in the room from time to time, and Dou Wei, who did not return from time to time, Jiang Xin had a bad premonition.
It was the spring of 92 years when Dou Wei left the Panther Band, formed the Dream Band, and began to prepare for the band's first concert, Jiang Xin heard the news and ran to the scene to celebrate Dou Wei with joy, but unexpectedly became the beginning of the end of this relationship.
Although Dou Wei was not found at the concert site, dou Wei and Faye Wong were found in the hotel, looking at the unsightly scene in front of him, Jiang Xin was stunned, and tears flowed silently.
Jiang Xin, who had returned to God, was surprisingly sane, and then the three of them chose to eat in a courtyard in Beijing to solve the matter peacefully.
Jiang Xin's premonition was correct, because Dou Wei ended this love that made the outside world envious the next day in a calm telephone chat.
The blow of this incident to Jiang Xin's heart was very serious, and for a long time she did not have the courage to fall in love again, or even to sing rock and roll again.
Time slowly passed, out of the emotional vortex of Dou Wei, Jiang Xin, after two years of silence, the 25-year-old Jiang Xin once again embarked on his own rock road, with the launch of albums such as "Blossom Undefeated" and "May", Jiang Xin began to recover his vitality, so did his career and feelings.
Jiang Xin did not give up rock, rock did not give up Jiang Xin, in addition to bringing Jiang Xin happiness and success, it once again brought love to Jiang Xin.
In 2003, Jiang Xin met Zhang Yongguang, the third son of the drum, and the two like-minded people soon fell in love, during which the relationship between the two has been maintained very well.
Zhang Yongguang, the third grandfather of the drum who seemed to be full of vitality on the stage, did not expect that when he proposed to Jiang Xin, he was indeed so low-key and sincere:
"Cooking and washing clothes will be my business, you just need to have a good and happy life, do rock well, live yourself!" 」
In a short sentence, Zhang Yongguang spent 11 years to prove that this is not a false statement.
In 2014, her husband died, and Jiang Xin's life seems to have lost its goal, some people say that Jiang Xin now likes to travel around the world, I think this statement is somewhat inaccurate, this is called wandering.
Jiang Xin is now 49 years old, still single, from her later song "Rebirth" can be seen that she is still a person full of enthusiasm for life, but why no longer love? Because Jiang Xin knows:
"It is difficult for her heart to tolerate others, after all, a momentary heartbeat is not better than the long-term affection of companionship."