In 2018, a "Floating Light of the Past" caused an uproar on the Internet, in which Lin Wanzhen accused Qiong Yao of how she robbed her husband.
For a time, the former "godmother of love" Qiong Yao was pushed to the cusp of the storm.
In fact, this is not the first time That Qiong Yao has been scolded, before she was criticized for the three views, and most of the novels she wrote were love stories of cheating men and Xiao San.
With the exposure of Qiong Yao's emotional history, more and more people find that her life is like Qiong Yao drama, the dog is bloody, committing suicide three times, robbing other people's husbands, and it is Qiong Yao herself who destroys the three views more than Qiong Yao drama.
In 1938, Qiong Yao fell to the ground.
War is raging and times are turbulent. In order to escape the war, her parents decided to take 6-year-old Qiong Yao and her two younger brothers to Sichuan to make a living.
After a bumpy escape along the way, Qiong Yao accidentally separated from her two younger brothers.
The pressure of life and the blow of losing a son made the mother Yuan Xingshu hide her face and cry bitterly, and said to her husband Chen Zhiping, "The child is lost, we have no meaning in living, it is better to commit suicide together." ”
Therefore, his parents dragged the ignorant Qiong Yao step by step to the middle of the river and sought to commit suicide.
When the cold river water spread across her neck, Qiong Yao finally couldn't help but cry, "I'm afraid..."
The mother cried and said, "It's okay if we die, the phoenix is still so small, what can she do?" ”
The family's heart lit up with hope and returned to the shore.
Young Qiong Yao's teeth trembled because of the wet and frozen, and she looked at her pale parents and felt the taste of death for the first time.
Later, she wrote in the book: "At such a young age, I learned about suicide and death. That time, I was left with a very heavy post-traumatic stress disorder, which made me often want to end myself later in life. ”
At the age of 11, Qiong Yao's family went to Taiwan, and life became less tight.
As teachers, parents attach great importance to the education of their children, and even Qiong Yao's sister has to be reprimanded by her mother for scoring 98 points.
That time, Qiong Yao only scored 20 points, and she squeezed the thin roll of paper and handed it to her mother, not daring to look directly into her eyes.
"Can you learn from your sister?"
A sentence destroyed Qiong Yao's psychological defense line, she collapsed and cried, remembering that when she was a child, her parents took her to the river to commit suicide, and she suddenly felt that she could not survive.
She went to more than 30 pharmacies, bought a whole bottle of sleeping pills, and swallowed them all.
When she opened her eyes again, Qiong Yao saw her mother's crying eyes swollen like a walnut, took her hand, and called her nickname over and over again, "Phoenix, let's be reborn again as we once were." ”
However, Qiong Yao was not reborn like a phoenix, she still did not like to learn, she liked to write, and she liked to bury all her emotions between the lines.
Classmates all felt that Qiong Yao was like Lin Daiyu, delicate and affectionate. And Qiong Yao felt that the whole world did not understand her, until she met her 25-year-old Chinese language teacher, Jiang Ren.
Jiang Ren's appearance was like a beam of light shining into Qiong Yao's dark world, guiding her forward. Soon, Qiong Yao resonated with him, was attracted to him, and then fell into the quagmire of love.
Teacher-student love is not allowed in any era, but Qiong Yao can't help but fall in love with Jiang Ren. She felt that Jiang Ren understood her.
Until this relationship was discovered by Qiong Yao's mother, she was extremely angry and did not understand why her daughter, who had worked so hard to raise, would like her 25-year-old teacher.
Qiong Yao pleaded bitterly for Jiang Ren, but her mother Yuan Xingshu still wrote an anonymous report letter and reported Jiang Ren to various organs.
Jiang Ren, who was discredited, was dismissed from the school and sent to work in the countryside, and this forbidden love came to an end.
Qiong Yao swallowed the medicine again to commit suicide, but her life was hard and she was saved again.
She is like a duckweed without support, rising and falling in this world full of gray haze. She was even more silent, and the only thing she could say was paper and pencil until Qingjun appeared.
That day, Qiong Yao and her brother were playing bridge at home, and it happened that the literature lover Qingjun Mu Qiongyao's father came to visit, and the two of them met in this way.
In the process of getting along, Qiong Yao found that Qingjun also liked to write, and the common topic made the two people talk very happily.
After that, Qingjun often asked Qiongyao to go out to play, go hunting in the mountains together, decorate Qingjun's broken hut together, and write together under the dim lamp.
While writing together again, Qingjun plucked up the courage and said to Qiong Yao, "Let's get married." ”
Qiong Yao was stunned, and Qingjun came over to hold her hand again, with a sincere face: "Instead of being in two places and writing alone, it is better to get together and write together!" You tell me? ”
The Qingjun of those days really walked into Qiong Yao's heart and brought comfort to her crippled life. So, she agreed to Qingjun's marriage proposal.
When her mother learned of this, she was particularly opposed, and she felt that Qingjun was a sour student who was very poor.
"I think you still accept your heart and go to college!"
The experience of falling off the list many times made Qiong Yao tremble as soon as she heard about the university entrance examination. In contrast, she felt how understanding Qingjun was, at least supporting her in doing what she liked.
When the mother saw that Qiong Yao had made up her mind, she did not stop her any longer and agreed to the marriage between the two.
It turns out that love without material is a mess.
Qiong Yao, who had tasted the sweetness of marriage for the first time, did not realize this, until the two of them had a big fight over the three-dollar rice dumplings, she realized that money is not omnipotent, but no money is absolutely impossible.
So she worked harder to write articles and earn some money to supplement her family.
At the same time, his son Xiaoqing was also born.
As time passed, the problem became more and more obvious, and Qiong Yao couldn't help but give advice to Qingjun, but he said: "Saying so much and doing so much, you obviously think I'm poor." ”
Qiong Yao was very aggrieved, but she had to work hard to make money.
However, life could not afford to wait for them, and after repeated traumas in writing, Qingjun finally lowered his noble head and became a civil servant to subsidize his family.
However, this is not the life that Qingjun wants, so after each work, he will lie down in front of the desk to write articles, but the results are always not satisfactory.
The deviation between dreams and reality made the quarrels between Qiong Yao and Qingjun frequent, and every time Qiongyao was aggrieved and shed tears, Qingjun apologized afterwards.
After leaving writing, Keijun's career slowly improved, and soon, he was sent to work abroad.
Just when Qiong Yao thought that her life was going to be better, Qingjun, who was abroad, suddenly asked her for living expenses, saying that she had no money to spend.
Qiong Yao did not doubt anything else, and hurriedly wrote a manuscript, that is, "Lover's Valley", which was submitted to the "Crown" magazine.
That was the first time she submitted an article to "Crown", the time was rushed, the writing was rough, but the unexpected manuscript was very fast, and after getting the manuscript fee, Qiong Yao immediately called the money to Qingjun. As everyone knows, this is the prelude to the future breakup.
At some point, Qingjun became infected with gambling. Qiong Yao advised him not to gamble anymore, and he promised very well in his mouth, but he still went his own way in behavior.
Until Qiong Yao's 25th birthday, she waited silently for a long time and could not wait for Qingjun, and her heart was like falling into an ice cave.
Finally, Qingjun rushed in a daze, still holding a few scattered bills in his hand, and looked at Qiong Yao helplessly: "You see, I still won a little!" ”
Qiong Yao smashed the banknote on Qingjun and proposed a divorce with tears in her eyes.
Frustrated in love, proud of her career, Qiong Yao's career development after divorce is getting better and better, and "Six Dreams" and "Smoke and Rain" have been published in "Crown".
This made Ping Xintao, the founder of Crown Magazine, notice Qiong Yao, and he invited Qiong Yao to do a TV interview.
At that time, Qiong Yao was also very curious about Ping Xintao, so she agreed to come down. After getting off the train, she was just about to ask where Ping Xintao was when a man called out her name.
Qiong Yao was very surprised and asked Ping Xintao how he recognized her. Ping Xintao smiled and said, "I recognize you from "Outside the Window." ”
Such a special answer made Qiong Yao's heart stir up a layer of waves, and after the interview, she had a meal with Ping Xintao.
After handling everything, Qiong Yao got on the train back to Taipei, and she just sat down, but found that Ping Xintao also followed.
"It just so happens that I'm okay today, send you to Taichung, and I'll come back."
Although Qiong Yao was surprised, she didn't think much about it. Along the way, the two talked about literature and had a good conversation. Before getting off the bus, Ping Xintao gave Qiong Yao something, "For you, go home and look at it again." ”
When she got home, Qiong Yao unpacked it and found that it was a stack of records with a small note attached.
"Writing is hard, please laugh at the record player."
Qiong Yao couldn't say what she felt in her heart, at this time, she found that there was an extra record player at home, which was also sent by Ping Xintao.
The relationship between the two developed by leaps and bounds, and Qiong Yao handed over all her articles to Ping Xintao to take care of and became a professional writer.
In order to make Qiong Yao's writing more smooth, Ping Xintao hired a nanny to take care of her, and often bought small gifts for her recreation.
One after the other, the two secretly had a love affair, and the beloved Qiong Yao completely forgot about Ping Xintao and his wife Lin Wanzhen and the three children.
At that time, when "Window" was made into a movie and added bricks and tiles to Qiong Yao's career again, her parents called her home and pointed at her nose and scolded.
"It's not enough that you wrote a book to scold your parents, you have to make a movie to scold your parents!"
The mother was so angry that she trembled and threatened Qiong Yao with a hunger strike, and Qiong Yao cried so much that she could not help herself, and even knelt down to pray for her mother not to go on hunger strike again.
After Ping Xintao learned of this incident, he was shocked and distressed, and vowed to protect Qiong Yao even more in the future.
This unsightly relationship lasted until Ping Xintao's wife, Lin Wanzhen, called qiong yao xiaosan, and she fell into great pain.
After calming down, she and Ping Xintao proposed to break up and prepare to go abroad and completely escape from the relationship.
Ping Xintao was suddenly confused, resolutely divorced Lin Wanzhen, and went thousands of miles away, holding flowers in his hand and appearing in front of Qiong Yao.
He said, "Qiong Yao, I am divorced. ”
This time, Qiong Yao was full of tears, looking at the deeply affectionate Ping Xintao, she chose to turn her back on the world and bear all the scolding, and married Ping Xintao, who had known her for 16 years.
After marriage, Qiong Yao wrote all her feelings in the article, such as "Courtyard Deep", "Crescent Gege", etc., most of which are the plots of Xiao San and the cheating man who eventually became a family.
Now it seems that Qiong Yao is writing a novel, she is clearly writing herself.
Time is like a white colt passing gap, Qiong Yao and Ping Xintao, who once deviated from the world, are slowly aging, and in 2014, Ping Xintao suffered from a small stroke and dementia.
Under Qiong Yao's meticulous care, his body still gradually deteriorated, and he left the world in 2019, and this love that escaped from the world finally came to an end.
With extreme grief and sadness, Qiong Yao wrote, "Xintao, from now on you will no longer be in pain and relief. I also want to let go and live happily. You will live forever in my memory, and hopefully this will be the last time you shed tears. Goodbye! I love! ”
Throughout Qiong Yao's life, she has always been on the road of pursuing being loved. Whether it is the 25-year-old Chinese language teacher who is older than her, or Ping Xintao later, they are a beam of light that shines into Qiong Yao's world, giving her warmth and strength.
This is undoubtedly related to Qiong Yao's experience, and she lacks affection and desires love even more. Even if she knew that this was not right, she still loved without hesitation, even if there was no result, even if it was like a moth to the fire, this was Qiong Yao's emotional view.