Text/Xiaoting Half Clear
Lu Xun wrote in the preface to "The Scream": "Who has fallen from a well-off family into a difficult situation, I thought that on this way, I could probably see the true face of the world." ”
When his father died of illness, Lu Xun was only 15 years old, and there were two younger brothers below, orphans and widows, who were economically embarrassed, not only ridiculed by outsiders, but also ostracized by their peers, it can be said that life is very sad.
After returning from studying in Japan, Lu Xun often lived in Beijing, and as for his hometown, it has long become a distant memory.
In the article "Hometown", the beginning is such a sentence: I braved the cold and returned to my hometown, which was more than 2,000 miles apart and had been separated for more than 20 years.
This sentence explains Lu Xun's strangeness to his hometown in space and time. And this time back to the hometown, it is to sell the ancestral home, but also add to the sadness of returning to the hometown. Chinese has always paid attention to family homes, if not forced, who wants to sell their ancestral home to others?
It is precisely because of this tone that the article "Hometown" has its own sadness, whether it is the strangeness of the leap soil or the vicissitudes of tofu Xishi, it has a desolate taste.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="10" >1. Growing up is a wordless pain. </h1>
Lu Xun and Yan Tu were playmates when they were children.
Although Lu Xun is a young master, his experience of life is far inferior to that of The LeapIng Earth, he listened to the LeapIng Earth talk about how to hedgehogs in the watermelon field and how to catch birds in the snowy days, and his heart was full of admiration for the Leaping Earth, and he felt that the world in which the Leaping Earth lived was very exciting.
The emergence of the leaping earth has brought endless happiness and expectation to Lu Xun's childhood, and he looks forward to seeing the sweet potato field by the sea with the leaping earth, going to the beach to collect shells, and going to see the outside world, rather than the four-corner sky seen by his own home.
At that time, they were brothers and brothers, naïve and freewheeling. The gap between rich and poor and the concept of hierarchy did not affect them as children, and they formed a deep friendship.
This time back to his hometown, Lu Xun was originally depressed, listening to his mother said that the leaping earth was coming, his heart was ignited with joy, thinking that his mood would be a little more open when he saw the leaping earth, but after the appearance of the leaping earth, he broke Lu Xun's last beautiful fantasy about his hometown.
After the leap soil arrived, Lu Xun was very excited, he remembered a lot of things he wanted to discuss with the leap earth, such as watermelon fields, birds, shells, ruts, etc., but he always felt as if he was blocked by something, swirling in his head alone, and could not spit out.
He stood still, a look of joy and desolation on his face; he moved his lips, but did not make a sound. His attitude finally became respectful, and he cried out clearly:
"Lord! ......”
I seemed to give a chill; I knew that there was already a sad thick barrier between us. I couldn't speak either.
After Seeing Lu Xun, a look of surprise and desolation appeared on his face, obviously he also remembered his past feelings in his heart and wanted to reminisce about the past, but he was silent for a while and called Out to Lu Xun a "lord". It was also this "old man" that made Lu Xun feel desperate, all kinds of things in the past, can not go back, no matter how deep the friendship, no matter how good the memories, have been frozen in the past.
The cruel fate pushed them to a different life trajectory and farther and farther away.
In this scene, in fact, Lu Xun is more pitiful than Yan Tu, who has lived a hard life, but has always lived in his own identity, working hard to support a large family. As for Lu Xun, he originally thought that his friendship with Yan Tu was deep, but he lost him at this moment. The originally very clear image of The LeapIng Earth gradually became blurred in Lu Xun's mind.
For Lu Tu, when he was a child, he and Lu Xun called brothers and brothers "not rules", and now when people reach middle age, they must shout "old man" in accordance with the social hierarchy, and Lu Xun sees Yan Tu, and he wants to say a lot in his heart, but when he sees Lu Tu's sad appearance now, he knows that the past is like flowing water, and it is in vain to increase his sadness.
Lu Xun represents a type of person who goes out far from home to pursue ideals, while YanTu represents the traditional peasants who stick to the land and settle for the status quo, and their estrangement is not only the difference in identity, but also the difference in the road.
Just like our current class reunions, the classmates who used to fight together are now labeled because of their careers. When some people bow their knees or call you "boss" in a humble way, I don't know if your heart is the same as Lu Xun's, do you feel sad? Or when we have to curry favor with our former old classmates for the sake of our own career development, is it also like a leap earth, as low as dust?
When we were young, we were naïve and simple, and we relied on our hearts to make friends; when we grew up, we pushed glasses and cups on the wine table, but we couldn't find anyone who could speak the truth.
Perhaps, growing up is a kind of wordless pain. We keep gaining and losing, but no matter how hard we try, we can't get back the beauty we once had.
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In the article "Hometown", in addition to describing the reunion with Yan Tu, he also wrote a classic character image "Yang Erjie".
Frightened, I hurriedly raised my head, but I saw a woman with convex cheekbones, thin lips, and about fifty years of age standing in front of me, her hands between her hips, no skirt, and her feet open, just like the thin-footed compass in a drawing instrument.
When Yang Erjie was young, she was a beautiful "tofu Xishi", at that time, her cheekbones were not so high, her lips were not so thin, and she rubbed white powder all day, because of her existence, the business of the tofu shop became better.
It can be seen that Yang Erjie was also an infinite scenery at that time, but after the devastation of the years and the hardships of life, she changed from "tofu Xishi" to a mean old woman who loved to take advantage and did not spare people.
Years are a ruthless knife. It not only makes the face old, but also tortures the human mind.
Maybe we were once full of spirit and had big dreams, but under the pressure of real life, we gradually gave up our former selves and eventually became the most ordinary person in the crowd.
Mu Xin has a saying that goes well: Years do not spare people, and I have never spared years.
Life has always been a reverse journey, and when you find out that time is a thief, it has already stolen your choices.
Life is a hundred years, the blink of an eye becomes empty, even if the years are merciless, we must also do more meaningful things in a limited time, the body can sink and float in the world, but the heart always has to keep their original dreams.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="59" >3. Hope is the best motivation to be alive. </h1>
In this article, we all know Lu Xun's famous saying: In fact, there is no road on the ground, and the more people who walk, the more they become the road. But I often forget the first half of this sentence: Hope is nothing to have, nothing to have.
At the end of the article, Lu Xun has unlimited hope for the future. He watched his nephew Hong'er and Shui Sheng, the son of Yan Tu, having fun, and secretly felt relieved in his heart, maybe they would no longer have barriers and barriers when they grew up, no longer running around and drifting, no longer poor and numb, and should have a new life.
Here we also see Lu Xun's infinite expectations for the new era.
In real life, the leap soil in "Hometown" is indeed human, but the original name is Zhang Yunshui. His son is also indeed called aquatic.
They lived a life of poverty until aquatic death, leaving behind his wife and son Zhang Gui. The wife did not remarry, but worked odd jobs everywhere to provide for her son's education. Zhang Gui is a reasonable person, he knows that reading can change his fate and make his mother live a better life.
In 1954, Zhang Gui, who had achieved success in his studies, ushered in an opportunity in his life, because of the construction of the Lu Xun Memorial Hall, the government department hoped that he could come to work at the Lu Xun Memorial Hall, and later Zhang Gui became the deputy director of the Lu Xun Memorial Hall.
Zhang Gui therefore also met with Lu Xun's son Zhou Hainian, and the two talked happily and often exchanged views.
The changes of the times have made Lu Xun's hopes come true, and Lu Xun's descendants and the descendants of The LeapIng Earth have finally lived in a new world, and unlike their fathers and ancestors, there is no longer a difference between them "long worker" and "young master", and they have become real friends.
If Lu Xun knew this, he should be very happy, because his hopes had come true.
Even if the years are merciless, what we can do is to make our lives more valuable and meaningful with limited vitality, and not to waste the world.
With this encouragement.