"The Little Girl Who Lost the Whole World - Plum"

Na Ren, dead. She was the youngest sister of my second brother-in-law, and she was three years older than me, which was really heart-wrenching and left prematurely. She was in the late stages of leukemia, and in her last days, Na Ren's husband was brought to Beijing by her second brother-in-law to find me; one of my friends, Yanzi, helped find experts from the People's Hospital to diagnose her, and made a final effort for her, and everyone was doing their best to save her life. Unfortunately, experts in Beijing still sentenced her to the final death sentence. Just a few, just over a month. She was gone, very quickly. News came from her hometown that her daughter , "Saqi Ri ," an eleven-year-old girl, was in tears due to excessive sadness and her eyes were completely blurred. It is very worrying for the child, the whole family is in a panic, so the child's eyes...!

So far, Na Ren's body is still stuck in the morgue and cannot be buried. The daughter guards her mother's body and cries every day, and prays for her mother's resurrection every day with a crying voice and milk. Either she pulled on her father's clothes and begged her father to save her mother, or often complained that her father did not save her mother's life. In desperation and grief, her father could only move the camp bed from home to the morgue with his daughter, waiting day and night next to Na Ren's body. Families can only deliver prepared meals to the morgue. Husbands and daughters wait for "Na Ren" to share their time together every day. In this way, the two worlds of yin and yang; at least together. For her daughter "Saqi Day", the disappearance of the mother is like a big scam, a prank in which all relatives collude to deceive her. The clever daughter understood, deeply understood in her heart, that her mother had gone to a place called "Heaven" and would never come back. That is to say, in the days to come, you will no longer see your mother, hear your mother's voice, smell your mother's body, and cannot be held by your mother on your chest and fall asleep. The daughter, who still does not believe that her mother will really leave her, has always said to the people around her: "How can the mother be willing to leave her, the mother should accompany her to grow up and be with her forever." ”

Her daughter could not go to school, she could not leave her mother's body, she was afraid that as long as she drove away, she would not see her mother's face. Even in her dreams, she cried and cried, "Mommy come back!" Mom, please come back to life! I exchange my eyes for your life, as long as you can be resurrected, I can do nothing..." On the other side of the phone, the old family told the news about the child, and some farewell words before "Na Ren" died; thank me and all the family and friends in Beijing who helped her find the expert, and repay our kindness in the next life! My heart was broken, and I couldn't say a word when I held the phone sadly... What I worry about most is the child, the child is so young, and suddenly encounters a spiritual disaster that is the same as that of adults. Fear that the child will henceforth close himself off, thus refusing to accept the fact that his mother is dead. The child is completely immersed in his own boundless sadness, but also in his own thoughts.

Perhaps, in the child's world, the status quo is the best, at least every day you can see the mother lying there quietly, at least you can see. I deeply realized that the child was like a lonely little star, hanging in the dark and deep night sky, sad, stubbornly watching; no one could be close to her at this time. Because no one can really appreciate and understand the fear and sadness of a little girl who has lost her whole world. She prayed to her father almost every day, called her mother back, and blamed him. Waiting for the call again and again, in exchange for the loss again and again, there is nothing more sad than this.

The whole family felt that their daughter was about to go crazy, and every day they guarded a person who was no longer alive, and they could hardly eat food, and they only missed their dead mother. Perhaps, in the daughter's heart, she just wants to find out one thing; is the mother dead? In fact, not only a child, even if an adult, how much of a lack of understanding of life and death. Dad decided to send his daughter to school, and Dad hoped that the collective life of the school would make his daughter lively and cheerful; but this was futile, how could the daughter leave her mother's body. She repeats every day: "Daddy, you let my mother wake up, why don't you save your mother?" Why won't you come up with more money to treat my mother? You don't want her anymore? "The child's prayers, the crying, let everyone cut off the liver and intestines. I am far away in Beijing, but my heart has always been tugging, for Na Ren's daughter, a child who has lost his mother, a wound in his young soul, how to heal it?

I wondered, how can I look at life, death, and even religion from the perspective of a child? If God really existed, could He be indifferent? God does not manifest, and the hope that the child has placed there has become dim and disappointed. Originally, the child's world is innocent and lovely, but sometimes the child's world is as cruel as the adult's world. The child now encloses himself in the corner of his heart, like a bird hit by a bullet, wailing with grief. She even said to her father: "You let me die too, I want to accompany my mother..." A child who has lost the protection of her mother's love, her sense of security in life has lost its source, how to make her daughter really happy.

Perhaps, only time can slowly heal the trauma of losing her daughter's mother. Her childish voice, with a weeping voice, called out, as if to wake up her sleeping mother. Yes, all sad; Na Ren was too young to leave so early. The daughter was silent in the thoughts and sorrows of day and night; she must have been very uneasy over there, because this was not what she had hoped for, and she was sorry! Not struggling to survive in the last moments of life is indeed cruel and selfish to every loved one, especially the daughter.

I believe that Na Ren will tell her daughter in the best way possible: as long as a person has good memories, he will not lose his love for his relatives; as long as a person who is not in the world is still in the memory of his relatives, it is the same as living.

Daughter, don't grieve, don't cry. Please believe that Mom's love will always be with you, you

Learn to be happy, learn to live! She will silently watch you and Dad's happy life.

It doesn't matter where Mom goes, what matters is that she still loves you! Her soul is with you. Mom won't wake up because she knows she's dead, and a deceased person's visit to the living is a disturbance to the living's life.

Happy child, I hope you get out of the sadness as soon as possible, this is the greatest wish of each of our loved ones.

I just want to tell Na Ren's daughter that the best way to miss the deceased is to live happily, bravely, and healthily, and not to indulge too much in sadness! Don't be afraid of the future of life. Whether it is a child or an adult, as long as they are alive, they must try all kinds of things, and they must care that the departure of their loved ones in life is not a nightmare, they just choose a different world, a different life.

Plums was written on May 26, 2013 at 3:16