When I came back from the class reunion, my daughter and I told me that the three most eye-catching people back then were living too bleakly now.
Shuttling through the hustle and bustle of the station, I felt a wave of exhaustion. Ten years later, when I returned to my hometown, I was still the familiar stranger.
After the reunion of my classmates, I quietly left, put my ticket in my pocket, and walked all the way home.
When I stepped into the house, my daughter came out, staring at me sharply with a pair of bright eyes that could speak: "Dad, you're back."
Looking back on the past, the three most eye-catching people in the past are now too bleak.
I leaked a little tiredness and said lightly, "Yes, I'm back from the party today." ”
"Are they all alright?" asked the daughter.
"It's all right. I smiled, "Thank you for your concern." ”
The daughter pursed her lips and did not speak again. She crept over and rested gently on my shoulder, but froze in place.
The three most eye-catching people, the three young people who used to be in the campus with infinite scenery, now everyone's life is heavy and lonely.
At home, my daughter is almost my only sustenance. Her growth has given me hope and desire for life.
"Daddy, what are you thinking?" asked the daughter softly.
"Nothing, just a little tired. I squeezed out a smile.
In fact, I'm not just tired. Deep down, I have a lot of dissatisfaction and confusion about my life. Maybe it's thinking too much, or maybe it's expecting too much, and I often can't get rid of the confusion and helplessness in my heart.
And this class reunion made me deeply feel the cruelty and ruthlessness of life. Those shining youths at the beginning have now become unrecognizable for various reasons.
"Dad, didn't you tell them to help you?" asked the daughter shyly.
I shook my head and smiled bitterly: "No, they also have their lives." ”
In the face of my daughter's concern and desire, I can only give a perfunctory answer. Perhaps, she was too young to understand my inner struggle and pain.
"Dad, I'll accompany you to the movies. The daughter broke the silence.
I looked into her bright eyes and nodded slightly. Perhaps, this is also the desire I need the most, a desire to find a trace of warmth in my daughter, a desire to make me in a dilemma.
We walked into the cinema, and my daughter and I were immersed in a heartwarming family film, and the plot in front of me made me think a lot.
I sighed deeply, and suddenly, my phone vibrate. It was a classmate from college, and he said that "Yoyo" was in trouble and wanted me to help.
My heart moved, Yoyo, that is, the former "Yueyue", she is one of my three most eye-catching people.
"Daughter, Dad has something to do, I'll come back halfway through the movie, you wait for me alone, don't run around." I cautiously reminded her.
I hesitated, but finally decided to take Yoyo to meet my lawyer friend. On the way, Yoyo told me about her experience, and it turned out that she and her husband had already fallen into a low point of affection.
Eventually, she found out about her husband's affair and angrily decided to divorce.
Back at the door of the cinema, I saw my daughter sitting alone on a bench, intently playing the game in hand.
She waited for me here alone for so long, but I was helping a former classmate. For a moment, I was a little overwhelmed.
"Dad, you're back. "When my daughter saw me coming, she immediately put down her phone.
"I'm sorry, Dad has something to do. I said softly.
I held my daughter's hand tightly, my heart filled with guilt and sadness. Perhaps, I really need to reflect on what I am pursuing and what I have lost.
I need time to sort through the troubles and pain in my heart.
My daughter and I walked out of the house and into the crowded streets. On the way, she took my hand with great interest, and from time to time told me about her little wishes and fantasies.
"Dad, you know what? I love shopping with you the most. My daughter looked at me with a smile, "In the future, we will hang out together often."
My heart warmed up, but there was also an indescribable guilt. Perhaps, my daughter also wants a complete family and happy parents, but I can't let her have it.
We walked slowly and came to a movie theater. My daughter picked out a cartoon and took my hand with a smile and rushed into the screening room.
But just then, my phone rang suddenly. I glanced at the screen, and it was a call from my wife. My heart suddenly tightened, and I knew that it must be another phone call about family trivialities.
"When are you coming back? There's a lot of housework here, and no one cares!" the wife's voice was full of dissatisfaction and reproach.
I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself, but I couldn't help but feel a little annoyed. "My daughter and I will go out for a walk, and you will be busy yourself.
"Scattered, you are a big man, and you still have a mind to scatter?" the wife's voice became sharper, "Do you know the situation at home?"
I was silent, and more contradictions grew in my heart. Perhaps, she also has her own difficulties, but I can't bear her complaints and blame.
The next day, I went out to work nervously, and I was very worried about the situation at home. At the same time, Yue Yue also came to the door, and she confided in me about her life difficulties with pain.
I listened to her words and felt powerless. The relationship between home and friends makes me feel hopeless.
In the face of these contradictions and confusions, I feel very helpless. Perhaps, I can't solve their problems because I have too many troubles myself.
When I got home, my daughter was still waiting for me. With a look of concern, she asked me, "Dad, what's wrong with you? Why do you have a heavy face?".
I shook my head and forced a smile: "It's nothing, just some trifles." "I don't want her to worry, I don't want her to worry.
I thought, maybe this is life, full of contradictions and challenges that we can't predict, and we can't escape it.