Yan Baoyue was eager to go to the battlefield, hoping to test his understanding of the word soldier with actual combat. However, he forgot how cruel the war was.
Yan Baoyue is very good. In Qin Feng's words to describe Yan Baoyue, this competitive subordinate, full of arrogance and self-confidence in his bones, should have been the advantage of his success, but at this time it became an unstable factor.
This is the reason why Qin Feng has always been "horizontal eyebrow cold" to Yan Baoyue. What he wanted to do was to make Yan Baoyue understand the true meaning of being a warrior, but at the same time he didn't want his subordinates to stain the battlefield with blood.
However, from the successive squad leaders and company commanders of Yan Baoyue to the captain Qin Feng, their bitter mouths or good intentions seemed to be deliberately "difficult" in Yan Baoyue's eyes.
It wasn't until Lü Xiaotian's sacrifice that he truly understood the weight of the word comrade-in-arms, and he also understood that Qin Feng was still too kind to him.
Smooth sailing is the bane.
What a wonderful wish word for smooth sailing, but for a person's life, not to mention that it is an ideal state of nothingness, it will actually play the opposite role in the process of growing up.
Yan Baoyue's experience is a prime example.
From the beginning of his enlistment, Yan Baoyue showed a different side from ordinary people. Whether it is from the physical quality or professional level, he is far beyond the comrades of the same period too much. In the words of Yan Baoyue, he had been a "soldier" for 10 years before he joined the army. This made Yan Baoyue, who had originally set his sights on cheetahs, even less look down on the recruit comrades who practiced with him every day.
It is not so much that Yan Baoyue is a step ahead, but that he is winning at the starting line. He has such a thorn head every year, but a seedling like Yan Baoyue can only be described as a genius, and based on this psychology, almost everyone intentionally releases water to Yan Baoyue.
Releasing water is not giving up, Yan Baoyue's strength is only the external hard condition he shows, but the mental quality is not as firm as he imagined.
When the recruits got out of the company, Yan Baoyue was assigned to the cooking class, and without saying a word, he turned around and rushed to ask Li Xiang the reason; xiao Yunjie left the cooking class before himself, and he asked why; after killing the enemy for the first time and suffering from stress trauma, he was canceled from the opportunity to participate in the selection, and he roared at the instructor not to be a correspondent to the regimental commander.
These pasts should have been moments for him to reflect on himself, but they were all under the intentional "protection" of others, allowing him to survive safely.
In "38 Letters Rockefeller Left to His Son", Rockefeller, a business magnate, warned his son:
"I can have today's achievements, I stepped on the spiral ladder of failure, I rose in failure." 」
Failure is a good thing for everyone, just like when a child learns to walk, he will always get up after falling down, and then he will walk more and more steadily, until he finally learns to run.
What Yan Shaoyue lacked was not the opportunity to learn to walk, but when he learned to walk, others paved all the bumps he might encounter. This led to him not having a clear understanding of his abilities. Once people are unable to recognize themselves, they will inevitably lead to oblivion.
There is a saying in the Tao Te Ching:
Those who know others are wise, and those who know themselves are clear; those who win are strong, and those who are victorious are strong.
Meaning: "Being able to understand and know others is called wisdom, and being able to know and understand oneself is wise." Being able to overcome others is powerful, and being able to restrain one's own weaknesses is strong."
Qin Feng said to Yan Baoyue, "Success has constantly nourished your self-confidence, but there will always be a time when you will harm your comrades-in-arms because of your self-confidence and pride." This is not a curse, nor is it an ominous prophecy, but an experience left behind by how much blood.
Unfortunately, at that time, Yan Baoyue did not understand.
When he understood, he decided to dismantle the bomb himself, and then witnessed the sacrifice of his closest comrade-in-arms, Lu Xiaotian, to save himself.
Unfortunately, at this time, Yan Baoyue was powerless.
Kindness is not a good thing.
Yan Baoyue experienced a kidnapping that made him remember deeply when he was a child, which became a trauma that he did not want to mention from childhood to adulthood. After he tried his best to help himself, his parents did not show any indication, but only began military training after he was discharged from the hospital.
In the eyes of many people, a 7-year-old child begins to receive such professional training from an early age, which is too harsh. However, thanks to his father's strictness, Yan Baoyue had a strong physique and extraordinary self-confidence.
Yan Baoyue's father treated his son as his own soldier, from the most basic queue to fighting, there was no shortage of him to learn, if, Yan Baoyue's father moved a trace of fatherly benevolence in his heart, Yan Baoyue not only could not grow up healthily, but may even develop in another direction.
There is also a sentence in Sun Tzu's Art of War:
Thick but can not be made, love can not be ordered, chaos can not be cured, such as arrogance, not available also.
The meaning of this sentence is: "If the soldiers are treated kindly but cannot be used, if they are spoiled but cannot be commanded, if they break the law and cannot be punished, then it is like an arrogant child, which cannot be used to fight the enemy." ”
Yan Baoyue enlisted in the army, which was expected by his father. In fact, he also understands where his son's problems are. So he hoped that his son would be hammered from a piece of iron into a piece of steel in the army.
However, in the face of such a good iron as Yan Baoyue, many people are too merciful.
He did not lack the tempering of physical fitness, the cunning in the exercise, the faith in his uniform and the armband on his shoulders, and the loyalty and faith that should be upheld as a soldier.
The only thing missing is how to turn him into a better means than he originally thought.
Extraordinary people must have extraordinary means.
Zhang Tianyang, Li Xiang, Fan Jin, Liu Chuanming, their approach is too conventional, those who can turn an ordinary soldier into a good soldier, they are too kind to Yan Baoyue.
If you want Yan Baoyue to grow, there is only one way.
Face the sacrifice of a comrade-in-arms when he is powerless.
Write at the end.
Xiao Tian's sacrifice on the day of his retirement made Yan Baoyue finally know how ridiculous it was to know that he could do anything.
If you are not so absolutely confident and ask others to shoot the explosion, then Xiaotian will not be sacrificed. If he is not so panicked in the face of life and death, and finds a better solution, Xiao Tian can also live.
However, there is no if, and everything that has happened cannot be turned back.
Whether it is Yan Baoyue or everyone in reality, only by learning from the ups and downs and doing our best to prevent the tragedy from happening again.