The title of this issue
【Mission Release】Bookfish Literature Society Session 95: Old Bottle of Wine
Introduction
"Huh? Is it male or female? Suddenly, a loud bang arose. Such a question has been heard too many times in Chen Lei's life.
"Hurry up and wow, keep going!" It's over soon! Another voice came, not knowing where the urging came from. Chen Lei woke up. "Who?" Looking around at the river, it was clear that there was no one there. It should be her auditory hallucinations. Her mental state was indeed getting worse and worse.
But it was such a sentence that made Chen Lei not so anxious to die. The river is too cold, the dress of the new season has just been listed, she has not had time to wear it, it is better to wait for the summer to pass and then die.
Another me in the world
Author: A small expert in reasoning
Qualifier: Women dressed as men are not recognized
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Chen Lei had planned to die yesterday.
She put on her favorite white puffy skirt, one foot had already stepped into the river, obviously the weather had long since warmed, but it still froze her.
When he was young, the elementary school held a theatrical performance. Every girl in the class wore a similar puffy dress. Layer after layer of white veil is stacked, and the surface is a few small sequins, refracting subtle flashes under the stage lights. Just a slow turn, the skirt can flutter a beautiful curve. Those boys who always like to be mischievous in their daily lives, stand in the back, look at the beautiful girls in circles, and also make one "wow- " after another, and the small backstage listens to the sound of frogs. Chen Lei was wearing a small black suit, standing in the frog pile, her eyes were tightly fixed on the swaying skirt, wondering for the first time, why can't she wear a skirt?
When she grew up, Chen Lei stared at the black water like a skirt. In the middle of the night, even the hustle and bustle of the city becomes quiet, with only colorful neon remaining. It was she who stirred up the tranquility, the ripples that curved the projection of the light.
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Chen Lei regretted it.
Obviously that person could have died last night. I didn't hold back at the last moment, I had to urge people to make a sound.
When the person dies, he can enter the cycle of reincarnation and become a human being again. There are many moments of impulsive suicide, but not many, this time not, the next time I don't know how long it will take. Chen Lei was tired of being a ghost, she just wanted to return to the human world as soon as possible, the sooner the better.
In her last life, she was a chemist, and her research was about to break through the bottleneck. To that end, she stayed up all night for a month. When the results are announced, she will be promoted, get a raise, and have a better laboratory.
But death doesn't matter who you are. After another overnight stay, she died suddenly. An outstanding young scholar, before he could fantasize about what kind of testimonials he would say after his results were published, suddenly became a ghost.
If you become a ghost, you can no longer move the slightest bit of the world. She couldn't do experiments, she couldn't write papers, she couldn't screw the doorknobs of the lab, and her fingers would pass through test tubes and beakers. The soles of the feet leave the ground and float everywhere.
She spoke, but no one could hear, and gradually she didn't like to talk anymore, and was accustomed to silence.
On the way to the underground mansion, she asked Black Impermanence how to quickly fall into samsara.
Bai Wuchang told her that this was not something she could change with her efforts.
Chen Lei was very angry. Why can the efforts of the world change many things, but not in the underground government?
Black Impermanence said, "Wait until the other you in the world die, you will be born again." ”
Chen Lei asked again, "What is the other me in the world?" ”
Bai Wuchang replied to her: "Same city, same gender, same name, this is the other you in the world." As for when you two meet, look at fate. ”
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Chen Lei has always felt gloomy behind her recently. Out of her sight, there seemed to be a pair of eyes staring at her. But it could also be that she was too careful. Since the day of the attempted jump into the river, she has become suspicious and even hallucinated. This made her already not-so-good mental state worse, and her insomnia was getting longer and longer.
I really can't live anymore. Dad had claimed to have broken ties with her many years ago. Mom didn't contact her much either. No friends, no lovers. Recently, even his job was dismissed. When she re-interviewed and submitted her resume, she did not know whether to check the gender column as male or female, so she had to leave it empty. Then what awaited her was not an offer, but a gossipy, curiosity-ridden interviewer who asked her why she didn't fill out the gender column, asked her whether she was male or female, asked all the questions, and then told, sorry, you are not suitable for our company. Enough is enough. When she bought a new dress, she put it on and died.
Open the closet, and colorful dresses fill the claustrophobic space. "Wow! So many skirts! Suddenly, a strange exclamation emerged. Chen Lei held her forehead and sighed a long time. Strange sounds reappeared.
She was reluctant to wear these dresses. What she fell in love with as a child, she would secretly change it when the adults were not at home. A man circles in front of the mirror and then secretly listens to the movement outside the door to prevent being caught. But it was discovered. As a result, adolescence suffered countless beatings from his father in order to wear them.
Chen Lei's real name is Chen Lei. After becoming independent from her family, she called herself "Chen Lei", the bud of the flower bud. A man named Chen Lei would be forbidden to wear a skirt, while a woman named Chen Lei would be allowed to wear a skirt normally. She had long hair, makeup, hormone pills, and a different voice. Her dresses were the only reason she lived.
Then let the skirt live in her place.
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When Chen Lei arrived at the Underground Mansion, the first thing he did was to go to the Dao of Life to see how long he could be reborn. The system checked, I dripped ghosts, and there are too few girls in the city named Chen Lei. When another female Chen Lei died, her research may have been done by others.
At this time, Chen Lei hated her mother for giving her such a masculine name. At the beginning, her mother hoped that she would become a girl who was as strong as a stone, so she did not use the popular "Lei" and chose "Lei". And she also became a small and accomplished female scientist. Waiting is not the way, only by doing can there be hope. Chen Lei quickly ran to another life path and searched the male Chen Lei's living database. Obviously, there are many more male Chen Lei.
Trees die, ghosts live. The different probabilities of this rebirth can be calculated by middle school students. Chen Lei immediately stood up, quickly cut his head, and began the days of women dressing as men.
After a month of queuing up in the male Chen Lei's waiting path, Yan Wang told her, "According to system monitoring, another Chen Lei in the world does not want to live, and it is estimated that in a few days, you can pack up and prepare for rebirth." ”
Lying in line was really boring, out of one percent curiosity, and ninety-nine percent anxious, Chen Lei decided to run to see another her in the world, to be precise, it was him.
5
Summer is approaching and the dresses are renewed.
Chen Lei went to the mall.
Chen Lei followed her and watched her try on one dress after another. Each one fits perfectly. "It was beautiful." She couldn't help but praise. "Thank you." Chen Lei looked at herself in the mirror and smiled. It was at this time that Chen Lei finally reacted, and Chen Lei could hear his own voice.
"Can you hear my voice?" I am Chen Lei, the other you in the world. ”
"Who are you?" Chen Lei frowned.
"My name is Chen Lei, too. But I accidentally died suddenly. Yama said, "I will not be born again until you die." ”
"It turns out that even ghosts don't want me to live." Chen Lei smiled bitterly and said, "Then bother you to wait." When I'm done with the last thing, I'm going to die. ”
"I don't mean that—" Chen Lei didn't know what to say, "I just wanted to see what kind of person you were." ”
Chen Lei didn't buy a single dress.
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Back at home, Chen Lei washed and folded all the skirts in the closet. Woolen skirts and woolen skirts are worn in winter, short skirts and gauze skirts worn in summer, floral skirts worn in spring, and velvet skirts worn in autumn. Chen Lei silently watched Chen Lei clean up one by one. No one was silent, and the room seemed quiet.
"Are you a woman?" Chen Lei broke the silence.
"Mm-hmm. Did you hear it? Chen Lei was surprised.
"It's too obvious."
"How are you not afraid of me?" I'm a ghost. ”
"When a person doesn't want to live, they don't have to be afraid to die."
"By the way, why do you wear women's clothes?"
"I was a girl, but I was born with the wrong gender." Chen Lei said, suddenly thinking of something, opened his eyes to the air and asked, "When reborn, can ghosts choose the gender of the next life?" ”
Chen Lei looked at that look and was a little distressed. She hadn't been born again yet, and she didn't know if she could.
But she replied, "Yes." ”
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"You see, I saved up so much money and wanted to become a girl, this life is not enough." Chen Lei lay on the bed, put her arms around her face, covered her eyes, and said to Chen Lei. The balance on the bank card is far from enough for sex reassignment surgery. For a person who was born wrong, there is a threshold for becoming yourself again.
Chen Lei couldn't bear it and comforted: "But it's enough to buy a lot of skirts." Tomorrow I can accompany you shopping, I have a good eye for picking a skirt. ”
But the next time she walked into the mall, Chen Lei went straight into the children's clothing store. "This one, this one." She pointed to one, the shopping guide smiled and squinted to take the next one, Chen Lei still followed her, looking at her like a queen, commanding her own kingdom.
She clutched dozens of skirts in both hands and went to the nearest welfare home. Chen Lei wanted to help her take it, but found that he couldn't touch it at all. "Thank you. There are many girls here, one by one. The staff smiled and squinted. The children received the beautiful new dress and ran up to her and said, "Thank you Sister Ray." ”
Chen Lei looked at the children who were laughing and laughing, and couldn't help but be infected by those smiling faces, saying, "If there are more, boys can also wear them." ”
"Aha, you laughed." The staff was stunned. "How boys can't wear it!" Wear a skirt if you want! Chen Lei on the side couldn't help but retort, but unfortunately the staff couldn't hear it.
"By the way, where's the bathroom?" Chen Lei suddenly urinated urgently. The staff were welcoming to show her directions.
She went to the bathroom, with a man on the left and a woman on the right.
Took a step to the right, stood still, and retracted again. She was so happy that she forgot the trickiest puzzle of being out and about.
"Remembering that there was still something going on at home, I'll go first." Then smiled and said goodbye to the staff.
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Chen Lei sent all the skirts one by one, free of charge to those who had nothing to do with her but liked to wear skirts as much.
The closet was gradually empty.
"Don't you want to die?" Tomorrow I will accompany you to continue shopping to buy a dress. Chen Lei looked at the wardrobe and had a bad premonition.
Chen Lei changed into the only white puffy skirt that remained, and said, "In the next life, I will be able to wear the skirt in a bright and upright manner." ”
She went out the door and headed for the river.
The water temperature is finally getting warmer this season.
Chen Lei wanted to pull her, but his hand could only weakly pass through Chen Lei's shell.
9
Chen Lei was dead. But Chen Lei has never seen her in the male Chen Lei team.
King Yan said to Chen Lei, "Even today, you should pack up and be reborn." ”
Chen Lei looked back, and Chen Lei had not yet come to the queue. She wanted to tell Chen Lei that she was the most beautiful girl she had ever seen. But it seems impossible to wait. She slowly moved her steps towards the entrance of samsara.
Hei Wuchang said to Chen Lei, "How do you wear men's clothes?" Also cut your hair short? When you are still a normal woman, how can you change your style after becoming a ghost? ”
Chen Lei was surprised and asked, "You have long found out that I am a woman dressed as a man?" ”
Bai Wuchang said, "Yes." And always look at your platoon man Chen Lei's team. I thought you used your brain too much when you were a human being, and you became stupid after being a ghost. ”
"Then why can I be born again today?" Chen Lei, who died today, is not——".
"Chen Lei, who died today, was a woman. Our prefectural government is much more reasonable than the human world. Don't put aside this to force Lai Lai, hurry up and choose, and prepare to be a man or a woman in the next life? ”
"Woman." Chen Lei smiled reassuringly.
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Judges
Impressions: A woman and a man are hurt by gender stereotypes, the lives of the two are wonderfully intertwined, the storyline is smooth and easy to understand, very interesting, and Chen Lei finally committed suicide, it seems that there is a little sense of powerlessness that fate cannot change, wearing a skirt can be seen as a symbol, but if there is no other deeper discrimination involved, wearing a skirt seems to be more like a small thing, if the discrimination between Chen Lei and Chen Lei is shown to be a little deeper, is it better?
West-west-northwest winds
I really like the ending of this article, which gives people a very warm feeling. The previous article has been accumulating a sense of despair, but in the end it was cleverly resolved, and there is really comfort to the article setting is also novel and interesting, the teacher is awesome!
Ru Bayi
This is a funny story, and the author tells a somewhat cold story in light and humorous language. Chaotic teacher, not chaotic, can be punished.