Han Jingqing and Liang Shiqiu
"If I can, I'd like to be your red bride."
In November 1974, Han Jingqing, who was in a high-end restaurant in Taiwan, said with a serious face staring at the gray hair and rosy face of Professor Liang.
Unexpectedly, after this ancient old man calmly met her gaze, he suddenly took a step forward and grabbed her hand, and the look in her eyes was full of determination for a while.
"Jingqing, you obviously know that I love the Red Lady."
"I... You know..."
Although it was expected, Han Jingqing was still startled by this sudden confession, and after trying to break free of the hands that were held but did not break free, she did not know what to do for a while.
On the side, Professor Liang, who was full of expectations, saw that his heart was also instantly half cold, he did not know her concerns, and he could not deny the madness he had done.
"Jingqing, I understand."
"But I am also just a mortal, and for the few time now, I don't want to be a sage, I just want to love you forever and ever."
Professor Liang's tone was resolute and could not help but be moving, Han Jingqing faced such unadorned love from the person in front of her, she was not unintentional, but the insurmountable gap between the two of them told her to retreat.
Liang Shiqiu
The old professor in the seat was none other than Liang Shiqiu, the literary master who dared to speak boldly and called Lu Xun "a lack of cattle" and whose reputation once resounded throughout the literary world.
And now Liang Shiqiu is such a crazy look, but I don't know if he remembers at this time that his same infatuated image appeared a few months ago.
It's just that at that time, the object of his affectionate entrustment was his wife Cheng Jishu, who had just passed away due to an accident.
"I was like a tree, and suddenly there was a thunderclap, and the electric fire destroyed the half-split trunk, and there were still half a tree, some branches and leaves, still alive, but the business was exhausted."
In August of the same year, only to see Liang Shiqiu, whose hair was messy and full of stubble at this time, completely lost the image of his usual neat clothes, and stared at the book "Dream of Huaiyuan" that had just been written on the table with red bloodshot eyes, and the old tears flowed.
Dreams of the Locust Garden
This is the painstaking effort he has spent more than 4 months to remember the bits and pieces of his deceased wife's life, and it is also a thought left by his deep love affair with Cheng Jishu in this world.
Obviously, at this time, Liang Shiqiu has not come out of the grief of his wife's death, as he writes in the book:
"Two men walked down the hill hand in hand, one suddenly fell down, the other had to stagger his way alone."
And the "stumbling" he used, I don't know how many readers and viewers were impressed, none of them regretted the accident of this former "immortal couple", and they were even more moved by Liang Qiushi's obsession with Cheng Jishu.
Given Liang Shiqiu's deep affection for his wife, everyone naturally thought that he was 71 years old at the time, and it was likely that he would come to the end of his life alone.
But I didn't expect that in the next 3 months, Liang Shiqiu directly found a new love. And this new love is actually a 28-year-old female star who is younger than him.
Liang Shiqiu in his youth
On November 27 of the same year, Liang Shiqiu, who had returned to Taiwan early, met his old friend Xie Renzhao, a professor of international relations law, at the Huamei Building, and saw that his niece was also following him, a woman holding a dictionary.
Exquisite aura of facial features, graceful figure. Liang Shiqiu recognized at a glance that she was Han Jingqing, a popular singer in Taiwan.
As for the dictionary she was holding in her hand, it happened to be the version he had translated, and she couldn't help but have an initial good impression of it.
Old friends have not been seen for many years, and it is not very pleasant to talk freely for a while. Xie Renzhao invited Liang Shiqiu to sit in a nearby café, but he did not expect to meet an acquaintance David, an American professor in the same field, just arrived at the museum.
So the two inadvertently talked, leaving Liang Han and the two people sitting at the table waiting.
Liang Shiqiu gracefully took a sip of coffee, and seeing that the atmosphere between the two was slightly awkward, he began to take the initiative to find a topic.
"You are Miss Han Jingqing, I have heard your songs, and they sing very well."
And Han Jingqing, who was always tense on the side, her hands clasped revealed her nervousness, and she naturally knew in her heart what kind of prestige this famous scholar in front of her had, but it was precisely because of this that she could not help but raise her respect for it.
"Thank you."
Han Jingqing in his youth
"Miss Han doesn't have to be so nervous, in fact, I've always had a question about your name, I don't know when to say it?"
doubt? Han Jingqing looked at Liang Shiqiu in front of him with a puzzled face, "Of course, you said. ”
Immediately after, I heard Liang Shiqiu ask very seriously:
"You see, Jing is reading 'jing', and Qing is pronouncing 'qing', and isn't it very strange that this Jingqing combination is not very strange."
"Shouldn't it be called either Jingjing or Qingqing, so that it can be smooth, right?"
Listening to this, Han Jingqing couldn't help but feel a little funny, and said in her heart that this professor was also too chewy, but fortunately, the atmosphere had become very good now, and even she who had always been restrained couldn't help but relax.
I saw her take a sip of coffee and then answer his question verbally.
"In fact, Han Jingqing is just my stage name, my real name is Han Derong."
"As for this Jingjing, I originally took it from 'Its Ye Jingjing' in the Book of Poetry, but because there are many people in the circle called 'Jingjing', I simply changed it to 'Jingqing'."
Liang Shiqiu, who had received the answer, nodded slightly, but it was clear that now he was more interested in another thing.
"I can't see that Miss Han is still quite simple, I didn't expect you to read the Book of Poetry?"
Han Jingqing was born in Fujia, and her father attached great importance to her education, so the ancient books that she read from childhood to adulthood were already innumerable.
The topic of this topic instantly turned to the literature that both were interested in, and Liang Qiushi once talked about the poets Li Qingzhao, Li Shangyin, and Du Fu from Mencius.
The more he talked, the more he was shocked, he didn't expect that this female doll was still so proficient in ancient Chinese knowledge, and it was indeed not simple.
On the other side, Han Jingqing was also very excited, after all, there was rarely an opportunity to communicate with such a famous literary master, and since he had encountered it, he had to talk freely.
Unconsciously, the night quietly drove away the day and shrouded the sky, and the coffee cups of the two people were already empty.
Han Jingqing hurriedly looked at the time, and by the way, he glanced at his uncle who was still talking to his friends next to him, and then he felt helpless and said a hurried farewell to Liang Shiqiu alone:
"Professor Liang, I'm going to rush to the Taiwan Television Company at 7 p.m. to take a lecture, and now it's time to go." Say goodbye and take your bag and leave.
But he heard Liang Shiqiu stand up and follow her closely, saying as he walked, "Then I will send you." ”
Han Jingqing naturally did not want to refuse, but obviously she also underestimated Liang Shiqiu's enthusiasm for herself.
The two talked happily all the way, and even walked to the door of the company, and Liang Shiqiu did not seem to have the intention of leaving.
In desperation, Han Jingqing had no choice but to invite him to the company for a meal, and left his address to say goodbye to him, and then hurried to the classroom to listen to the lecture.
At this time, Liang Shiqiu, who was in the company's restaurant, watched her hurriedly leave the back, and her heart felt that she could not be calm for a long time, after all, she seemed to have not talked so freely to a person for a long time, this Miss Han, it was very good...
That night, Liang Shiqiu, who could not sleep, tossed and turned in bed.
Because the things of the day always lingered in his mind, as long as he thought about it, all that appeared in front of him was Han Jingqing's smile. After some thought, the white-haired old man helplessly covered the mouth of his heart that was beating wildly.
He knew that he should be emotional about this female doll.
Therefore, Liang Shiqiu, who had always been straightforward and frank, quickly decided to obey his heart's direction. The experience of this day naturally became an important starting point for his "twilight love" in his later years.
Liang Shiqiu's pursuit of Han Jingqing also began from the day they met, and they were out of control.
At the beginning, after he got dressed every day, he would run to Han Jingqing's house early and wait.
But it turned out to be a chore.
Because Han Jingqing has the habit of sleeping lazily, every time she opens her own window, it is already three poles in the day, approaching the afternoon.
Unbeknownst to him, Liang Shiqiu had to wait from early morning to afternoon, just to see the Yi people smile at the moment when they saw him after opening the window.
As for Han Jingqing herself, she was very embarrassed, and remembered that when she first saw the visitors at the door, she was shocked and had to invite Liang Shiqiu into the house to rest.
Of course, Liang Shiqiu is also a comfortable personality, and there is no sense of restraint in the women's boudoir when he first comes, only to see that after he slightly inquired into the house, he was attracted by a note on the indoor desk.
"Sanxitang Shiqu Baodi Fa Ti"? Rare, you still like calligraphy? ”
"Yes, but I haven't practiced for more than ten years."
Han Jingqing turned over the words he had practiced before to Liang Qiushi, but he did not expect that this gentle and elegant old man who was usually gentle and elegant would directly praise him: "Rare, rare, your words are really manly, and your writing is very good!" ”
Only to see Han Jingqing, who was standing calmly on the side, he was instantly smashed by Liang Shiqiu's continuous appreciation.
At this time, Liang Shiqiu, who only had a smile on his face in his eyes, could not resist his strong heartbeat.
Especially after he learned that Han Jingqing had no bad habits and was almost the same as his own interests and hobbies, he became more determined to pursue her.
As a result, Later, Liang Shiqiu's performance in Han Jingqing's eyes can be said to be unusually attentive.
First of all, leaving aside the fact that he came to find himself every day, just this daily thunder and drop-off himself to work and accompany himself to shopping, she saw the clues in this, and slowly felt Liang Shiqiu's heart.
In the face of such a erudite and elegant literary master, especially after the two of them always had a free conversation between interest and speculation, Han Jingqing said that it was impossible not to be moved.
But among them, the age difference of 28 years has become an insurmountable gap, coupled with the fact that liang Shiqiu's wife's bones are not cold, she is even more uneasy in her heart for this feeling that is unreasonable to see.
So there is the opening scene. After Liang Shiqiu enthusiastically confided in Han Jingqing, she fled into the wilderness and replied in a brief envelope on December 1: "Get to know me as a person as soon as possible."
The implication is that I'm not as good as you think, and I hope you don't have such unrealistic ideas.
But Liang Shiqiu was the one who gave up so easily, and he already knew that Han Jingqing had intentions for him, anyway, the window paper between the two of them had been poked open, so it was better to launch a warm "offensive" against him "unscrupulously".
As a result, Liang Shiqiu's "love talk battle" has completely opened the curtain since then.
As the heroine, Han Jingqing was later smashed by this sincere and poetic love sentence.
Facing the gap between the two, Liang Shiqiu said without blushing: "Don't say it is the cliff mouth, even if it is a crater, we have to hug and jump down." ”
As for the love of his sweetheart, Liang Shiqiu did not hesitate to give the most beautiful description: "Shakespeare has a short song, which means that where does love grow? I didn't think much of it at first, but now I understand. ”
In this way, such a poetic catharsis of feelings could not help but erode Han Jingqing's shaky refusal a little bit.
Finally, on December 15, Han Jingqing, who was unable to defend himself, was completely impressed by Liang Shiqiu, and finally was willing to take the initiative to cross the hurdle in his heart and agree to the ardent pursuit of this ancient old man.
Liang Shiqiu finally got his wish to embrace the beauty, only to see that at this time, under such a joyful touch, his face was green not so much an old man over seventy years old as an upright young teenager.
In this way, less than a year after the death of his wife, Liang Shiqiu finally chose to form a new "immortal partner" with Han Jingqing.
Although the age difference of 28 years has brought them some generation gap, it has also brought many different and fresh experiences.
Coupled with the fact that the two have the same interests and personalities, they are also carrying out deep and soul-deep spiritual comfort between them all the time.
Obviously, they were living happily.
But the outside world does not think so.
In everyone's eyes, Liang Shiqiu is a "scumbag" who has just sent away his beloved on the front foot and a new love on the back foot.
In this way, whether his "Dream Remembrance of the Garden of Locust Garden" is a spiritual sustenance to pay tribute to his deceased wife, or a hypocrisy of uproar, is quite controversial.
Even his close friends openly criticized him, bluntly saying that he "did not know how to check in his later years", and even said that if he had any more contact with Han Jingqing, he would cut off contact with him.
And Han Jingqing's side should also be public opinion like a boat, and the ridicule and ridicule cannot be heard.
Some people laughed at her stupidity, and even prepared to marry an old man who was about to fall into the ground, and some people ridiculed her for being "lucky", the world is so big, you can choose a person who sleeps on the coffin board, and even more directly call her the first person in the "corpse collection group".
Han Jingqing, who had never been so ridiculed, felt extremely aggrieved for a while, but had nowhere to vent, so he had to write a letter to Liang Shiqiu, who was far away from home to deal with the case of his deceased wife, to reveal his uneasiness.
"Honey, I've been so degraded... It's too late to turn back. ”
On the other hand, Liang Shiqiu, who was far away from other countries, suffered from the distance between the two and could not guard her side, so he had to reply with a fief:
"I already love you, to the point of worship, and if anyone violates you, it is a violation of me."
"I beg you to take care!" This kind of gossip, don't take it seriously. ”
Liang Shiqiu and Cheng Jishu
It is said that during the long-distance relationship between the two, Liang Shiqiu's love letters to Han Jingqing alone were as high as 83, as many as 200,000 words.
In fact, from here, we can already see how much Liang Shiqiu has a heart for Han Jingqing.
It should be known that after Liang Shiqiu was married by his parents' arranged marriage and his wife Cheng Jishu, although the two were also in love in the future, they still attributed more to the ordinary life outside the male protagonist and the female protagonist.
During this period, although Liang Cheng and the two also experienced a long-distance love life for more than ten years because of studying abroad and the political party incident, Liang Shiqiu's passion for Cheng Jishu was far less than his love for Han Jingqing.
Moreover, because he was touched by his wife's inseparability to abandon him, he was deeply immersed in Cheng Jishu's guilt because of his own suffering.
So in the nearly thirty years that the two were reunited, Liang Shiqiu never separated from Cheng Jishu again, and during this period, he also did his best to be good to his wife.
Just bingxin, who is notoriously critical of feelings, praises Liang Cheng's love when it comes to them.
Of course, the beautiful premise of all this is that Liang Shiqiu did not meet Han Jingqing.
At this time, Liang Shiqiu's affection and protection for Han Jingqing really made people doubt:
In the time he and Cheng Jishu were together, was it more out of love? Or is it more responsibility to guard the family?
Of course, these are obviously no longer important, anyway, now the love between Liang and Han has been blessed by their children.
Liang Shiqiu and Bingxin
Liang Shiqiu's eldest daughter, Liang Wenqian, after learning of Liang Shiqiu's recent situation, not only sincerely rejoiced in her father's happiness, but also wrote a letter to comfort Han Jingqing, a "stepmother-to-be" who was far away in Taiwan.
The support of his family gave Liang Shiqiu the most direct courage to deal with heavy public opinion.
After handling foreign chores, the first thing he decided to do after getting off the plane was to completely enter the palace of marriage with Han Jingqing.
So on March 29, 1975, Liang and Han held a simple wedding ceremony at the Guodingchuan Restaurant in Taipei.
Under the pressure of public opinion at the time, the two only invited two tables of guests in total. One table is a close friend, the other is a company colleague, but the two are already satisfied.
That year, Liang Shiqiu was 72 years old, while Han Jingqing was 44 years old.
Just as the so-called staggered age stage, but met the most in tune with each other. So much so that after the wedding, Han Jingqing would always say with emotion when recalling the previous bits:
"It is natural for us to know each other, to fall in love and get married."
"However, it is precisely because of the many accusations and criticisms that he has to race against the clock, thus accelerating the wedding march."
In this way, the couple after marriage is unsurprisingly like glue, and passion and blandness are once moving forward in the time of life.
At this time, although most people in the world miscalculated Liang Shiqiu's determination to accompany Han Jingqing, they could not deny one thing -- that is, "Liang Shiqiu is already a person who is half-cut and buried in the loess soil." ”
Liang Shiqiu sculpture
In 1987, after accompanying Han Jingqing through twelve spring and autumn seasons, the 84-year-old Liang Shiqiu finally closed his eyes forever due to a fatal myocardial infarction when he went to the mainland to visit relatives.
And the grief-stricken Han Jingqing, in Liang Shiqiu's life before his death, the hallucination of "Little Baby", finally sent away her professor forever in Tamsui North Xinzhuang, Taiwan, the love of her life.
She was 56 years old.
Looking back on Liang Shiqiu's life, he and Cheng Jishu lived peacefully for more than fifty years, and they were as plain as ordinary couples but happy.
In the next ten years, Liang Shiqiu met the middle-aged Han Jingqing at the age of gu rare, and the love between them at the wrong time was like a thrilling look of love.
Perhaps it is precisely because this love is too unforgettable, following the death of Liang Shiqiu, Han Jingqing has been immersed in the busyness of publishing the posthumous works for her deceased husband, and finally did not remarry.
In august and October, the cold house is lonely, and the whispering between the hundred dreams is still the lover who is no longer there.
On August 10, 1994, Han Jingqing finally died of illness less than seven years after the death of her husband, at the age of 63.
The world says that Mr. Liang Shiqiu's monogamous and two wives are not single-minded enough, but when he meets such a love story, he does not only sigh, Mr. Li has tried his best to love in the two relationships, whether it is Cheng Jishu or Han Jingqing, he has not lived up to it.
Especially in the pursuit of love, Mr. Mister's view of breaking the world is not a kind of human sobriety.
"What I have is feelings, I have nothing but feelings."
"I don't want to become a Buddha, I don't want to be a sage, I just want to fall in love with my lover, and in love, people become immortals and become Buddhas and become sages."
After all, tomorrow and accidents always do not know which one will come, so he is not afraid of ridicule, dares to grasp love, and bravely pursues Han Jingqing.
However, in the end, it was still bitter to Han Jingqing, who had been around for more than ten years but had been vilified and ridiculed, fortunately, her professor was always with her.