Taiwanese female writer Sanmao: studied spiritism, once went to the underworld to see the book of life and death, and the self-killing appearance was weird

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preface

On that cold winter morning in 1991, the tranquility of the hospital was shattered.

The nurse found Sanmao missing, and when she pushed open the bathroom door, she was frightened by the sight.

I saw Sanmao sitting quietly on the toilet, stockings around his neck, that posture and state were completely different from the panic of the suicide in people's impressions, and his hands were folded to add a bit of mystery.

The height of the drip rack is limited, and with the height of Sanmao, she could easily save herself, but she didn't.

This way of committing suicide, which defies common sense, instantly caused an uproar in Taiwan.

People have speculated about what made this talented woman who wrote classics such as "The Story of the Sahara" and "How Much Do You Know About the Flowers in Your Dreams" decide to die?

The Fall of the Strange Woman: The suicide scene is full of suspicions

In 1991, on that bone-chilling winter, the early morning rounds in the hospital shattered the peace.

When the nurse passed by the Sanmao ward, she noticed something unusual, pushed the door in, and instantly a chill rushed from the soles of her feet to the door of her head, the bathroom door was open, and the scene in front of her made her gasp.

Sanmao, sitting quietly on the toilet, her posture was so weird that it made people's hearts hairy, her neck, stockings were wrapped in circles, and the whole scene was terrifyingly quiet.

Completely different from everyone's impression of the panicked and struggling appearance of the suicide, she folded her hands with an almost solemn solemnity, adding a bit of mystery to this cold picture.

The drip rack in the ward is not high, with Sanmao's height, it would have been easy to break free from this bondage, but she was like being pulled by a mysterious force, and she was determined to walk towards the abyss of death.

This way of suicide is so unreasonable that it exploded in Taiwan all of a sudden, and people are talking about it in the streets and alleys.

Everyone can't figure out what happened to the talented woman who wrote classic works such as "The Story of the Sahara" and "How Much Do You Know About the Flowers in Your Dreams", and how could she leave this world so resolutely and without attachment.

Sanmao is well-known in the literary world, her works are full of fiery love for life, romantic and persistent pursuit of love, the style is free and uninhibited, like a free wind, blowing into the hearts of countless readers, deeply loved by everyone.

In the memories of relatives and friends, Sanmao did not show any abnormal behavior in his words and deeds in the last stage of his life.

She was hospitalized with endometrial hypertrophy, the operation went very well, and she was about to be discharged, and a good life seemed to be waiting for her with open arms.

Who would have expected that fate would quietly change its face at this time, and the scythe of death fell mercilessly, snatching her away from everyone.

Her daily communication with relatives and friends is full of the fireworks of life, and her behavior does not reveal the slightest yearning for death or despair of life.

But it was completely subverted on that day, and Sanmao's death became an unsolvable mystery that lingered in everyone's hearts, which lasted for a long time and tormented everyone who cared about her.

Emotions and psychics hovered on the edge of life and death

On September 30, 1979, for Sanmao, the world collapsed, and her beloved Jose Diving passed away unexpectedly.

Looking at Jose's cold body, Sanmao's spirit was out of control, crying and laughing, and he fell into endless pain.

What was once their romantic past in the Sahara Desert has now become a sharp knife that stabs her.

The family was worried, for fear that she would not be able to think about it, but Sanmao's deep affection for Jose was too heavy for her to extricate herself, and in order to "see" Jose again, she decided to embark on the road of psychic.

Immersed in the pain of bereavement, Sanmao is like a lonely walker groping in the dark, desperately longing for a little comfort.

She frequently played pen fairy and disc fairy games with her friends, at first she just tried, but fate made people, maybe she was too obsessed, and she really succeeded in channeling!

She said excitedly, as if José had attached himself to his right hand, borrowing a pen to communicate with her.

Lin Qingxia also mentioned in her autobiography that everyone laughed at a party, but Sanmao sat alone at the table, muttering to himself while writing, saying that he was talking to Jose.

Others were all surprised after hearing this, which also made Sanmao fall deeper and deeper on the psychic road, grasping this illusory "life-saving straw", just to continue the relationship with Jose.

The number of psychics increased, the danger quietly came, and one silent late night, Sanmao finished reading the philosophy book and was eager to share his insights with Jose, so he used automatic writing to communicate.

In the past, the communication was smooth, but this time it was abnormal, "Jose" proposed to hold a Catholic Mass, and also denied the priest recommended by Sanmao, and spoke ill of him.

Sanmao suddenly felt that something was wrong and questioned the other party, and then, her hand was uncontrollable, and she wrote "God of the Devil" in Spanish.

This terrifying scene pulls her back to reality like a nightmare, and fear hangs over her body.

Since then, Sanmao has temporarily reined in, but her entanglement with psychic spirits is like a curse, quietly continuing, waiting for the next outbreak.

Viewing the falling shadow and the mysterious suicide note

At the age of 42, fate once again played a mysterious joke with Sanmao.

In order to produce a very topical psychic program, Taiwanese media searched for suitable candidates everywhere, and finally set their sights on Sanmao.

In a well-prepared ceremony to observe the falling yin, something magical happened, and among the people who participated in the ceremony, only Sanmao successfully entered the mysterious world of "underworld".

As a long-standing psychic spell in folk Taoism, Guan Luoyin needs to use the help of a master to cast a spell to guide people's primordial spirits into the underworld, and the whole process is mysterious and solemn, full of unknown and fantasy colors.

After Sanmao returned from the "underworld", she said that she had seen the book of life and death, and she clearly read out the contents of it, which clearly mentioned that she would write 23 books in her life, and at that time, she had only completed 14 books.

What is amazing is that after Sanmao's death, the publishing house carefully counted that there were exactly 23 works created in her lifetime.

This miraculous coincidence, like a pebble thrown into a calm lake, stirred up a thousand waves, made the psychic theory very loud again, and aroused widespread attention and heated discussions among the public.

Could it be that the Book of Life and Death really exists, and can accurately predict the trajectory of a person's fate?

This question, like a haze, hangs over people's minds and lingers.

After Sanmao's death, the media was like a shark smelling blood, keenly noticing the young man who was close to her.

However, at that time, Wei Ping's behavior was very strange, and in the face of the media's encirclement and interception, he chose to refuse the interview, and then crossed the ocean to study in the United Kingdom, avoiding talking about Sanmao, as if he was deliberately hiding something.

17 years later, perhaps because of the guilt and responsibility in his heart, or perhaps because he felt that the time had come, he finally broke his silence.

Sanmao once left a suicide note to him, and made two phone calls before he died, during the phone, Sanmao's voice was calm but revealing a trace of indescribable loss, just because he couldn't contact Yuping.

These two phone calls became Sanmao's last "confession" before she passed away, what kind of emotions and hearts did she carry?

Is it the helpless catharsis of emotional entanglement, or the desperate plea for help under the spiritual weight brought by channeling?

Although the psychic theory has not been scientifically confirmed so far, it has undoubtedly left a strong and indelible mark in the course of Sanmao's life, which has become a key clue to solve the mystery of his death.

The public suicide note and phone call are like a faint light in the fog, casting a more mysterious veil over the truth, attracting people to continue to explore.

epilogue

Sanmao's life is like a legendary novel full of ups and downs and fantasy.

From the romantic and charming life in the Sahara, to the heartbreaking loss of a lover, to the mysterious entanglement with psychics, and finally ending with a bizarre suicide, every chapter is heart-wrenching and emotional.

Her death, like a regret left behind after a meteor crossed the sky, has made countless readers saddened, and also triggered people's deep reflection and discussion on life, love, and supernatural phenomena.

Looking back on Sanmao's experience, we can't help but fall into deep contemplation, how much impact can the suffering and emotional setbacks in life have on a person?

In the face of the supernatural, what attitude should we uphold, whether it is blind belief or rational scrutiny?

Sanmao used her life full of stories to leave us a valuable literary wealth and a puzzle to be solved.