In March 2016, Zhong Wen, who was 25 weeks pregnant, underwent a routine examination, and the doctor found that her white blood cells reached 80,000, 20 times higher than normal people, and the doctor quickly confirmed that Zhong Wen had acute leukemia.
This blow caught Zhong Wen off guard, but she did not hesitate to choose to give birth to the child, because this child was not easy to come by, and she wanted to fulfill her dream of being a mother.
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Zhong Wen, 33, and her husband, Zhou Feng, are both administrators at Changzhou University, and the two have been married for eight years but have never had children.
In 2013 and 2014, Zhong Wen was pregnant twice, the first time, when she was two months pregnant, she miscarried, and the second time, when she was three months pregnant, the fetal heart rate stopped.
The two painful experiences made Zhong Wen more and more eager for her child.
The couple went to the Shanghai hospital, and after examination, they found that the problem was in Zhong Wen' body, and Zhong Wen had an antibody in her body, which was easy to cause blood clots and lead to miscarriage.
After treatment, after more than a year, Zhong Wen can finally get pregnant, but only if she continues to inject low-molecular-weight hepatopalacin.
During the pregnancy preparation, Zhong Wen had to inject up to 3 injections a day, and later, she could inject herself.
Finally, in the second half of 2015, Zhong Wen became pregnant again, and when she learned the news, she was filled with joy in this small family.
Zhong Wen paid special attention to the baby in the abdomen and followed the doctor's instructions to perform various examinations of the fetus.
On March 16, 2016, Zhong Wen, who was 25 weeks pregnant, underwent a Tang screening examination, but during the examination, the doctor found that Zhong Wen's white blood cells reached 80,000, 20 times higher than normal people.
Doctors quickly confirmed that Zhong Wen had acute leukemia, and that her condition was developing rapidly, and that if she did not treat her immediately, her life would only be three months.
Zhong Wen and her husband Zhou Feng could not believe this cruel truth, and they went to several hospitals afterwards, but all the hospitals had the same answer: Zhong Wen must be treated immediately and give up the child in her womb.
With the results, Zhong Wen's parents and Zhou Feng both persuaded Zhong Wen to give up her child for chemotherapy, but Zhong Wen's answer was only one sentence:
"Let's go home, let's go home and have a baby!"
3 months is the time when Zhong Wen can survive without treatment, and it is exactly 3 months from the birth of the child.
Zhong Wen's choice made the doctor very embarrassed:
Even if a 25-week-old child is born, it will not survive with the current medical level, Zhong Wen's white blood cells are too high, and there will certainly be little time without treatment, and under the current circumstances, the chance of mother and child safety is only 20%.
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Zhong Wen has long given the child a good name, called "Xiao Duo".
In the face of her parents' crying and her husband's bitter persuasion, Zhong Wen still had to gamble with her own life, because the arrival of this child was not easy, she wanted to realize her dream of being a mother, she said to her mother:
"Mom, you hurt your daughter, and I hurt my daughter, it's the same, because she's still moving in her stomach."
At Zhong Wen's insistence, although there was only 20% hope, the doctors of the First Affiliated Hospital of Soochow University were willing to give it a try.
In the following days, the doctor helped Zhong Wen control her condition while observing the fetus's condition.
When she was 31 weeks pregnant, Zhong Wen needed a small chemotherapy, and the doctor persuaded Zhong Wen: "If you don't do chemotherapy again, it will affect yourself, your bad cells are so high, it will also affect Xiaoduo, you can't protect Xiaoduo in order to protect Xiaoduo." ”
At first, Zhong Wen was reluctant, she was worried that chemotherapy would affect the fetus, but the doctor told her that she would use some chemotherapy drugs that had little effect on the fetus, which dispelled her worries.
This is followed by a bone marrow puncture, and many times, the pain of the bone marrow puncture is unbearable for patients who have been anesthetic.
But Zhong Wen was worried that the anesthesia would have an effect on the fetus, insisted on not taking anesthesia, and finally, the doctor performed a bone marrow puncture for Zhong Wen with a small amount of anesthesia.
Although the doctor tried her best to control the disease, Zhong Wen's body gradually became overwhelmed, and she was weak and even needed the help of her husband and family to get up from bed.
When in pain, Zhong Wen held the four-dimensional color ultrasound, looked at the baby's clear eyebrows over and over again, and envisioned the scene of holding the child in her arms.
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Doctors decided to have a caesarean section on May 2, when the fetus had just turned 32 weeks old, and although the baby was born more than a month earlier, it was the only chance to save the mother and child.
Looking at his sinful wife on the hospital bed, her husband Zhou Feng was heartbroken:
"If we had known this, we might as well not, if we weren't pregnant, maybe in this lifetime, this problem wouldn't come out."
But just two days before the operation, Zhong Wen's condition took a sharp turn for the worse, and her white blood cells climbed from 13,000 to 19,000 to 38,000 to 50,000.
The large number of white blood cells, and all of them are malignant, which causes damage to various organs of her body, and can easily lead to bleeding, infection, and even fatal damage, once infected, all the efforts made before may be in vain.
In addition, there is a problem in front of the doctor and Zhong Wen: only general anesthesia can be played during surgery, because if it is semi-numb, the broken cells are easy to bring to the brain, but general anesthesia, the requirements for anesthesia technology are higher, because the child itself is premature, the timing and dosage of the drug is not appropriate, it is likely to inhibit the breathing of the newborn, easy to cause hypoxia.
Hearing that only general anesthesia can be heard, Zhong Wen has some regrets, because of premature birth, the child will be sent to the incubator as soon as it is born, and at that time, Zhong Wen is still unconscious, unable to see the small flower in the first time.
On April 30, Zhong Wen underwent surgery two days ahead of schedule, and after her mother and husband kissed, she was pushed into the operating room.
Thinking that this might be the last time to kiss his wife, Zhou Feng squatted on the ground and cried with a headache, and before the operation, Zhong Wen joked with him:
"If I really can't cure it, you can find a better stepmother for Xiaoduo."
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In the operating room, the doctors nervously raced against time, they had to take the child out in the shortest possible time, after chemotherapy, Zhong Wen's platelets dropped sharply, and the longer the time, the greater the damage to Zhong Wen's body.
Coupled with the fact that Zhong Wen herself has anemia, during the operation, the doctors are careful, and a little bit of bleeding cannot appear...
After some intense surgery, at 15:19 p.m., Zhong Wen's daughter Xiaoduo was finally born.
Xiao Duo weighed only two kilograms, and two minutes after birth, her cries became weaker and weaker.
The doctor immediately cleaned the amniotic fluid in the baby's mouth, opened the airway, and delivered oxygen, and after the situation stabilized, Xiaoduo was put into the newborn ICU, and in the next few days, Xiaoduo was closely monitored for various indicators of the body.
After 30 minutes, Zhong Wen was pushed out of the operating room.
But the dangerous period did not pass, because it was a caesarean section, Zhong Wen was weak for several days, she could be infected with bacteria at any time, and serious life would be endangered.
What's worse, in order to save the child's delayed treatment, Zhong Wen's condition is difficult to control, the white blood cells have increased rapidly, reaching 110,000, and she is worried that if the condition worsens, she may not see the daughter she gambled on.
Xiaoduo's situation is not optimistic, it has been three days since she was born, she cannot drink milk, and can only rely on intravenous fluids to maintain her life.
Knowing Xiao Duo's situation, Zhong Wen was full of guilt:
"She chose me to be her mother, but I couldn't let her be born full-term, I couldn't let her drink my breast milk, she came out, and I couldn't let her mom and dad hug her."
"I couldn't give her anything during the treatment, I could only ask myself to get better as soon as possible."
For the sake of her daughter, Zhong Wen became active, shaved off her long hair, and entered the closed ward for treatment.
At the same time, Xiaoduo's condition is also improving, under the careful care of doctors and nurses, she began to breastfeed, and her weight gradually went up, and finally reached the discharge standard, on the 22nd day of birth, Xiaoduo returned home with her father.
On the day of discharge, Xiao Duo saw her mother for the first time in the hospital, and Zhong Wen finally got her wish, she held her daughter tightly in her arms and cried with excitement.
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When Xiaoduo was 5 months old, Zhong Wen's condition took a sharp turn for the worse again, and the hospital performed a bone marrow transplant for her (the donor was Zhong Wen's father).
However, in the past 3 months, Zhong Wen's condition recurred, and the doctor told her that after the recurrence of leukemia, the survival period generally did not exceed half a year.
In January 2017, Zhong Wen was hospitalized again.
However, she understood that her time was limited, and she would rather live for a month with quality than survive in the hospital for half a year, and in the end, Zhong Wen signed and forcibly discharged her hospital despite the doctor's objections.
After that, every half a month, Zhong Wen had to go to the hospital in Suzhou for a bone piercing examination to test her condition.
Every time she waits for a few days for the test report, Zhong Wen worries: What will happen to the results? Is it good or bad? Will the money for medical treatment be spent in vain? How long can you stay with Xiaoduo...
In the midst of uneasiness, Zhong Wen waited for her daughter's first birthday.
Looking at her daughter with a smile like a flower, Zhong Wen cried, she was not afraid of illness, but did not know how many birthdays she could celebrate for Xiaoduo, and only hoped that she could spend more time with her daughter.
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Zhong Wen began to arrange her own affairs, and she told her family that she would buy herself a cemetery in Changzhou while she was alive.
Zhou Feng proposed that he should go to see it with Zhong Wen, and the cemetery should buy two people.
Zhong Wen asked her husband:
"If I don't have it in two years, if you look for it later, maybe you and your future wife can be together for twenty or thirty years, and if you buy it as a couple, how can [you] be together?"
Zhou Feng said firmly:
"Let this matter be made clear when the time comes, and if we are not willing to (be buried together) then we will disperse..."
But Zhong Wen's parents were reluctant for their daughter to choose a place to rest in Changzhou.
Zhong Wen, a native of Xinjiang, stayed in Changzhou after graduating from university, and her parents hope that her daughter will eventually return to Xinjiang:
"Your mother and father are old, how to look at you from so far away!"
But two days later, the parents still agreed to bury their daughter in Changzhou, and they understood what their daughter was worried about, and finally made concessions.
A few days later, Zhong Wen's latest bone puncture examination report came out, and She was relieved to see that the "donor cell chimera rate was 98.7%" written on the report.
But doctors told her that her other indicators were not optimistic and were likely to recur again.
Zhong Wen wrote to Xiaoduo of different ages, pouring out her love and reluctance for her daughter:
"May you learn to be tolerant in your loneliness, and may you sleep all your life until you wake up naturally..."
Every other day, she will accompany her daughter to grow up, although the time is short, but she will leave all her love to her daughter.