On December 31, 2017, in the ward of Chengdu Provincial Hospital of Traditional Chinese Medicine, a pale little girl struggled to get up from her bed. She looked at the door and saw that her mother had not returned, so she quietly set up the small table, took out the letter paper that had been prepared earlier, and prepared to write a letter to her mother.
The girl looked at the pink letter paper, tears could not stop flowing down, she cried and wrote at the same time.
The letter, titled "A Letter That May Not Have Been Answered," cried and wrote for a long time before writing it.
She then quietly forwarded the letter to her attending physician and asked her to pass it on to her mother after her death.
Who is this girl? What happened to her? What happened to her?
The daughter was diagnosed with leukemia, and the mother gave up her career to accompany the treatment
The girl's name was Feng Xianlin and she was from Chengdu, Sichuan.
Feng's mother, Hu Yumei, was a former manager of a listed insurance company and his father was the head of a construction site.
Because both husband and wife have a strong sense of enterprise, it was not until Hu Yumei was 32 years old that the two had a daughter Feng Linglin.
After Feng Was born, her parents loved her very much, and they specially took over their grandparents who were in their hometown to take care of her.
On July 21, 2015, Feng Suddenly fell into a coma while playing at home.
Her grandparents immediately took her to the hospital and informed her parents.
After careful examination by doctors, the young Feng Waslin was diagnosed with acute lymphoid leukemia.
It is a malignant disease of the hematopoietic system that is common in children and is less common in adults.
Fortunately, with the improvement of medical standards in the mainland, the chance of acute lymphoblastic leukemia recovery through chemotherapy has reached more than 80%.
At this time, Feng Was only eight years old, only two days away from her ninth birthday, but her ninth birthday was destined to be spent only in the hospital.
Soon, Feng's parents went through the hospitalization procedures for their daughter and begged the doctor to cure her.
After learning of her daughter's condition, the strong woman Hu Yumei immediately quit her job and wholeheartedly took care of her daughter in the hospital.
Soon, the doctor designed a complete treatment plan for Feng.
Although the recovery rate after treatment is very high, Hu Yumei can't help but cry when she sees that young children have to go through so much torture.
Feng Needed at least eight bone marrow punctures to recover, and watching the long needle inserted into her daughter's young spinal cord, Hu Yumei couldn't help but burst into tears, hating that she couldn't bear such pain for her.
Although Feng Was young, she was exceptionally strong, and she found that her mother couldn't help crying every time she watched her chemotherapy, so she threw her mother out of the chemotherapy room, facing the doctor and the cold instrument alone.
After doing the bone piercing, Feng Xinlin's face was pale and cold sweat, but she still smiled and comforted her worried family.
In this way, Feng Has experienced a total of eight major chemotherapy, and there is a small chemotherapy every month, and after experiencing dozens of bone piercings, her body has finally recovered her health.
Hu Yumei hugged her daughter, who had suffered many sins at a young age, and while being proud of her, she was sad for the sins she had suffered.
Looking at the original white and fat daughter, who has been thin enough to be only a skin and bone, Feng Yumei decided to be a full-time mother at home and compensate her daughter well.
After that, the doctor examined Feng's body and found that her recovery was very good and she could go home to recuperate. For some time afterwards, the family's life returned to normal.
The daughter relapsed again, and the mother lost 90 pounds to save her daughter with leukemia
On March 29, 2017, Hu Yumei and her husband accompanied their daughter to the hospital for routine examinations to test the child's recovery.
After the examination, the doctor told them the unfortunate news that Feng's illness had recurred.
Feng, who learned of this news, was very decadent, she could not accept this fact, and she was unwilling to cooperate with the doctor's treatment.
In the first chemotherapy, she did hundreds of bone piercings and endured countless pains before she finally recovered her health.
But now the doctor told her that everything had to come from nowhere, and everything that had been before was invalid, which made her very uncomfortable.
Feng Waselin was hiding in the hospital room, unwilling to take medicine or let the doctor examine her body.
During this time, her mother Hu Yumei has been with her, watching her daughter change from a strong and optimistic child to this decadent and desperate appearance, her heart is very painful.
Hu Yumei hugged her daughter, constantly comforted her, enlightened her, and even told her, "No matter what the result is, your mother will accompany you, even if the final treatment fails, your mother will accompany you." ”
This was her only daughter, her baby, her lifeblood, and she had made up her mind to stay with her forever.
Her mother's words stimulated Feng Lilin, who did not want her mother to have an accident, so she found the attending doctor and promised her with a small face that she would obey well and cooperate with the treatment.
Her attending doctor also liked this strong child very much, and seeing her so young but so sensible, she couldn't help but quietly wipe away her tears.
When Feng's leukemia recurred, it was accompanied by symptoms such as hypoproteinemia and hypoprotein edema, which made her very uncomfortable.
Sometimes, when she slept at night, she was only more than eighty pounds, but the next morning she would suddenly swell to more than one hundred and twenty pounds, and a small round face was also inflated, swollen into a square.
Because the medicine used for the second treatment was very heavy, Feng's mouth was full of ulcers, which made her feel particularly uncomfortable when she ate.
She often cries while eating, and a lunch takes two hours to eat.
Even in this pain, she did not give up, because she knew that only by eating more could the body recover health.
Of course, this treatment is no longer possible to take simple chemotherapy, but to perform a bone marrow transplant.
Feng's parents all went to the matching test, and in the end, only Hu Yumei matched her daughter, so she became the only provider of her daughter and the only hope for her daughter to live.
Hu Yumei was very happy, but the doctor told Hu Yumei that she could not do a bone marrow transplant because she was too fat.
At that time, Hu Yumei was 226 pounds, and the fat layer was particularly thick, and the needle for puncture could not penetrate the bone at all.
In order to become a donor and let her daughter have a bone marrow transplant early, Hu Yumei chose to race against time and try her best to lose weight.
In order to lose weight, she only ate vegetarian meal replacements for three meals a day.
At first, she felt that the taste of the meal replacement was very good, and it was very delicious to eat, and after insisting on it for a few days, Hu Yumei wanted to vomit when she saw the meal replacement, but she still ate it for her daughter.
Later, when she saw others eating green vegetables, she couldn't help but drool, but she silently told herself in her heart to hold on and not to eat.
In addition to eating vegan meal replacements, Hu Yumei also does two or three hours of high-temperature yoga every day.
At that time, in order to take care of her daughter, she rented a house near the hospital.
To lose weight, she bought four high-temperature ovens, placed them in the four corners of the yoga mat, and then did high-intensity yoga training.
Hot yoga is performed in a high temperature environment of 38 degrees Celsius to 40 degrees Celsius, and if this temperature is exceeded, it can damage the nervous system.
But at that time, Hu Yumei couldn't take care of so much, she just wanted to lose weight quickly and save her daughter quickly.
Under her efforts, she lost more than ninety pounds in three months and successfully passed the donor's physical examination.
On July 11, 2017, Hu Yumei and her daughter Feng Xinlin completed a bone marrow transplant.
After that, Feng Xianlin lived alone in the transplant warehouse for 52 days, while Hu Yumei and her husband stayed outside.
During this time in the transplant warehouse, Feng's cells grew very well, and the doctor saw that she was recovering very well, so he transferred her to the general ward.
Feng Was accompanied by her parents and spent 26 days in the general ward, and her attending doctor saw that she was recovering better and better, so she was discharged from the hospital to recuperate.
When she first returned home, Hu Yumei had been worried about the recurrence of her daughter's condition.
However, as her daughter's appearance became better and better, the heart that Hu Yumei had been carrying was finally put down, and the family finally had a lot of laughter again.
But the god of doom did not spare this unfortunate family, nor did he spare this poor little girl.
At that time, the cure rate of bone marrow transplantation was between 85 and 90 percent, but Feng Waslin unfortunately became that 10 percent.
Recurring again, the daughter quietly wrote a suicide note
On December 19, 2017, it was the day when Feng Xinlin went to the hospital for examination.
On this day, Hu Yumei's husband also took a leave of absence, and specially accompanied his daughter to the hospital with his wife to review.
Unexpectedly, this time the inspection once again brought bad news. Feng's bone marrow transplant was less than five months old, but he was detected to have relapsed with leukemia.
Hu Yumei, who learned of this news, was confused and almost fell to the ground, but fortunately her husband stood firmly behind her and helped her up.
After a long time, Hu Yumei reacted, and she first begged the doctor not to tell her daughter the news.
The doctor has been with this poor girl since 2015, and they know how difficult it is for her to go all the way, so they have not told Feng Linglin the news.
They hid her illness from Feng, telling her only that her body had a normal rejection situation and needed to be hospitalized for observation.
After that, Feng was hospitalized again, and the doctor gave her the maximum dose of chemotherapy, hoping to kill bad cells and undergo a second transplant.
However, it is desperate that even though the dose has been increased to the maximum, the doctor still found no effect.
In desperation, they can only persuade Hu Yumei and his wife to give up, take the child out of the hospital, and let her spend the last good time at home.
However, Hu Yumei was not willing to give up her daughter, and while telling her daughter that these were normal rejection treatments, she constantly begged the doctor to think of a way.
During this period, doctors and nurses have also been cooperating with Hu Yumei and his wife, trying not to let the children know their true situation.
Even the patients in the same ward as Feng Lilin also told Feng Lilin white lies with them.
In fact, in the treatment of Feng Lilin, she also gradually became clear about her own situation, she did not want to make her parents sad, she pretended that she did not know the disease, and lived every day with a smile and giggle.
However, when she was alone, she always couldn't help but be sad and couldn't help but remember what her mother had said.
She didn't want her mother to really accompany her when she died, so she quietly wrote a letter to her mother.
After writing it, she put the letter into an envelope she had made, handed it to the attending doctor she trusted very much, and asked the doctor, "I'm gone, give this letter to my mother." ”
In this letter, Feng Lilin expressed her love and gratitude for her mother, and she hoped that her mother could have a little brother, regard his brother as herself, and give him the best love.
She also hoped that her mother could live healthy and healthy, and said, "In the next life, the doll will be your doll." ”
After all the hardships, I finally found a glimmer of life
In order to save Feng's life, the doctor tried all the methods for her.
However, her tumor load is too high, as high as 96.5%, completely without hematopoietic function, and can only rely on platelet transfusions and hemoglobin to live every day.
When everyone thought that Feng Waslin was going to leave them, Lucky finally took care of this poor little girl.
Feng's attending physician said that a new treatment technology was born - cytokine transplantation technology, but it is very much hoped to save Feng, which can be said to be her last straw.
So they contacted the person in charge of the project, and under the pleading of Hu Yumei and others, Feng Became the world's first subject of the new technology.
In the end, the operation was very successful, and Feng Andrin and his parents saw hope again.
But the doctor told Hu Yumei that because the child's tumor load was too high, there would be a strong cytokine storm next, and if he passed this level, the child would be able to recover.
On the fifth day after the operation, Feng Xianlin launched a high fever of 41 degrees, and the fever was a whole day.
Because she had just finished the operation, the doctors could not use the medicine, but could only physically cool her down.
At that time, Feng's heart rate reached more than two hundred, but his blood pressure dropped to more than twenty, which made the attending doctor think that Feng Linglin would not be able to survive.
Hu Yumei has been holding her daughter's hand and has not let go all day, and doctors and nurses have come in from time to time to check on her situation.
At one o'clock in the evening, Feng Xinglin woke up confused and shouted "Mother" while saying "Hungry stomach".
At that time, Hu Yumei was very afraid that this was a manifestation of her daughter's return to the light, and she took care of her daughter while silently praying in her heart.
Finally, God heard her prayer, and at six o'clock in the morning, Feng Belin began to have a fever, and at seven o'clock, her indicators returned to normal.
The young girl finally got through it and managed to survive.
On December 14, 2021, the program team of Tianjin Satellite TV's large-scale public welfare dream realization program "Happiness Comes Knocking" came to Chengdu to visit Feng's family.
At this time, Feng Lilin was already fifteen years old, recovering well under the care of her parents, and she was already a big girl.
Feng Is very optimistic, she feels that everything in the past is a test for herself, and her future life will definitely be better and better.
Hu Yumei told the host Yan Pinhong that her daughter's body has fully recovered and will not recur.
Ms. Feng took a five-year break from school due to illness, but she re-entered school last year with the help of the government.
She did not waste her studies when she was recuperating at home, and often studied the school curriculum in the company of her mother.
She took the entrance exam that the school held specifically for her and skipped to the sixth grade.
Later, she took the examination of the primary school with her classmates, achieved very good results in the examination, and was successfully admitted to the key junior high school in Chengdu.
Feng Told the host that when she grows up, she wants to become a doctor and treat patients and save people like the doctor who saved her in the first place.
I wish this optimistic and strong girl that she can not forget her original heart, realize her dreams, and wish her eternal health and happiness.
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