Bye my love

I would like to commemorate the love I have lost!

We were each other's first love, high school senior classmates were together, college long-distance relationship, I was 211, he was 985. Originally I was going to go to graduate school, he refused, asked me to go to work for him to study graduate school, silly I resolutely agreed, because he loves me, so I sacrificed nothing... I went to work, he did his master's degree and PhD, and later stayed in a good hospital to work. We were married for 8 years in love, yes, he was very motivated along the way, we were also in love, I think everything is worth it. I worked in the bank, he asked me to write articles for him, to assist him with all my strength, to force me to resign, well, I was a good wife who was obedient and obedient, gave up my career, began to teach myself statistics, and did everything for him... Yes, because I feel like he loves me and everything about me is worth it! He sang all the way, became an associate professor, and his life slowly got better, but many things began to change slowly.

He said that he didn't love me anymore, and that he had to watch movies to help me be intimate, and he said that touching my hand was like touching his left and right hands, without the slightest feeling! My step by step was forced to give up on myself, I gave birth to three children for him, I let him concentrate on work, the family never let him worry about big and small things, I went to the pregnancy and maternity examination by myself, afraid of delaying his work, he was in the next building and did not come to accompany me. He came to open his mouth and reach out at home, and I was struck by the three babies, but he did not have the slightest pity, and it made me tear my heart and lungs. It turned out that in his mind, I was just a free babysitter and a machine to give birth to children! My heart is dead, but I can't let my three children live without a father, let alone a living security, but how can I be worthy of my own wrongly paid life?! My life shouldn't be like this! I had a great future, I had a good look, I gave birth to three babies weighing only more than ninety pounds, I was very strict in self-management, I taught my husband and son, I was dedicated to home, even if there was a man after marriage, I never responded to each other. But why?! Why was my young me so stupid, why were so many people chasing me in the first place, and I only talked about this love and got married? Why am I not as myself as he is? Why do you force me to resign again and again, so that I can be abandoned by society after I am abandoned by society? Heavens, do you see that my kindness and single-mindedness are getting this result?