Twenty-year-old me

Seriously, I can't believe that I have reached the age of twenty, and many things are not satisfactory.

When I went to college, I always thought that I was still young, and I was not in a hurry and could stay in school for a few more years. Three or four years have passed, and I am facing graduation and entering the society to find a job.

The twenty-year-old I imagined was that I could become a heroic female soldier. When I was young, I watched TV at home and saw that the female soldiers at the military parade were good and handsome, and being a soldier was an honorable lifelong thing. At that time, I was inspired to grow up and become a female soldier and give my own strength to the country.

But all this is too beautiful to think, and reality is always cruel. Junior high school graduation is very poor to go to high school, which will be too young to know that going to high school is really important, just like the parents at home, not to go to high school to go to a five-year college can also be. In the eyes of parents, it is necessary to go to high school no matter what method is used. Every day when I talk about going, my parents don't talk much about my own choices, and they say to me, "After taking responsibility for the road I choose, I will take my own path."

This quote from my parents made me meditate for a long, long time, and they respected my choice. I myself chose an ordinary five-year college to study.

Go to college which will be particularly young at the age of sixteen, on the so-called freshman year. Just went to school where to go, the teacher and we said that want to become a soldier, especially girls can find him to sign up, at that time there are places in the school can be registered, the physical examination is but it is another thing outside the list. At that time, I thought that I could sign up at school, so I would report it again next year. After feeling the campus life, thinking in my heart that I am so happy that I can actually enroll in school, then I am one step closer to my dream.

But everything came so suddenly that the next year I went to school in June and signed up for female soldiers. There are no more places to register in schools, and you can only register online or go home to register at the government. When I heard this news, I was instantly petrified, so I regretted that I didn't sign up at the beginning, and now I am far away from my dream.

I went to the Internet to find various ways to register, looked for a long time to see a comment that went to WeChat to search for the Yunnan recruitment public number to register. I went to register, filled in all my information and submitted it, which was much more comfortable in my heart. After a few days to see the results, it was said that the audit did not pass and stuck on the college entrance examination score. Later, I learned that it was very strict to want to be a good female soldier, both from the beginning of registration and after enlistment.

Although I knew that this result was cruel, I did not give up being a female soldier. Unconsciously, after four years, the last year was about to go out for an internship and face graduation. I have also signed up for conscription for four years, but every year I sign up for the same result. Classmates all say don't insist on it, you said you have insisted on the same result for four years, why should you be so persistent about a thing. It's time to give up, and there is no result in perseverance.

For them, it may be a simple little dream. But for me, it is not only a dream, it means a lot to me, and I can't give up what I like, even if I insist on it for a long time and no result. Just look back on it and don't lose anything to yourself, at least I insisted on what I liked for four years. Until now out of the social realization I am still insisting, now I can recruit twice a year. I've been signing up and I've been holding on and not giving up.

The final result was still the same and did not pass, and now the idea is to persist until I was twenty-three years old and give up, after all, when I am old, it is time to give up this year and insist on the fifth year. In retrospect, everything I have done now is worth it, I have not regretted it, I have not complained about my incompetence, but I feel that it is still a bit bullish, and I have insisted on things that I have insisted on for five years and will not give up. Come on! It is not necessary to insist on things that have been held up for so long that dreams come true.