"There is no joy in life, it is better to escape from this dirty world, to steal life in this dark society, there is no interest, you must seek death." 」 This is what Yu Meiyan, a strange woman of the Republic of China, said to others before she jumped into the sea to commit suicide, and she once wrote in her last words: "In the next life, you may be a pure woman and get true freedom." ”
In every era, there are "women" who have suffered sins, and now there are many "sea kings" and "lost women" who have lost the purity and freedom of their hearts.
Women living in the chaotic world of the Republic of China have no right to education, and in order to live, they can only get the life they really want if they sell their bodies in exchange for a comfortable life and use their beauty to become an accessory to the dignitaries and nobles. This is a woman's helplessness, but also a woman's sorrow.
In 1918, the 18-year-old Yu Meiyan married her husband, and the shy Yu Meiyan entered the marriage hall, which did not bring her happiness, but made her develop the habit of "stealing food". The husband went to sea to do business, his home was empty and lonely, after going south to Guangzhou, he mixed with major entertainment venues, met Hong Kong businessmen and officials, and exchanged his beauty for a luxurious life, only in this way would Yu Meiyan be satisfied and happy.
At that time, Yu Meiyan became a person who had nothing to worry about, dressed fashionably, in and out of dance halls, casinos, cocktail parties, wearing a big flower, the small newspaper at that time called her "Safflower Sect Leader", became the talk of the streets and alleys, she did not care what people said, she felt that she was free, what others could not control, there was no right to manage, felt that sexual desire was like eating, indispensable, is a part of life.
When Yu Meiyan was in a high-end clubhouse, she met a wealthy Hong Kong businessman surnamed Ho, and once Yu Meiyan was accompanying a rich businessman to dinner, and when she was drunk, she confided her life and experience. The drunken Yu Meiyan clings to the rich businessman's body, crying and telling her father how he was abandoned by the family, how his husband did not return, the businessman surnamed He was very sympathetic to her, although his career is stable, but there are family affairs. Just 20 years old, Yu Mei's face is as beautiful as a flower, and there are many men she has met, that is, there is no suitable for marriage. Yu Meiyan still agreed to the marriage proposal of the businessman surnamed He and made his second room. Yu Meiyan lived a drunken life in Hong Kong, often going to theaters, restaurants, casinos, and the money given to her by a businessman surnamed He did not take long to spend. Not long after, the businessman surnamed He could not stand the profligacy of Yu Meiyan and announced his divorce in the newspaper. Yu Meiyan returned to the lonely days and returned to the familiar night life.
In 1925, the son of the governor of Nanhai County and Yu Meiyan came together, probably because the second generation of officials did not know Yu Meiyan's experience and frantically pursued Yu Meiyan. The helpless Yu Meiyan was touched by his sincerity and decided to live a life of "trying love before marriage" with the second generation of officials, and the two rented a villa in the countryside and lived a life of you and me. One day, the brother of the second generation of officials broke their beautiful life with a letter, saying that the person you want to marry was a dusty woman who was in the night show before, how can you marry her? This is not the end, the brother of the second generation of the official wrote to Yu Meiyan again, persuading Yu Meiyan to leave her brother quickly. At this time, Yu Meiyan felt that she had met true love and did not abandon the second generation of officials. In desperation, the parents of the second generation of officials personally went out to force Yu Meiyan to return the money spent by the two, a total of 20,000 yuan, and if they returned, they agreed to their marriage. Yu Meiyan was heartbroken, relying on her personal connections, to raise this money, but the other party's parents suddenly changed their minds and punished her, if Yu Meiyan promised to leave her son, she would not be cured of Yu Meiyan's crime. Yu Meiyan was discouraged and left the sad place and left the country.
Living in this world, sometimes involuntarily, although he later wrote a "modern love letter" for himself, specializing in collecting and sorting out the love letters given to him by men, it is said that 3,000 men have had sex with her.
In the dark free arrangement, Yu Meiyan went to San Francisco when she met her ex-husband, how she wanted to reconcile with him, but the ex-husband hated his improper life and rejected her, in her heart, it is because the ex-husband went out and did not return, she will be empty and lonely, will do unruly things. But the fault is all women's, what is wrong with men?
In 1927, Yu Meiyan, who was full of thoughts, felt that the temple was her destination, and at this moment, the second generation of officials came to pursue him again, and she knew that if she wanted a happy and happy marriage, it was impossible, and simply rejected the good intentions of the second generation of officials.
The following year, Yu Meiyan returned to Shanghai from Hong Kong, Yu Meiyan on the boat, looking at the endless sea, her life is like this sea, endless and hopeless, at this time she wants to cry without tears, moody, feel that the whole world has abandoned him, there is no meaning in living without love, so she jumped into the sea and committed suicide, ending her short life, when she was 28 years old.
In fact, today there are also many "runaway women" and "sea kings", he can be deep in his heart, perhaps in the pursuit of that persistent love, but social reality does not allow them to do this, or this flashy world, lost their direction and heart. The cruelty of society forced them to become the so-called sea king. Or that no matter how beautiful a woman is, it is just a pair of skin bags, and only the inner beauty and independence can show the unique temperament beauty. In the era of materialism, grasping their own values and keeping their own bottom line is more important than anything, rich men, may only be interested in the skin bag.