I hate angels because they are hypocritical

I hate angels because they are hypocritical. I like demons because they are free. I like black because it's clean. I love the night because it hides everything. I love tears because it's real. I yearn for death because it represents liberation. I yearn for depravity because I don't have to wear a mask of hypocrisy. I love you in my own way, although I don't know if my way is right, even a little extreme, but I am not malicious, and I don't want to make you unhappy because of my love, I hope that there will be such a person, I hope she knows the reason for my possessiveness, how to give me a sense of security when I am insecure. Hopefully, when I can't suppress myself, I can hug me tight and tell me not to do this. I know how to heal myself, but when I say it, I will show that I am so cheap, this winter, no surprises, no accidents, no relationship. Life, take it slowly, we still have a chance to call tomorrow, the world, spend everything, meet many things you like, in a good time, meet you who want to love for a lifetime!