"I have a dream, and I don't know who I can share it with. How many secrets are in it, and no one can understand it. ”
"The window is deeper and heavier, and tonight the flowers are falling into a mound. Spring comes and goes without a trace, leaving a curtain of dreams. ”
It was the theme song of the TV series "A Curtain of Dreams" broadcast in 1996, and the singer at that time was Taiwanese singer Xu Ruyun.
22-year-old Xu Ruyun, already has a very clear and sweet voice, she uses a non-impatient Yun-style singing voice, the pride and frustration of Lu Ping, the humility and happiness of Zi Ling, interpreted into three points, so that the listener is moved, and the thoughts are scattered.
When Xu Ruyun, as the owner of the "Time Concert", mentioned the song "A Curtain of Dreams", too many memories suddenly came to my mind.
Xu Ruyun
Whether it is a TV series or a theme song, "A Curtain of Dreams" has left a deep impression on me. Because the time I listened to songs and watched dramas was the most painful and happy time for me.
That year was my second time taking the college entrance examination, and because the cultural class was not improved so well, I was only admitted to an ordinary university.
After the opening of the school, I still couldn't lift my spirits, and I was depressed all day, not knowing where the future was.
In boredom, you can only rely on listening to songs to pass the mood. Songs as popular as "A Curtain of Dreams" are naturally in the song list.
When I came home from winter vacation, the TV station was playing "A Curtain of Dreams" again, and I finally watched it in its entirety.
Like every young girl, looking at such a beautiful Wang family sister, as well as the elegant Fei Yunfan and Chu Lian, there was both deep envy and silent expectation in the bottom of their hearts, hoping that their own love would come as soon as possible.
TV series "A Curtain of Dreams"
At the end of May 1997, the first semester of my freshman year, an ordinary boy came into my sights.
He is the secretary of the regiment in the class, very low-key and hardworking.
When he confessed to me, I was really surprised. Because I didn't think about it, there really is a two-way focus in the relationship.
In this way, we became boyfriend and girlfriend.
He is very kind to me, he will take me out to play when the weekend is boring; he will urge me to hurry up and study at the time of the final exam; and he will not hide his reluctance to me when the winter and summer vacations come.
Great music time
At that time, there was no network, no smartphones, no various apps, and the devices that young people used to listen to songs were called Walkmans.
The two of us often shared a Walkman and a pair of headphones to listen to the song "A Curtain of Dreams" together.
He said that he hopes that in our dreams, we can always have each other.
At that time, it was really happy.
Before he could relax from his memories, Cai Guoqing on the TV had finished reading the letter and stood on the stage and began to sing "A Curtain of Dreams".
Suddenly, I couldn't help but feel a little bit of a stoic feeling - this Cai Guoqing, who used to sing "365 Blessings" everywhere he went, actually gave Xu Ruyun such a big face today and sang "A Curtain of Dreams".
Cai Guoqing in "Time Concert"
Probably "365 Blessings" is too deeply rooted in people's hearts, listening to him sing "A Curtain of Dreams", there is always a feeling of being different. It's like we're wearing the wrong clothes and don't always fit well.
It's also like meeting the right person at the right time and place and eventually having to separate.
Four years of college life ended quickly and we began to face distinctions and choices.
He said his parents were very open and didn't ask him to go back to his hometown and he could follow me to my house.
But I hesitated, because we had a lot of problems to face, the first of which was work and survival.
My family is in the countryside, my parents are farmers, and employment opportunities are limited. Arranging my work is already a big problem, how to solve his work?
And the family knows that I was in love at school, but I have never seen him, in case the family opposes, where will we both go?
He said he would go to his house, his parents were county cadres, and the work could still be arranged.
I wrote a letter to my family, tentatively saying that I wanted to go out after graduation, and there was an uproar in the house.
I confessed my weakness, and I did not dare to leave my parents and follow him to live in a completely unfamiliar city.
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So we began to quarrel and ponder. He said I didn't love him enough to make sacrifices for love.
Maybe.
In the face of thin love, we finally succumbed to the thickness of reality.
A month after graduation, he wrote to me that he had found a job in their county library. Although it is a clear water gate, after all, drought and flood ensure harvest.
He also said that he missed me very much and wanted to come and see me as a farewell for three years of love.
I was surprised that such a taciturn boy had such a delicate moment.
Just like I was surprised, such a rough Tengger, actually appeared in the "Time Concert" and sang such a gentle "A Curtain of Dreams".
Tengger in "Time Concert"
Mention Tengger, you will think of "Heaven", think of the vast Mongolian steppe, the wind blowing grass low to see the shocking picture of cattle and sheep.
"A Curtain of Dreams" tells the story of the little girl's longing and sentimentality for love, which is interpreted by Tengger, a Mongolian man, who does not feel violated at all, but has a different kind of gentleness, which is not inferior to Xu Ruyun's singing.
Maybe this is what is called iron man tenderness.
In the summer of graduation, I saw him again after a long absence. He had lost a lot of weight, and his already thin figure looked even more lonely.
We laughed with tears in our eyes and wished each other well. I said I wasn't brave enough, and he said he was just as cowardly.
The next night, he stepped onto the train home.
Say goodbye in the rain
I clearly remember a particularly heavy rain that day, and the moment I walked to the ticket gate, he suddenly ran back and hugged me with tears in his eyes.
In the hall of the train station, he and I cried bitterly.
It wasn't until the conductor urged him that he wouldn't be able to catch the train without leaving, that he let go of me and ran over without turning his head.
To describe our situation in a very common phrase at the time: Since we can't give up everything for love, let's give up love for everything.
20 years have passed and we have no contact anymore.
After listening to Tengger sing, my tears had already flowed unconsciously.
"Whoever can understand my affection, who will be tender and deep." If you can know each other and meet each other. It's like a ghostly dream. ”
Thanks to "Time Concert", thanks to Xu Ruyun's original singing, thanks to Cai Guoqing and Tengger for bringing "A Curtain of Dreams", let me have the opportunity to swim in the memories in the busy time, for the original youthful love, truly draw a perfect end.