A young woman lay on the tracks and tried to kill herself, but she flinched again before the train came.
This is her second search for death, just a short time ago, she had gas to swallow sleeping pills and planned not to live, fortunately, her son had just returned, so she temporarily gave up this idea. What makes a woman search for death three or four times?
Stills from "Textile Girl"
The woman's name is Li Li, a female worker in a textile factory that is on the verge of closure. The efficiency of the factory is not good, and every day to find various reasons to deduct the wages of employees.
Li Li lives a simple and boring life every day. Husband Xiaoguang is an honest elm knotty personality, originally a technician in a textile factory, but he was a group of laid-off people. Helpless, I had to set up a stall in the wet market to sell fish to survive. Although the days were a little bitter, they were also calm and peaceful.
When the wife got off work, she would pick her up and the child, send the child to class, and Xiao Guang would go home to cook. Life is as plain as water, although sleeping with her husband is relatively speechless, but Li Li also has no choice but to accept all this, just like ordinary people, in the eyes of others, it can also be regarded as a happy family.
But this peaceful life was soon broken, and Li Li suddenly shed a nosebleed while waiting for her son, and suddenly fainted on the ground while singing with her co-workers in the factory. Xiao Guang quickly sent his wife to the hospital, and after a check-up, Li Li had a blood cancer! The doctor deliberately opened Li Li, told her husband Xiaoguang of the condition, and said that the treatment would cost a lot.
Li Li, who was turned back, heard it clearly. Thunderbolt on a sunny day, which is a great disaster for such a family.
Her husband was laid off, the factory was also facing closure, facing the torment of pain, facing the end of her life, Li Li thought of suicide.
When I got home, I bought a cake and turned on the gas. Fortunately, her son suddenly came home, which made her give up her thoughts. Sick or not must continue to live, stubborn Li Li continued to return to work in the textile factory, but Li Li, who usually grinned a lot, seemed to have changed into a person, often smoking alone in a silent daze, and the news that the textile factory was about to close did not let her care.
The co-worker asked Li Li if she was sick? Enlightened Li Li's life is just like this, she confessed to Li Li that she also had breast cancer, and her husband divorced her, but she wanted to open, should drink and eat. He also advised Li Li to follow her to the dance hall to earn money and enjoy life. Li Li smoked a cigarette and looked at the cotton-covered window for a long time in silence, she struggled internally, she lamented the ups and downs of her life.
After a few days, Li Li, who couldn't stand the depression in her heart, really went to the dance hall, but she didn't go to the dance, just smiled and was silent. Li Li had a decision in her heart, she was going to Beidaihe, she was going to go to a trip, to solve the doubts in her heart for many years. Li Li told her husband Xiao Guang that she wanted to go on a tour to relax her heart, and Xiao Guang knew his wife's distress and sent her to the train.
In this way, Li Li came to Beijing alone, she came to a dye factory, inquired several times, and found a man named Lu Han. It turned out that Lu Han was Li Li's first love ten years ago, but at that time, Li Li's parents were resolutely opposed, and later, Lu Han was transferred to Beijing to work. The two of them were gone.
Two years later, Li Li gambled with her parents and casually married Xiao Guang, but her heart has always been worried about Lu Han. This trip Li Li found Lu Han, just to find out, why after Lu Han was transferred to Beijing that year, Li Li kept writing letters to him, why didn't he reply? At that time, the feelings of the two were so deep, Li Li had always been grumpy. But unexpectedly, Lu Han said that he had not received a letter, saying that he had also asked someone to inquire about her news at that time, and that he had complained about Li Li after knowing that Li Li was married and had complained about Li Li for so many years.
Listening to Lu Han's words, Li Li was sad. Just because of the missed news, the two complained to each other for ten years. How many decades of life? Ten years of unsatisfactory, ten years can never be repeated.
Li Li was also relieved, and went with Lu Han for a trip, missing Beidaihe for a long time. It was a cold winter, there were no imaginary birds and flowers, although the scene was different from the fantasy in her heart, but Li Li also felt satisfied in her heart. Time passed, things were not human, and the two let people take a photo to commemorate it. The lovers who were once there are no longer the same as they were then.
Solving the doubts in her heart, Li Li left the hotel without saying goodbye. Her wish was over, and she no longer seemed to have the hope of living.
Li Li came to the train track and lay down, but when the train was about to arrive, she instinctively feared to hold her head and avoid it, and everyone was surviving! Li Li cried desperately, and the track guards found her and chased her up loudly. Li Li hurriedly picked up her luggage and ran, running and running, listening to the shouts of the guards behind her to punish her, Li Li smiled.
She understood herself, after all, she did not have the courage to cut herself off.
When I got home, my life was still going on as usual. The snow was flying, and the textile factory on the verge of closure still insisted on arranging for the female workers to sing "Textile Girl" as usual, and in the tragic and exciting song, the textile factory also closed down violently.
Female workers have been laid off, in order to maintain their lives, some female workers have gone to the dance hall to dance with men to earn money, husband Xiaoguang advised Li Li to lay off the post, stay at home to recuperate.
But Li Li was often depressed and unhappy about her illness, and she told Xiao Guang that she couldn't stay at home, and that she was dying, and if she was good, she would let her go out and live happily for a day. Xiao Guang, an honest man who is not good at expressing himself, understands his wife's bitterness and has no choice but to agree. Riding with others every day to send his wife to dance in the dance hall. How ironic it is that men ride bicycles to send their wives to dance halls to earn money, and reflect the sad situation of this class.
Li Li's indulgence did not take away her bitterness, and she got into an argument with people in the dance hall and got into a fight with people.
Weak, she fainted from the noisy crowd and was taken to the hospital, where the doctor said Li Li's condition had deteriorated and had no therapeutic significance. Gently persuade XiaoGuang to keep the money for his son's education.
Xiao Guang was speechless for a long time, but made another major decision, he sold the house and continued to insist on treating Li Li. Honest people do not say love, but they prove love with actions. Li Li knew from her son that the news that Xiao Guang had sold the house was shaken in her heart, she did not think that Mu Ne's husband could pay so much for her, Li Li was deeply moved. Li Li opened the photos taken by others for her and Lu Han that day, and her heart was full of tastes.
Her illness worsened and she was sent to first aid. Xiao Guang anxiously accompanied her, Li Li looked at her husband, the pain was unbearable, she held out her hand, Xiao Guang also firmly held her hand.
After the fall, Li Li still left, and Li Li's soul gently touched the head of her husband Xiao Guang. Perhaps, she now understands that the person who truly loves her has always been around, but she has not compromised with life.
This is a story about life and love, the epitome of a corner of society in the 90s, laid off, a pain that a generation can't erase. A serious illness makes the protagonist examine his own life, his own love. Director Wang Quan'an said: "When everything is normal, you are easily in a state of chaos, you don't think why it ends, you think life is endless, but in fact, it is not, the end may come at once."
What is the reflection on ourselves? May we all cherish the present and live a better life! Welcome to comment in the comment area! See you in the next issue!