Wu Mi in her youth
Before Wu Mi entered Tsinghua University to study, she could be said to be a "countryman" from the north.
Once, when he returned to his class, he found that the classmates who worshiped foreigners had written the three words "confused men" on the blackboard, and his original name was Wu Tuoman.
With the laughter of his classmates, he secretly swore that in the future, He would act as a man with Wu Mi, the "Mi" character he had pointed to in the Kangxi Dictionary.
Wu Mi was loyal to academia throughout her life, and together with Chen Yinke and Tang Yongtong, she was called "Harvard Three Masters", and brought the "five-star Jukui" myth that has been passed down to this day for the Tsinghua Research Institute.
There is no doubt that Wu Mi is indeed a respected academic researcher, respected, and paranoid enough to make people feel cute.
As an avid fan of Dream of the Red Chamber, he was once furious because the owner of the hotel named the hotel "XiaoxiangGuan".
As a red scholar, he felt that the Lin sister in his heart was defiled.
"Harvard Three Masters" Wu Mi, Tang Yongtong, Chen Yinke
At that time, Wu Mi was on crutches, and the hotel owner theorized, the boss did not listen, he even waved crutches to destroy the tables and chairs bench in the store, until the boss changed the name he did not stop.
Because of Wu Mi's sincerity and reality, he recorded his life experience in his diary in great detail, so that people could spy on his life through his words.
In his diary, he recorded many of his own love lives, and even had stories of entanglement with multiple women at the same time.
Therefore, Wu Mi's emotional attitude has been criticized in later generations, and many people have commented that he is not serious about his feelings and is a "scumbag".
But what is less known is that this frank and paranoid literati actually has the same enthusiasm for literature and feelings.
After being criticized for being chaotic and abandoned, teacher-student love, and being deceived by women, the white moonlight still hung high in Wu Mi's heart.
Wu Mi's handwriting
In the early 20th century, Wu Mi was studying at Harvard on the other side of the ocean.
Ben was immersed in academics one day, he opened the mailbox in the morning and found a letter from Chen Liexun, a classmate of Tsinghua University who studied in the United States.
In addition to the greetings that had become the norm, there was a passage in the letter that made Wu Mi feel uneasy.
Chen Liexun told Wu Mi in the letter that his sister Chen Xinyi was very interested in Wu Mi and had a good feeling after her sister had read Wu Mi's poems and photos.
"Although my sister is proud and proud, she would like to marry you for the rest of her life."
Chen Xinyi graduated from Zhejiang Women's Normal College and is now a primary school teacher.
However, such a talented woman with strict mate selection standards did not leave Wu Mi at home, and suppressed the arrogance in her heart, telling her brother that "she is willing to serve Wu Mi for life."
Wu Mi also developed a strong interest in Chen Xinyi, so she dressed up in formal clothes and flew to Hangzhou immediately at the beginning of the holiday.
But this hasty meeting, both for Wu Mi and for Chen Xinyi, set the tone for their fate.
Neither of them could have predicted that their future direction would be completely changed because of this meeting.
In the Chen family, Wu Mi was talking and laughing with Chen Xinyi, and had the style of a gentleman.
At this time, Chen Xinyi's girlfriend, Mao Yanwen, walked into the Chen family compound.
"You can meet anyone you don't know through three people."
This sentence also applies to Mao Yanwen and Wu Mi.
Wu Mi's tablemate at Tsinghua, Zhu Junyi, was Mao Yanwen's cousin and Mao Yanwen's fiancé.
Mao Yanwen was given to another man by her father, but she was not willing to be controlled by her father,000 and ran away from home to make a lifelong relationship with Zhu Junyi.
Mao Yanwen Zhu Junyi
As Zhu Junyi's tablemate, Wu Mi had long heard of the name Mao Yanwen, and had also read many letters from the two, and her affection was long.
Wu Mi had long been sympathetic to this woman, and under the preconceived concept, she also had a good feeling. But he knew it was despised, so he buried this good feeling deep in his heart.
In Wu Mi's diary, he and Chen Xinyi first met "only silently", and later under the mediation of the Chen family, the two often went out together.
Boating in the West Lake, talking about ideals, talking about philosophy, can always rub out the spark of the love between men and women. Wu Mi said that he had been more than ten years old and had not experienced this kind of omnipresent happiness.
At the urging of Chen Yinke and other friends, in just 13 days, Wu Mi and Chen Xin were hastily married.
Wu Mi and Chen Xinyi
He only remembered that when he entrusted Mao Yanwen to inquire into Chen Xinyi's details, Mao Yanwen said, "It is not very lively, but it is not stagnant." Not very beautiful, but not ugly. Not very sociable, but not too quiet. ”
But he forgot that Mao Yanwen was unreserved and partial, and said, "You can make friends, and the matter of hastily engaging needs to be carefully considered."
In her lifetime, Wu Mi has never learned what "careful consideration" is.
After 35 years, after the thousand sails have passed and the madness of youth has become a thing of the past, he still has not learned to treat love seriously.
After liberation, Wu Mi has gray hair and pale face, and her stubborn and enthusiastic heart has tended to be peaceful, and she has become an old man who devotes herself to academic research.
I thought that this life had passed like this, and the appearance of Zou Lanfang once again brought him a twilight love that shocked the world.
Zou Lanfang constantly wrote letters to Wu Mi, unabashedly expressing her admiration and admiration. After receiving Wu Mi's official reply with the meaning of a teacher, he went directly to Wu Mi's home and took good care of Wu Mi as a student.
How long has it been since she received such care, from sewing clothes to handling affairs, Wu Mi has gradually become accustomed to getting along with this student. He watched Zou Lanfang do things silently for him, and hid in the corner to endure the pain, and it was inevitable that he would feel pity and love.
So in June 1953, Wu Mi and Zou Lanfang, who was only in her 20s, entered into marriage.
Some people say that Wu Mi is affectionate and yearns for teacher-student love, while others say that Wu Mi's compassion is overflowing, and he may just see the shadow of Daiyu's sister in Zou Lanfang.
Wu Mi's obsession with "Dream of the Red Chamber" is well known, and he believes that Lin Daiyu is the most perfect and wonderful woman in the world.
It can be said that Wu Mi's highest concept is to be able to care for Lin Daiyu like Zijuan, always loyal and always affectionate.
Zou Lanfang's life and suffering are somewhat similar to Lin Daiyu to some extent.
She was originally a landlord and lived the life of a rich lady with no worries.
But Zou Lanfang was thirsty for knowledge, and came to Chongqing alone with the tuberculosis she had suffered from since childhood to study, and completed her studies with difficulty.
Because his brothers had participated in armed rebellion and were suppressed by the Communists, Zou Lanfang was kind-hearted and had to take care of several orphans.
But forced by the helplessness of reality, Zou Lanfang needs people to bear huge pressure on the economy. When she saw several articles published by Wu Mi, she seemed to see a driftwood in the vast ocean, and she had to hold it firmly.
Zou Lanfang may value Wu Mi's generous salary and high political status more than love. Therefore, some people commented that this marriage was a proper scam.
Mao Yanwen
Three years later, Zou Lanfang died of tuberculosis, and Wu Mi was still raising the orphans.
"This is the love affair of dusk, it is clear that it is to treat Lan Fang's illness and raise their family of nine." Wu Mi took out most of her salary and remitted it to various accounts, while saying to her friend with regret.
If it were not for Mao Yanwen's cold attitude towards Wu Mi, Wu Mi would not have rushed into this "marriage deception".
Everyone only knows that Wu Mi is romantic and affectionate, regardless of worldly opinions. In fact, it can be said that except for Mao Yanwen, no one else has entered Wu Mi's heart.
The hasty marriage in the early years and the dramatic encounter were all doomed to the love-hate entanglement between Wu Mi and Mao Yanwen and Chen Xinyi: one was a white moonlight who had loved for a lifetime, and the other was a couple who had been in love with each other.
In order to gain the favor of Bai Yueguang, Wu Mi did not hesitate to abandon her wife and son, directly divorced Chen Xinyi, and left her three young daughters behind, only to smile for Bo Meiren.
Zhu Junyi
Originally, after marrying Chen Xinyi, Wu Mi should have let go of the obsession in her heart.
When Wu Mi and Zhu Junyi were teaching at Nanjing University together, Mao Yanwen once again entered Wu Mi's world, which made Wu Mi's suppressed admiration in her heart show signs of revival.
Zhu Junyi repented of his marriage, and he completely disregarded the alliance between the two of them under the moon, and ignored the marriage that Mao Yanwen insisted on for 6 years.
He just told Mao Yanwen that marriage between close relatives was harmful to the next generation, and he could not marry her.
Mao Yanwen had left almost everything for this marriage, and now she was only waiting for such a hurt, how could she be willing.
In front of Zhu Junyi, she recalled the original sea oath and mountain alliance between the two and begged Zhu Junyi to marry her. Unfortunately, Zhu Junyi's attitude was indifferent and he resolutely refused.
As a friend of the same window, Wu Mi naturally took Chen Xinyi and became a peacemaker.
They constantly persuaded Zhu Junyi to think carefully and not to be ashamed of his love, but unfortunately, no matter how hard they tried, they were all paid to fight the fire, and the two finally broke off the marriage contract.
After Mao Yanwen and Zhu Junyi's marriage was in vain, Wu Mi could no longer suppress her inner feelings, and he decided to confess to Mao Yanwen.
However, at that time, he also had three children with Chen Xinyi, so that holding a salary to fight a fire became a fire.
This was a huge insult to Chen Xinyi, who could not bear such a huge mental pressure and chose to divorce Wu Mi.
Wu Mi was already a well-known scholar at the time, and such actions were like boulders thrown into a pond, setting off a big wave in the press.
At that time, tabloid reporters took the matter of Wu Mi, Mao Yanwen, and Chen Xinyi as talking points, and then added oil and vinegar to write and publish them in newspapers and periodicals.
Mao Yanwen was forced to get involved in the center of public opinion, she was originally a matchmaker who matched her girlfriend and Wu Mi to walk together, and she was also a green plum bamboo horse with Wu Mi.
When she learned that Wu Mi had already developed a good feeling for herself, she was even more angry.
She told Wu Mi that she had never had any affection for any man except Zhu Junyi, let alone a husband with a wife.
Wu Mi in her later years
Wu Mi didn't mind at all, still pursuing Mao Yanwen fiercely.
Not only Mao Yanwen was angry, but Wu Mi's relatives and friends, family members, and even public opinion condemned his chaos and abandonment.
Father Wu even disregarded the family etiquette and pointed at Wu Mi and scolded, "ruthless and unjust, lawless."
But this still can't recall Wu Mi's heart of being led away by love.
In order to further pursue Mao Yanwen, he expressed his willingness to fund Mao Yanwen's study abroad, mao Yanwen of course would not accept it, she was unwilling to have any superfluous intersection with Wu Mi, and even did not want to owe him a favor.
Wu Mi did not give up, he was in college, he longed for Mao Yanwen to write love poems for himself, and he deeply loved Mao Yanwen.
He entrusted a friend to send money to Mao Yanwen in the name of a friend, watching over her study career on the other side of the ocean.
Mao Yanwen learned the news after a while, the woman always longed for care, and her heart was shaken.
Originally, it was to go abroad to stay away from Wu Mi, but the hearts of people are always caring for their homeland, and it is inevitable that they will be lonely in a foreign country.
After learning that he had been silently cared for, Mao Yanwen was touched.
Mao Yanwen agreed to marry Wu Mi and prepared to travel to Paris to meet Wu Mi, who was in academic exchanges.
It may be that men are carved into their bones like the new and dislike the old, or it may be that Wu Mi is a contradictory person.
He was open and unconventional in his romantic marriage, and on the other hand, he was afraid of a conservative secular vision.
Wu Mi does love Mao Yanwen, but will this love really not deteriorate after marriage?
Wu Mi was worried about the complicated relationship between the two, worried that if the two really got married, there would be all kinds of trivial contradictions.
As a result, Wu Mi was unusual, no longer greeting Mao Yanwen as before.
Mao Yanwen and Xiong Xiling
Mao Yanwen went to Paris with a heart full of joy, but her hot face was pasted with a cold ass, and her touch and enthusiasm were extinguished by a basin of cold water.
Catalyzed by the interweaving of grievances and disappointment, Mao Yanwen flashed marriage with Xiong Xiling, who was dozens of years older than himself.
She said, "Only old men will not spend their hearts and give themselves enough security."
Wu Mi is obsessive and narcissistic.
He was stimulated by the news of Mao Yanwen's flash marriage, and stubbornly believed that the woman was gambling.
He believes that Mao Yanwen's marriage is because of his own indifference and self-abandonment, and he also feels that Mao Yanwen will regret it one day and re-enter his arms.
Most of the reason for such contradictory thoughts was Wu Mi's frustration, and he did not know what role he should play in Mao Yanwen's life.
Not friends, not lovers, not strangers. It is a one-way bondage and love that is carved into the soul.
After Xiong Xiling died of illness, Wu Mi repeated the trick and tried to recover the person she had always loved.
But he never considered that Mao Yanwen's heart did not belong to him in the first place, but only a little bit of good feelings that were touched.
He wrote 38 love poems, titled Confessional Poems, which were published in major newspapers and periodicals.
This is the only confession that a clumsy literati can think of, and it is also the sincere confession of this obsessive scholar.
One of the most famous sentences is: "Wu Mi bitterly loves Mao Yanwen, and people from three continents are shocked to hear about it." Divorce is not afraid of sage ridicule, money and reputation are he foot cloudy! ”
The students expressed disdain for his behavior, and his friends even told him that how you pursue your love is your private affair, and we don't understand whether your poems are good or bad, but about Mao Yanwen, such things should not be put on the table for publicity.
"Just like when we go to the bathroom every morning, it shouldn't be advertised in the newspaper."
Wu Mi didn't mind at all, just said indignantly, "My love is not going to the toilet!" ”
Not only that, Wu Mi wrote countless long poems full of heart and sent them to Mao Yanwen.
But Mao Yanwen could not reply to the letter, and even returned his letter unchanged.
It did not have the same long-lasting love as in fairy tales, and time did not consume Mao Yanwen's resentment towards Wu Mi.
When Mao Yanwen was 102 years old, when asked what she thought of Wu Mi, she said: "He is so boring. He's one-sided and he's a nerd. ”
She was still full of resentment, saying that she had never loved Wu Mi, and that what she hated most was Wu Mi.
At that time, Wu Mi had been dead for many years, and if he had known about it, he would regret his fanatical pursuit or contradictory indifference.
Mao Yanwen was in Taipei in 1975
But in the second half of Wu Mi's life, he thought about Mao Yanwen day and night.
Already oppressed, in his bumpy and depressed dreams, he would be even more bitter because of Mao Yanwen, and he would often cry.
The pain of love in her heart made Wu Mi close her eyes forever on the pillow soaked with tears.
Qian Zhongshu's wife, Yang Dai, said: "While I revere Mr. Wu Mi, I feel that he is the most deceitful teacher. I heard my classmates say he was 'silly and cute', and I just thought he was honest and pitiful. ”
"Love is like the fire of a moment, and all fires lead to it, and its fire is as it is."
Mr. Wu Mi has practiced this sentence all his life, including love.