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My cheating is not a way back, the confession of a 45-year-old woman (19) life is like a dream

Some people say that mental infidelity is not terrible, but what is really feared is physical infidelity. In fact, both mental derailment and physical derailment are terrible, because the soul and body should be unified, and any problem in either aspect makes a person fragmented. Spiritual derailment is like the body without a soul, leaving only an empty body, the physical derailment is like an animal, losing the rationality that man should have, but also a betrayal of human nature.

First, life is like a dream.

Originally ready to go back to the resort to rest, I really did not expect the door to be inserted from the inside, this deep in the middle of the night, if you knock on the door or shout people, this is not only to show everyone my relationship with the glasses man?

I looked at the glasses man, he didn't have a good way, we just continued to hang around the Youjia garden, without purpose, like an empty soul sleepwalking.

My cheating is not a way back, the confession of a 45-year-old woman (19) life is like a dream

Walking along the West Gate Square of Youjia Garden, like two ghosts shaking in this boundless night.

On the night of June, although it is early summer, the second half of the night is still a little cool.

Since I was wearing a thin set of pajamas, I felt a little cold and my body was shaking a little. The glasses man took me in his arms with one hand and walked north along the road at the west entrance of Youjia Garden, less than 200 meters from the gate, we saw a hotel, and there seemed to be someone walking around at the door.

The man with glasses took my hand and trotted to the door of the hotel, where a middle-aged man was walking while smoking a cigarette and saw us coming. Ask if we want to open a room?

I suddenly heard this question and it felt very familiar, because when my first boyfriend and I went out for a small party on the first weekend during college, the hotel waiter asked us that.

My cheating is not a way back, the confession of a 45-year-old woman (19) life is like a dream

At that time, I felt a little shy, and then I got acquainted with the hotel waiter, where the waiter did not ask us, as long as we stopped in front of the service desk, the waiter would give us a special room card Number 405.

Time flies, and it has been twenty years since this blink of an eye, but such a question is still in my mind, and what a familiar scene has appeared in my mind.

Maybe this is just a professional language habit of the waiter, but because of my first opening, it left a deep mark on me. Every time I encountered a similar situation, my sleeping nerves would tremble with excitement.

My cheating is not a way back, the confession of a 45-year-old woman (19) life is like a dream

The glasses man asked the waiter, can I live without an ID card?

The waiter looked at us and said, don't you have a cell phone?

We didn't understand what it meant, and thought it would be enough to mortgage our phones.

The waiter then said that there is Alipay, point to the id card to find the ID card.

Glasses man in accordance with the waiter's prompts, step by step operation, and finally handled the accommodation procedures, accommodation fee is not expensive, only 60 yuan a room.

I walked with the glasses man to a double room on the second floor.

I was so tired that I went to the room and fell asleep.

The glasses man didn't know when he fell asleep, maybe he was still thinking about how quickly this woman fell asleep!

Second, share the same bed.

When I slept, I remember clearly, the glasses man had a bed, and I slept in a bed by myself.

I'm sure of that.

Whether it is a young girl or a young woman, she may like to dream, and I am a woman who loves to dream. Many dreams that cannot be realized in reality can be realized in dreams.

It may be a reminder from the waiter that in the dream I dreamed of my first boyfriend again, and he still loved me like that, habitually holding me tightly in his arms, so that I could enter a sweet sleep.

My cheating is not a way back, the confession of a 45-year-old woman (19) life is like a dream

Suddenly, he felt that he was getting harder and harder, and he was a little out of breath.

I lifted the quilt, I wanted to breathe, but I didn't expect my hand to touch a person, and I immediately woke up.

There was another person next to me who was asleep, not my first boyfriend, but the glasses man, who had not yet woken up.

I subconsciously found that I was not wearing clothes, and when I began to look for clothes, the clothes were lying messily on the floor in front of the bed.

I got dressed, washed my face, and sat next to the glasses man, and this was the first time I had looked at this man seriously, with fair skin, a high nose bridge, a country-shaped face, full of black hair, and a smile at the corner of his mouth.

My cheating is not a way back, the confession of a 45-year-old woman (19) life is like a dream

I looked at this man I had just met, like I sometimes looked foolishly at my sleeping son, who was so careful to look at him more and more closely.

I kissed him lightly on the forehead, thinking of rebirth and leaving, back to the Wyvern Resort.

At this time, he woke up. One hugged me, and we hugged each other deeply.

My cheating is not a way back, the confession of a 45-year-old woman (19) life is like a dream

The glasses man's phone rang, and he saw that it was his son who called, saying that the whole tour team was looking for me and the glasses man, thinking that I and the glasses man were missing, and they did not go back, ready to call the police.

By the time we walked out of the hotel, the sun was already hanging high in the treetops.

I walked naked through thin white pajamas on the road to the resort in Youjia Garden, attracting strange glances from passers-by, a little embarrassed.

Third, the eyes of the public

I went back to the resort first, as soon as I entered the gate, the leader seemed to have discovered a new continent, and the others also came out of the room one after another like greeting foreign guests, my face was hot, and I wished that I could drill into it.

When I got to the room, I saw that there were more than a dozen missed phone calls, some from my son, some from my mother, and some from the leader... Of course, there are also phone calls from my husband, and he seems to be calling me for the first time in so many years, which is really surprising, so many years, if I don't add the name of the child's father to the address book, I really can't remember what my husband's phone number is.

My cheating is not a way back, the confession of a 45-year-old woman (19) life is like a dream

I first called my mother back, saying that I had lost last night, and then I stayed outside temporarily for one night and told her that my child and I were safe.

My mother didn't blame me, she just said that when I go out, I don't go out alone, especially at night, and I can be in trouble if I meet bad people.

Called my husband back and he didn't answer. I called about ten times in a row, and finally I connected, and finally replied with a word, saying that I knew, and then the phone hung up.

The glasses man came back later than I did, although we all knew that we were "missing" at the same time, and some had already speculated that we were not husband and wife, especially the leader, because the contact information I left was one of my mother's and one of my husband's, and I think he must have known it.

Now, everyone almost understands my relationship with the glasses man. We used to think we were husband and wife, the glasses that we had deceived everyone.

In fact, I don't know how many pairs of fake couples in the world, paired up, showing up in front of everyone with kindness and love, have cheated on many pairs of glasses.

When I saw my son, my son was very aggrieved, as if he had just cried...

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