Text | Momo Chenfei
One of the most wrong things July did was to tell Anson that the boy she liked was named Su Jiaming.
Li Ansheng, a single-parent family, untamed personality, charming and rebellious, the pursuit of freedom, I do my own thing, and Wen Jing is well-behaved, earnestly studied, and the family happiness of Lin July is simply different.
But fate has made them indispensable in each other's lives.
They are friends, sisters, girlfriends, and even the people who love each other the most.
Until, the day Ansheng moved into the new rental house, July, full of joy, told Ansheng that I had a boy I liked.
He's very handsome, loves to listen to music, and is the captain of the long-distance running team, and most importantly, he is one place higher than me in the three exams of the midterm, the end of the term, and the midterm, don't you think we are very lucky?
One person likes another person, and all coincidences can be naturally regarded as fate. Just by immersing herself in her inner world, July did not know that Ansheng's expression of loss could not be concealed.
And since then,
Everything has changed.
At the first glance, An Sheng also looked at Su Jiaming.
She carried July to the school to see the boy named Su Jiaming, originally wanting to find out for July's unreliability, and then give a warning.
Have you ever worked on an object? Usually do you dump others or do others dump you? Do you usually chase others or do others chase you? You look like this, you must be very popular.
No matter how An Sheng interrogated Su Jiaming, Su Jiaming was not angry, but with a smile on his face, he felt that the girl in front of him was straightforward, naughty and cute, and he patiently answered her questions one by one.
If An Sheng first saw Su Jiaming only because of his handsome appearance, then Su Jiaming's clean, sunny, easy-going suddenly captured Li Ansheng's heart. So much so that the sentence she was going to say for July also became her own plausible confession, ambiguous.
Recently, a girl has taken a fancy to you, you better be honest with me.
Disaster stems from this sentence.
Su Jiaming thought that the girl who looked up to him was Li Ansheng, so before Lin July confessed to him, he also had ambiguous feelings for Ansheng.
She made a quick start, so that Su Jiaming's emotional world had her first.
Li Ansheng, who did not feel that he had said the wrong thing, followed Su Jiaming with a proud smile. When july dragged Su Jiaming to the bar where An Sheng worked to introduce them to each other, in a place where July could not see, she and Su Jiaming made love. Climbing a mountain in the suburbs, because july was physically exhausted, he rested halfway, and in the temple where only Li Ansheng and Su Jiaming were there, Li Ansheng accepted the bodhisattva jade pendant sent by Su Jiaming.
If An Sheng at this time had the slightest affection for July, she should not have accepted Su Jiaming's jade pendant, but she did not, she not only accepted it, she also wore this jade pendant around her neck every day.
Ansheng went wandering, in the name of realizing her dream of making a home.
She went to Beijing alone, worked in bars, made all kinds of friends, slept in the basement and tunnels, sat on cruise ships as a waiter, saw the sea, did different jobs, wrote one letter after another to July, and changed boyfriends after boyfriend.
Seemingly colorful, more like indulgence, unbridled, and lonely.
Finally, in the year she was twenty-three years old, she wrote to July.
In July, do you remember listening to the radio when you were a child and reading thousands of rivers and mountains? I feel like I've come to an end, I'm tired now, can I go home? Let me go home.
On the day Su Jiaming boarded the train to Beijing, An Sheng returned and returned to his home in July.
She thought that she had made sacrifices and voluntarily withdrew from this war without smoke. She thought that after so many years of upheaval and displacement, it was enough to pay, and she and July would be the same as before, regardless of you and me.
But she didn't know that when she returned to July's home, she was still wearing a jade pendant sent by Su Jiaming, and she didn't know that in each letter she wrote to July, "Greetings to Jiaming" was written at the end.
July knows that An Sheng still loves Su Jiaming, and in Su Jiaming's heart, there is also a place for An Sheng.
In order to take care of love and not hurt friendship, July tolerated these things, but with an extra defensive heart, she would never mention An sheng in front of Su Jiaming, let alone Mention Su Jiaming in front of An Sheng.
Even when they called Su Jiaming when they were out on a trip, July didn't want to pick up in front of Ansheng.
Some things, once they happen, it is impossible to break the mirror and reunite, but the ansheng of the initiator is more like the one who has been wronged, accusing July's fierce heart and alienation over and over again.
Don't you know the math? What is yours, what is mine, all these years, you have not calculated clearly enough? I want to ask you, you were very happy when I ran with the man, right?
According to Ansheng's logic, your boyfriend likes me, give me gifts, you shouldn't mind, you mind is that you are stingy, you mind is not to care about my friend.
What a painful realization, what a selfish person!
Anson really didn't deserve to be friends with July.
High-sounding words,
In the end, it all turned into a joke.
Ansheng said that she has been letting go of July, but in the end, who let whom?
When she was a child, her father died early, her mother traveled day and night, almost ignoring her, it was July, and pulled her to her own home, eating and living with herself. July's parents, who regard Ansheng as their half-daughter, are no worse than July.
But what about Ansheng?
On the parting train, she knew that July had seen the jade pendant around her neck, but without half an explanation, she also implied that July: Su Jiaming liked her, it was her withdrawal that fulfilled July, Su Jiaming, she gave it to July.
The truth is that regardless of whether An Sheng quit or not, Su Jiaming's final choice is not necessarily her. This was clear to July Bianson.
Do you think you know Jiaming very well? Do you think Jiaming loves you very much?
Su Jiaming is a very greedy person, he likes an agility, charm, non-conformity, but also likes July's calm, virtuous and tolerant, so he will hesitate and waver between these two women.
He also knows that the most suitable for him is July, who matches him both academically and his family, not Ansheng in the mixed job after junior high school, if he loves Ansheng very much, he can make it clear to July that July is not an unreasonable person and will never pester him.
But he didn't, and he didn't do anything with all his effort.
An Sheng said that between July and Su Jiaming, she chose July.
But the result?
She and Su Jiaming lived together in Beijing.
The day they were hit squarely by July, An Sheng still seemed to be straight and aggressive.
You've wanted to pour me out since the first time we met, right? Wouldn't it be more painful to rip my clothes off? Haven't you always wanted to dump me? Why do you keep pretending? I'm afraid that Jiaming will see it, now the door is locked, Jiaming he can't come in, I'm tired for you.
Li Ansheng regarded July's patience with her as a pretense, and perhaps only by thinking like this would her heart be less guilty.
July did not think that she suddenly went north because of her suspicions, but what awaited her was the double betrayal of love and friendship.
An Sheng probably didn't think that Su Jiaming really didn't love her very much, but she hurt Lin Qiyue, who loved her very much, for him.
Li Ansheng, who will never meet again in his lifetime, a friend who treats her like Lin July.