Once, he had the best time with her. Kant once said that the so-called best time refers to happiness that will never return, because it is lost forever.
So, we can only nostalgically call it. The most beautiful times are always invincible. It was like when he was younger with her – at that time, he was 19 and she was 18. He stood under the pale blue sky and thin clouds of autumn like a tall, flowing tree. She was as beautiful as a little flower. They met and fell in love on the train, and have been so entangled ever since that they thought they would never be apart again in their lives.
She is a Hangzhou Jiangnan woman who gave birth to Longjing. Every spring, before the Ming Dynasty, she brought him tea. At first, he didn't like to drink tea, but because of the tea she sent, he fell in love with Longjing, which had a faint fragrance. He came to see her from the north once a month. There are many beautiful feathers in 4 years, without interruption. Without a doubt, this should have been the most beautiful of her travels. At that time, he asked her, how long can we have? She said, for a lifetime. She asked him, do you really like me so much? He replied: It is difficult for Jia Hui to meet again, and three years is the future. After three years in love, he came and went between Hangzhou and Beijing.
In the fourth year, her attitude changed. He sensed the difference in her. Every time he came to Hangzhou, she personally came to pick him up. Moreover, when he saw him, he always asked him shyly: Do you miss me? This is the first sentence. But this time, she didn't answer, saying the company couldn't do without anything. When they met, it was also very light, and there was an awkward atmosphere in the air, and after a while, she received the call and ran outside to say it.
He felt sad in his heart and felt that love was getting weaker and weaker. That time, he returned to Beijing drunk and cried. That was the last time he went to Hangzhou. When he left, she said, forget me, please forget. He didn't ask why, love is cold, what else is there to ask? That winter, he got married and sent her a text message, and she replied with a text message saying, "Bless you." He got drunk on his wedding night and called her. She didn't answer, just sent a text saying it was inconvenient.
The following spring, he still received her Qianming tea. He called over, but she still didn't answer. She sent him a text message and said, "Let's just have tea." You say, I'm like this tea, bitter and fragrant. He was speechless, and the tears came down the moment he drank the tea. He still couldn't forget her. This fall, my son became the section chief of the unit, and his life passed very slowly. Because he was busy, he gradually forgot about her in the south. It wasn't until spring that she brought tea again. He stopped calling her as if she were an old friend of his. Longjing before the Qingming Dynasty is really fragrant, there is a kind of cold beauty, then she must be married and have children? Seven years later, at the age of 30, he went to Hangzhou for a meeting. He had gained weight, occasionally quarreled with his wife, and argued for a divorce, but he knew he was reluctant to do so, and there were family ties in the marriage, and he couldn't stand it anymore.
The children went to school and were learning to play the piano. His enthusiasm for life gradually lost. However, he always dreamed of her, even though it had been 7 years. When he arrived in Hangzhou, it was raining and his heart ached a little. He called her for 7 years, her phone number didn't change, he didn't change, afraid she would never find it again. At this point, he thought, he was just coming to see a sister. Yes, when love is gone, there may be hatred at first, but who can resist the erosion of time?
Now, he hadn't hated her for long. She must have had a reason to leave him. Once upon a time, he always had the opportunity to go to Hangzhou on business, but he didn't come, and he still hated her. But now, he didn't hate anymore, because time had diluted those hates. He was thinking of her good. When he was in love, he ran 10 kilometers to DeyueLou to buy him steamed buns and wash white shirts. The room was filled with the smell of 84 disinfectant. She said white shirts bleached with 84 disinfectant would be very white. He later told his wife that she also used 84 disinfectant to bleach and dye her white shirt.
Every time she used it, he would think of her. And the music he loves to be with her. Matthew's Bressinon. The train was running through the forest at night, just as he was running toward her. Once he heard the song in Beijing Oriental Xintiandi, he stood there and left until he heard the whole song. As he left, he found tears on his white shirt.
This time: he would invite her to tea, dinner, and talk about the kids and home. Yes, he no longer loved and hated her.
He only wanted to treat her as an old friend, even if they were in a daze together, because the people and things that passed by in his youth must have been a cinnabar mole for a lifetime. He pushed open the familiar door, and it was her mother who came to greet him. At that time, her mother cooked lotus seed porridge for them to drink. When she saw the old man, he called out to his aunt, and her heart became sour. Her mother was already full of gray hair! What about her? he asked. The old man's eyes were red. Seven years ago, she went, afraid that you would not love to remarry again, and left you out in the cold. She asked me to text you tea and told me not to change phones for fear you would never find her again. She said she would bless you in heaven. At that moment, he was shocked and lost three souls. With her love for him, how could she suddenly change her mind? He fell out of love, so he got drunk and left. It turned out to be a lonely battle of life and death. She is in heaven and he is on earth. She endured all the suffering for his happiness.
Her mom said she was looking forward to seeing you again in years. She said you would treat her like a loved one, and then you should have some happiness. She would know when she was in heaven. Suddenly, his tears poured out like a flood, and he couldn't breathe. He saw that her room was as old as ever, and there was a picture of her and him, under the cherry tree, and she looked at him. She once said that you will be the loneliness of my life and death. To this day, he finally understood that sentence. If one loves another deeply, it is the loneliness of life and death, that is, whether in heaven or on earth, she loves the same. In the movie "Dream in the Garden", I asked Cuihua: What do you want most? Cuihua said that I most hope that someone cares about me, thinks of me, thinks of me. It was a movie they watched together. She once said, I will miss you, I will miss you. She did. Even if she's dead. He knows that he is the happiest person in the world, because he has a lonely life-and-death relationship, and there is a person who thinks of him forever. After returning, he bought a copy of Tang Xianzu's "Peony Pavilion" at the airport. @No End Talk Emotions He bought this book only because of the first sentence of the book: I don't know what to do, but I love it deeply. His tears finally came down. #Emotion Office ##Emotion PK Desk ##情感 #