01
When I looked back at Chuande, I felt that my heart was about to fly, and his facial features were not particularly delicate when taken apart like Linda.
Together, they produce a charm that makes people can't take their eyes off it, and the figure is tall and long, as if the air around it is filled with hormones.
I pressed my heartbeat and leaned behind him.
It was empty, and there was no one.
Only the back stretched by the luminous glow.
I asked curiously, "Why are you here?" ”
Chuan De smiled and said, "I'm here to send you home." ”
"No, Chubby They're a person? Didn't you say you were going for supper? ”
"Originally, but I look so pitiful when I go home alone. It felt like a stray puppy. ”
This metaphor suddenly made me cry and laugh: "Hey, if you want to be cold, I'll say it directly, don't beat around the bush." ”
Chuan De laughed until his eyes bent into a slit: "I'm joking with you, don't take it seriously." But what's wrong with you, you feel weak and soft. ”
"It's nothing, it'll be fine in a few days."
Chuan De showed a sudden realization: "I understand, once a month, your relatives come to see you." ”
A crimson flew across my face, and I glared at him without squeaking.
Seeing that I was annoyed, Chuan De said softly: "Oh, it's not a shame. We're all so old, come, I'll help you get your bag. At this time, you need to rest more and drink more hot water. ”
After speaking, he directly took the backpack with some weight on my body without any reason. Today, because the teacher assigned a lot of materials for the winter vacation homework, I went to the library with my schoolbag on my back during the day to check the materials and write the materials at the same time.
After finishing my homework, I went straight to Rosemary and didn't even go home.
02
With Chuande's movements, I felt my shoulders loosen.
Physically it is a lot easier, but the pressure in the heart?
I barely managed to squeeze out a smile: "Thank you." ”
The person with a big wave of his hand carried the pink backpack directly on his back. His cool appearance with this pink and a white plush bear schoolbag is really funny.
Thankfully, it was night, but there were still sporadic night returnees passing us. I couldn't bear it, and immediately proposed: "It's better for me to come by myself, your big man carrying a girl's bag is not good for your image." ”
Facing my outstretched hand, Chuan De deftly dodged away: "I don't care what others think." If we think it's okay ourselves, then it's OK. ”
My hand paused in the air for a few seconds, staring at Kawade in a daze.
Chuan De dragged my hand: "Let's go, why are you very uncomfortable?" Why don't we take a taxi? ”
Without waiting for me to answer, he raised his long arms and prepared to call a taxi.
I quickly pulled his hand down: "I'm fine, don't call a taxi." ”
Chuan De lowered his head to observe my face carefully, and asked hesitantly, "Are you sure, don't force it." ”
I said in a very affirmative tone, "Well, no problem. ”
Finally stopped insisting, Chuan De said: "Okay, let's go slowly." If you're uncomfortable, you have to tell me. ”
"Okay."
"Xiaoxiao, do you have any brown sugar at home?"
I was puzzled: "What? ”
"It's nothing, it's much more comfortable to go back and make some hot brown sugar water to drink."
I laughed, "How I feel like a friend of women." ”
Chuan De laughed a few times: "I knew you would say that, Yao Jing ...... before"
Suddenly, he lost his voice, and after a long while, he said, "Yao Jing before, she also said so." ”
I was puzzled: "Chuande, how do you know so much?" ”
03
Chuan De smiled bitterly: "Maybe it's because I didn't have my parents by my side since I was a child, so my personality is extraordinarily sensitive." When I was a child, as long as my grandmother coughed, I would immediately go to help her make loquat cream. ”
My heart ached: "You must have had a hard time when you were a child, right?" ”
Chuan De's face was full of indifference: "I can't say it's hard, after all, my family is in a special situation." Although there were grievances between their older generations, it was good that everyone loved me. ”
I remembered the topic I hadn't finished talking about, so I asked, "What did you talk about with Mr. Oe after you came back from the hospital that day?" ”
A smile rose on Chuan De's lips: "You must not have thought that my father would apologize to me." ”
"Huh?"
"The first thing my dad said when he found me that day was to say sorry to me, that he was sorry for me all these years. Because I look alike my mom. ”
He touched his face: "Xiaoxiao, do you think it looks like?" ”
I nodded: "Your face does look like Aunt Linda, but your height advantage is like that of Mr. Oe." You are lucky to have inherited the good qualities of your parents perfectly. ”
Chuan De shook his head proudly: "So my God, you still treated me well." ”
Only when a person is doing well will he let go of his pain!
Chuande, who never mentions the hurt in the past, is fading away from the past little by little.
In a flat tone, he continued: "My dad told me that in the past, he would think of my mom every time he saw me. He always thought that my mother broke the vow of love and ruthlessly abandoned him, so when he saw me, he would think of the bad old days. ”
"Every time I see me, my heart will be in a diaphragm for a long time."
"So he didn't want to see me, just like he resisted hurt. As if only in this way could he let go of the past. ”
04
Although I can understand Mr. Oe's feelings, I always feel that his approach is a bit extreme: "Is your father a little willful in doing this?" ”
Chuan De smiled: "At first, I had similar thoughts to you, thinking that it was reasonable and understandable for him to do this, but it seemed very naïve and irresponsible morally. But then I told me a lot about what happened at that time, and I gradually understood him a little. ”
"yes, what did Mr. Oe say?"
Chuan De sighed slightly: "This matter is a long story, let's talk about it as we go." ”
"Hmm."
In this way, the figures of the two of us no longer shy away from the eyes of others, and walked side by side in the dark night.
Chuan De took the initiative to say: "My grandmother had two children inexplicably before giving birth to my father, and she collapsed at one point. ”
"Don't look at my grandfather, who is very reasonable and very good at leadership. But he has soft ears, and he especially can't let go of the hard-working relatives and fellow villagers in his hometown. ”
"After my grandfather came out, as long as the relatives in his hometown had any needs, they would find him. If he has the conditions, he will definitely help, and if he has no conditions, he will also help. So for a long time, my grandmother had to constantly maneuver around these relatives to deal with things. ”
"Xiaoxiao, what do you think, these relatives from my hometown will definitely try their best to pat my grandfather's sycophants when they come to the door. When they saw that my grandfather's family had a big business and there was not even a child around him, they naturally pointed the finger at my grandmother, both openly and secretly. ”
"During that time, there were people who said anything, but my grandfather was dedicated to protecting those relatives in his hometown. At one point, my grandmother almost had a psychological problem, and it wasn't until after my dad was born that she straightened her back in front of those relatives in her hometown. ”
05
I haven't spoken for a long time, but I didn't expect such a strong old lady to have such a period of aggrieved days behind her.
At the time, I was puzzled, and it wasn't until many years later that I inadvertently recalled this past and suddenly realized the reason why the old lady was so contrasting.
Where there is innate strength - nothing more than breaking oneself piece by piece in the dark. Then pick it up again and piece by piece to piece out a new self.
Chuan Deha let out a sigh, rubbed his hands and continued: "My dad is a child born from my grandmother's back, which found a lot of holy hands to regulate her body. Plus it's a boy again, and she finally has a natural crush on my dad. ”
"And my dad has been very competitive since he was a child, well-behaved and smart and studious. According to my grandmother, God gave all the good things to my dad to make up for the loss of her two children. ”
Hearing this, I couldn't help but think of what Sister Li once told me: "Da Jiang used to love to laugh, and he was kind and generous when he saw everyone." ”
In this way, Sister Li's words should be true.
So I took the opportunity to tell Chuan De what Sister Li told me. Chuan De was not surprised at all by my words: "When I was a child, many people around me told me this, but at that time I didn't believe it at all, thinking that these people were cheating children. ”
When I heard this, I couldn't help asking, "Chuande, what happened later?" ”
"My father, who made my grandparents proud for 20 years, changed after meeting my mother. Later, I don't need to say much about my dad eloping with my mom, you know. ”
I nodded.
06
Chuan De continued: "It is very unfortunate that my father eloped with my mother. My dad has always been the pride of my grandparents, because the two excellent old people will inevitably show off from time to time. During that time, almost everyone knew that the Gu family had an excellent son. ”
"Once a person is excellent, it is inevitable that he will be remembered."
"My dad eloped just in time for my grandfather to compete with another rival for a leadership position. The opponent's wife usually doesn't deal with my grandmother very much, and I don't know what they secretly used to know about my father's elopement. ”
"Originally, my grandparents planned to quietly suppress my father's elopement and send someone to get him back. But his rival's wife hyped it up so much that everyone in their circle knew about it. ”
"It's really a good thing not to go out, but a bad thing to spread thousands of miles."
The Gu family's son eloped with a contract worker, and it became a topic of conversation after tea and dinner in their circle during that time. It is not a glorious thing to use rumors and rumors, and then people add oil and vinegar to it, so there are people who say anything unpleasant. Because of this, my grandfather was hit for a long time and couldn't hold his head up. ”
I interjected: "Then did your grandfather lose the competition for the position later?" ”
"Of course, that's for sure."
"Because of this, my grandparents didn't want to see my mother. My grandmother was even more exaggerated, thinking that my mother must have used some shady fox tricks to seduce my father, and the whole person's temperament changed greatly. ”
I was a little curious: "Aunt Linda is such a good person, if I would like it too." Besides, one is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer, how can you throw all the responsibility on Aunt Linda. ”
07
But when I thought about it, I seemed to understand the old lady's selfishness.
When human nature encounters problems, the first thing to do is to throw the responsibility to others. Only when there is no one to blame will have no choice but to accept reality.
Chuan De looked at me and smiled: "You and my mother are really in love, my mother has been saying hello in front of me." Before you heard me, you supported my mother. ”
Afterwards, Chuan Deluo said meaningfully: "However, my mother is very good." My mom ......"
The little expression of happiness and satisfaction on his face is like a child who has eaten candy.
I hurriedly interrupted him: "Later? ”
"Oh, you know what happened next. Soon after my mother gave birth to me, she was forced away by my grandmother. In the end, my dad carried me back to Gu's house, but since then he has been in a slump. ”
"He was originally the brightest star in that circle, but he was suddenly ruthlessly abandoned like a rag by a woman. It was too much of a blow to him. His self-esteem was completely destroyed at once, and he was stuffed in the house all day and refused to go out. ”
"I finally went out in a better mood, and my grandfather helped him arrange a job. Xiaoxiao, you also know that the people he met in his working environment were basically people from similar backgrounds to him. As long as it is a person, everyone knows what happened to him? ”
"Not to mention my dad's friends and relatives, who said they didn't say anything to their faces in those years. But looking at his kind of pity and sorrow, it is better to take a knife and plunge it directly into it. ”
"Because of this, my dad gradually became reluctant to associate with his former friends."
08
"My grandmother thought that after my dad had been hit, he would pick himself up and work hard. During that time, he made a lot of connections to help him introduce a few girls who were the right people, but as soon as people heard that it was my father, they began to talk about old things. ”
"Later, my grandmother had no choice but to lower her requirements."
"But my dad didn't know what was going on, and he mingled with some second-generation officials in the circle who didn't do their jobs and had a bad reputation all day long. When my grandmother said a few words to him, he retorted that he was comfortable with these people, and that they wouldn't look at him with colored glasses. ”
I couldn't help but ask, "Old lady, she must have regretted her decision at that time, right?" ”
Chuan De nodded: "Grandma didn't say it explicitly, but she must have regretted it in her heart." So my grandmother was very strict when she raised me, and when I was a child, I was not sensible, and I always felt that my grandmother was a witch sent by God to clean me up. ”
Regardless of the cold, Chuan De suddenly rolled up his sleeve and pointed to his arm: "There is a very faint scar here, which was caused by my grandmother who refused to study hard when I was a child and was so angry that she knocked it with a ring ruler." ”
"At that time, her hand slipped and there was a big opening here, and the doctor said that if it was deeper, she would need stitches."
I took advantage of the dim light to look closer.
There is indeed a scar on the white arm, but if Chuan De does not mention it and does not look carefully, it is not obvious.
I smiled and asked, "Does it hurt?" ”
"Of course it hurts."
Chuan Debi gestured: "There was such a long opening at that time, I almost fainted with fright." ”
"The old lady is so fierce to you, do you hate her?"
Chuan De was silent for a while before he spoke: "Hate, I can't talk about it, I just thought my grandmother was very fierce at that time." ”
09
Chuan De said in a self-deprecating tone: "Recently, I talked to my mother for a while, and I found that my IQ may have followed hers. Outsiders think I'm a student at a prestigious university, and they all think that I must be very smart and studious. ”
"Actually, I know my own business. If it weren't for my grandmother who had found all kinds of teachers to help me with my homework since I was a child, I would never have been able to get into that prestigious university. ”
"Two of the teachers who came to help me make up for my lessons when I was in high school were famous teachers who participated in the questions."
"According to them, it was normal for me to be admitted to a prestigious university. If you can't pass the exam, it's a humiliation. ”
"Xiaoxiao, I heard my mother say that my dad is different. It is said that my dad has been very smart since he was a child, and he learns everything very quickly. My grandmother didn't hire any tutor for him at that time, and he always had excellent grades. ”
"I think if my dad hadn't had a love brain, maybe he would be able to mix well now. If he hadn't eloped with my mother, he wouldn't have fooled around with those second-generation officials in the future. All day long, his eyes are low, and he only thinks about eating, drinking, and having fun, and using the power in his hand to make quick money. ”
I asked in a skeptical tone, "Chuande, do you really think so?" ”
Faced with my hesitation, Chuan De said embarrassedly: "Not necessarily, anyway, I will listen to what my dad says." He's always been my dad, what else can I do? Even if we turn over the old accounts in the past, we still have a blood relationship between father and son. ”
"This may be the fate of God's talent in me, and no one can choose their origin."
In the last sentence, Chuande's tone was full of helplessness.
Every uneasy outcome is the best ending for us.
If the Gu family's father and son can let each other go, it is indeed the smartest thing to do.
For Chuande, this is how he grew up.
The way of an adult is to learn to forget, and then keep saying goodbye to the past, and the deeper the goodbye, the more mature the person will be. Until one day, he will be able to look at everything in the past with warmth and tolerance.
10
Hearing that Kawatoku decided to let go of the past, he planned to shake hands with Mr. Oe and make peace.
I was happy for him from the bottom of my heart, so I followed his words and said, "Chuande, I would be very pleased that you can think of Aunt Linda like this." You see, she never mentioned the past in front of us at first, and her original intention was not to let you be caught in the middle. ”
"Since Mr. Oe and the old lady plan to let you make your own decisions, then you will study and live well in the next few days. Replace the regrets of more than 20 years with the motivation to move forward in the future, I think Aunt Linda thinks the same way. ”
Chuan De made a triumphant gesture to me: "Xiaoxiao, don't look at your young age, but think that things are definitely better than many of your peers." My mom kept saying in front of me, you're smart. ”
Listening to Linda praise me, I lowered my head with shame: "Where is it, Aunt Linda is the real powerful person." ”
Chuan De, who shook his head, said slowly: "No, my mother said that her success today is to pay for her past love brain." She said that you are much more perceptive than her, and you are definitely not a love brain. She said that at a young age, your heart is like a mirror, you know what to ask for and what not to want. ”
"If she had half of your understanding back then, she would never have suffered so much."
I never expected Linda to say that about me, could she have noticed something?
Shocked, I hurriedly asked: "The New Year is coming soon, will Aunt Linda stay with you for the New Year?" ”
"Well, my mom plans to stay in the rented house for the New Year this year. She discussed with me that she would take a day out after the New Year and go back to her hometown with me to see her uncle and little cousin. Although we don't have much contact, they are the only living blood of my mother. ”
"My mom wants me to accompany her back to her hometown."
"Chuande, are you going?"
"Go ahead, just accompany my mother."
"Hehe, filial son. Old lady, do they agree? ”
"I told my dad about it, and he said he was going to do my grandmother's job."
"That's good."
When I heard that Oe finally had a little bit of responsibility as a father, I smiled with relief.
(To be continued!) ）
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