About appearance anxiety

About the appearance anxiety I may be the same as many ordinary people, from childhood to grow flesh, not tall, the eyes are also puffy single eyelids, more importantly is the inheritance of the parents' rectangular face, especially the whole face of the two hereditary large eye bags more remind me, destined to be from childhood and beauty, do not say that the mother sent me that mouth is not very neat and a little toothless titanium alloy teeth, but here can be said, although the teeth are ugly, but the bones are not too strong, this may also be the only advantage I think it, Fortunately, I grew up to live to 23 healthy, at least physically.

I still remember when I was in junior high school, there were not many girls in the class, but everyone had double eyelids, big eyes, tall, white skin, to interject here, my mother's skin was very white, but I inherited my father's yellow skin, very yellow, harmful, at that time may not understand what is beautiful, but I am the same as other children, my eyes will still stay on those other girls. Similarly, unfortunately, of course, I am not the kind of positive character, nor will I come up with any good idea of not looking enough, connotation to make up, just like this, in envy and constant envy finally survived to high school, because may not be born smart brain only read a mediocre vocational high school, in this school, there are more beautiful women, but also the first time to produce inferiority.

Looking at those youthful smiling faces, neat white teeth, thin and tall figures, small faces, more than once in my heart, I would be fine if I were like them. Sure enough, high school is the age when the love sinus first opened, I like a long and very beautiful and sunny boy, laughing dimples drunk my high school for three years, but also I can't get the white moonlight, maybe I inferiority, maybe the girl he likes is also the same as him, tall and thin, laughing beautiful girl. In this way, I began to lose weight, began to learn to be like other beautiful girls, began to wear makeup, wanted to wear beautiful clothes, tossed back and forth for several spring and autumn, and finally I graduated, with that regret and envy and longing to go to a bigger city. (Why do I want to, you ask?) Because Grandma told me that I wasn't ugly, I just hadn't opened up yet, and when I went to college, I would be beautiful. But..... ）

I want to grow up fast, start school fast, hurry up... Become beautiful, this is my secret, carefully waiting for the start of school day, in the long summer vacation, under my own continuous tossing, I still have something to gain, secretly bought myself a double eyelid sticker, every day to give myself a sticker, constantly psychological hints, finally God may have heard my prayers, tossed for two months, my eyes really became double eyelids, although still a little swollen, although it is still not big, but I am happy to dare not sleep, afraid that God regrets me to take it back, So now I still have a pair of non-standard and non-delicate small inner doubles, maybe lucky, or maybe because of my mother's little recessive gene. All in all, it was the best 18th birthday present I've ever received.

Finally ushered in the opening of the school, in the small society of the university, I am really ordinary, very ordinary, no high cost of living, no yearning for this so-called free time, so in the plain as water life, I just want to pray that I will grow up quickly, quickly become as beautiful as other girls, but a year has passed, I am still the same me, even under the blessing of military training, I have become darker. And my roommates, because they have good genes, quickly turned white, and also began their college transformation history. And I, not only did not become beautiful, but even have a tendency to go backwards, you ask me why? Of course, because the rush to achieve success was eaten back, at that time was when the new media was just starting, many beauty anchors quickly turned red, of course, I also actively learned from them, and I have indeed been flipping, hey, it is really a very difficult thing to become beautiful.

Man, in addition to beauty, of course, there are more important things, especially like me, no background, no family background, no small transparency or hard work to live, so the beauty plan is temporarily stranded, I began to find a life for myself.

So I graduated smoothly.

After graduation, I entered a very ordinary business, do is a tour guide, yes, I have another advantage of not looking good, that is, I can talk very much, in this job, I will think every day, will it be ugly to wear this way, lipstick is not suitable for me, this image will not make tourists dislike ..... and so on and so forth for a series of ideas.

Because entering the society, the contact with nature is more, I began to know that if it is not white, you can have whitening needles, listen to friends around you say who has whitening needles, who has cut their double eyelids, and who has who pads their chins....... Listening to this, there was no wave on my face, but there was a lot of wind and water in my heart. So after work, I opened Du Niang and began to search for plastic surgery projects, of course, like many people, I lost to money, and the most important thing is that I was afraid of needles since I was a child, so you know, I was honored to give up this option.

People often say, "The roof leaks when it rains overnight." "In this job that my family thought was good, a big cold in Mother Earth forced me to run again for my livelihood, so I began to go back to when I was just graduating, confused and overwhelmed. Under the influence of my friends around me, I ran to the 5G era and went to a job where I could survive by beauty, an e-commerce anchor. But the reality is always cruel, the good times are not long, the company is also advancing with the times, from the mobile phone to the camera, there are countless beauty ratings between them, hey, in the new equipment debugging stage, my big face, dark circles, eye bags, small eyes..... Nothing to hide. Even, still constantly being ridiculed, in fact, I am really sad, from small to large inferiority let me hear those faces are too big, the skin is so yellow, the eyes are so small, the eye bags are very large, these words are really really sad, eager to reshuffle this face. But I can only say a joke, I can't go for a facelift overnight.

If you are lucky enough to have friends who like to take other people's looks and figures to complain about see my article, please don't say this kind of thing again from today, the girls across from you really care, but they also have no way, they don't have a good genetic gene, they haven't grown into what you like. They also don't have the courage to get a facelift, maybe they don't have the money, they are really ordinary, ordinary enough to kill them with a single sentence. If you really can't help but say it, then please say these dark words in a dark place and let them go, because the sunlight in their world is really fragile.

What was the scenario in which I edited this article? It is written by being ridiculed, being spat at, and having a rainstorm in my heart, but I still hope that the world of those girls will always be sunny, even if I can't do it now, I hope that we can face the darkness and get rid of the anxiety of appearance one day in the future.