— What made you firm your theistic views?
— When your loved one arrives in another world.
A year after Ah Lang's death, Xiao Rou came to Tibet alone. When they were in love, they had planned to drive themselves to Tibet, and things were uncertain, and now she could only see him in her dreams.
Xiao Rou's heart was extremely lonely, and when she arrived in Tibet, she was even more lonely. She said, as Li Yaohui's line in the movie "Spring Breaks" said: "I finally came to the waterfall, I feel sad." Because I always thought that there should be two people standing here. "If Ah Lang hadn't had an accident, she wouldn't be alone standing on this pure land of Tibet now."
When Xiao Rou told me the story of her and Ah Lang, there was no wave in her heart, but when it came to emotion, she shed tears again. How can you forget?
In the first few months of Ah Lang's accident, she did not eat or drink, locked herself in the house, and could not figure out why what could only happen in the movie fell on her. Xiao Rou said that after Ah Lang's death, she also calculated Ah Lang's fate, and she did not know why she believed this.
Xiao Rou left school at the age of nineteen and then went to work for a company in Suzhou that produced electronic products. She and Ah Lang had known each other for a long time, when she was a clerk at an electronics company, and Ah Lang was the leader of the production team. The group leader often went to the clerk to get the materials, and they were familiar with it as soon as they came and went. She has always had a good feeling for Ah Lang, often showing kindness to Ah Lang and even confessing. Ah Lang, I think Xiao Rou is still small. Later, Xiao Rou understood that the reason why Ah Lang was reluctant to be with her was because Ah Lang felt that she was not very reliable. At that time, Xiao Rou was very unbearing, a bad girl, after work, smoking and drinking, and made a bunch of wine and meat friends. Alang was two years older than she was and a traditional man.
At that time, Xiao Rou asked Ah Lang what kind of woman she liked, and Ah Lang told her that if she wanted to talk, she would run to get married. She suddenly felt that Ah Lang was a reliable person and wanted to form a family with Ah Lang.
As soon as she entered the electronics company, she met Ah Lang and stayed in the company for two years, and she and Ah Lang were officially together for a year.
"Why did Ah Lang accept you again?" I asked.
"Let's have a long time." Xiao Rou said, "You may also think I am more tough." ”
At that time, their department had a new director, and the new supervisor looked at Xiao Rou unfavorably, and let her work the night shift every day, and she was very irritable. The night shift is a lot of work, the work and rest are irregular, and it is very tossed. When she went to the night shift, she felt that she was very wronged. Ah Lang was also on night shift for a few days, and when he went to the office to get materials, he saw that Xiao Rou was not happy, so he made her laugh. She was amused by him. Ah Lang also told Xiao Rou that society is like this, and the leader is not necessarily a good person, and people should be kind to themselves and so on. Xiao Rou listened to Ah Lang finished speaking, and her heart was much more relaxed. At that time, the company had a document that needed to be signed by employees, and there was an old employee who dragged it out and did not sign it, and Xiao Rou did not give him any face, and directly dropped the document on the face of the person for him to sign. Ah Lang felt that this girl was so tough and did not do things at all.
After establishing a relationship, they rented a house outside and lived together. Xiao Rou said that Ah Lang was really a good man, and only then did he determine that the relationship was not a few days, and she did not have enough money to spend, so he immediately transferred money to her. She has more clothes, likes to change them every day, save a week and directly throw them in the washing machine to stir. They had been together for a week, and he squatted in the bathroom and washed all her dirty clothes by hand. Ah Lang never complained about her laziness and sloppiness, nor did he say a word about her bad.
When they were first together, Xiao Rou still went out to drink with her former friends. Ah Lang and her chatted freely all night, the main question of discussion between the two was whether her friends were wine and meat friends, after coming to the conclusion that they were wine and meat friends, she broke off all the friendships, leaving Ah Lang alone.
The reason why those relationships were broken was because of one thing.
At that time, she had a little conflict with her hair small, she felt that she was doing something behind her, she felt uncomfortable, and had a fight with hair small and hid. Her father called her, and when he couldn't reach her, he called all her friends, who didn't care about her disappearance. In fact, she hid in the garage of the community and did not want to see anyone. Ah Lang knew about this and looked for her in the community wearing slippers, and she still remembered the sound of Ah Lang's slippers rattling on the ground. He called her, and she answered the phone, got to the garage, and after seeing her, ran over and hugged her tightly and comforted her. Xiao Rou found that his face was covered in sweat.
After working in an electronics company for two years, the company changed its leadership, and Xiao Rou was unhappy and left her job to go to Xi'an. Ah Lang's family is in Xi'an, and he has also arrived in Xi'an. Xiao Rou said that Xi'an, a city with high consumption and a particularly low salary, felt that she could not stay, and returned to Suzhou a few months later. At that time, she and Ah Lang had already met the parents of both sides and were engaged. At that time, Ah Lang had originally found a job in Xi'an, because Xiao Rou had returned to Suzhou, and he decided not to stay in Xi'an. But he didn't want to go back to Suzhou, when he had a friend who worked in a shipyard in Ningbo, saying that the salary there was high and that he could go over, so he went to the shipyard in Ningbo.
Later, Xiao Rou went to Ningbo, but she did not look for a job, so she lived with Ah Lang. Xiao Rou said that they did not have a vigorous love, but a plain life. She likes to study dishes, and Ah Lang likes to eat the food she makes. Her love for him was warmer, and his love was deeper. She was more domineering, and he was much gentler.
Xiao Rou likes to drink yogurt, the shipyard every day for breakfast to send yogurt, he is reluctant to drink, after work to bring back to her to drink. Although the work is very tiring, he will never instruct Xiao Rou to do housework, but Xiao Rou is willing to do it, and if she does not want to do it, she will not do it. Xiao Rou is still very sensible, even if they are engaged, Xiao Rou will be financially clear with Ah Lang, always he invited her to dinner once, she invited him to watch a movie. He gave her a gift and got a corresponding reward.
They never quarreled in life. When engaged, she only quarreled once for the bride price, Xiao Rou is from Henan, and the bride price in Henan is high. Ah Lang is a native of Shaanxi, and the dowry in Shaanxi is low. Later, Ah Lang's parents went to Henan and quickly discussed the matter, and they did not bother about it anymore.
Ah Lang never felt that Xiao Rou was realistic. He just scratched the bridge of Xiao Rou's nose when he was joking: "Little money fan."
Ah Lang was electrocuted at the shipyard. Before the accident, he went to work and wore the black knitted T-shirt all the time, but he couldn't find it. Xiao Rou asked him why he wanted to wear it, and he said that it looked good. After going to work that day, Ah Lang did not come back.
When Xiao Rou saw him again, it was in the hospital emergency room. She received a phone call and went directly to the hospital, and when she went to the hospital triage desk, she asked the doctor if she had been hospitalized with heat stroke, when their friend told her that Alang was just suffering from heat stroke. The doctor told her that only one had been electrocuted. She felt that it must not be true. A good person, how to say that it is gone?
Ah Lang touched a low-voltage electricity, and there was still a chance of survival, but it was found too late, and the current was circulating on the body. When he found out, he still had a sharp gasp, and he couldn't go to the hospital.
Xiao Rou had several dreams before coming to Tibet this time. One is that Ah Lang appears in her dream and asks her if she is afraid of him. Another was that he kept saying in her dreams that he wanted to go home. She also dreamed that she had given birth to a male baby for him.
The reason why they want to come to Tibet is that there is no special reason, they feel that this place is closest to heaven.
After Ah Lang left, Xiao Rou did not want to touch anyone. When the accident first happened, she was very scared and couldn't figure out why it was such an ending. She felt the fragility of life.
She had three moments of collapse. She cried when she saw ah lang who had just died in the emergency room, and she was sluggish when she saw ah lang who was about to be cremated in the funeral home, and she felt lonely when she went to see him in the cemetery where ah lang was buried. Her family told her not to go to Alang's house again, because Alang was dead and his family was always a sore spot to see her. But Xiao Rou still went, and under the guidance of Ah Lang Fa Xiao, she went to his tombstone and cried bitterly.
Xiao Rou said that she now cherishes life extraordinarily. Human life is only once. She now runs a clothing store in her hometown and is struggling to live.
For a long time before coming to Tibet, Xiao Rou was trapped in the thoughts of Ah Lang and could not get out. She didn't know why that was the case. She began to be superstitious, and found a fortune teller in the northeast and gave Alang's eight characters to the fortune teller.
The fortune teller said it very accurately, before Alang had an accident, the fortune teller said it. Then he said that Ah Lang was a child, and the boy could not get married. He also said that he committed bigamy in his destiny, and even if there was no accident, they would not have a fate. Even if you are married, you will share. The fortune teller also said that Alang belonged to the rat and needed special attention in the year before this year. Alang did die the year before the year of his life.