<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="1" >01- Break with family</h1>
On June 1, 1911, the fifth day of the fifth month of the lunar calendar, the so-called "evil moon evil day", a landlord's family surnamed Zhang in Hulan County, Heilongjiang, was born, and a baby girl was born.
It is said that children born on this day either die early or harm their parents. Therefore, as soon as she was born, she was not welcomed by her family, and only her grandfather Zhang Wei frame, who was over sixty years old, liked her and named her Zhang Xiaoying. But her other name, Xiao Hong, is more well known to the world.
Xiao Hong, in this way, came to this world full of indifference to her. In the eyes of her family, she is a "scourge". At the age of 8, her mother was indeed "killed" by her.
Xiao Hong's impression of her mother was as bad as her impression of her father. They often beat her, locked her in the room, and sometimes even stoned her. This cold and deformed family environment can be imagined to cause what kind of harm to Xiao Hong in childhood.
Fortunately, her elderly grandfather can also bring her some family warmth. At dusk on a snowy day, Xiao Hong listened to her grandfather read ancient poems at the hearth, and from those words that she seemed to understand, Xiao Hong suddenly found another beautiful world. Every time she was beaten and scolded by her father, Xiao Hong would always hide in her grandfather's room.
Time rushed, and in 1926, Xiao Hong had grown into a big girl. After graduating from high school, she wanted to continue to the provincial city to attend middle school, but she was strongly opposed by her father.
In an argument, Zhang Tingju scolded Xiao Hong: "You don't want to die!" Xiao Hong was angry in his heart, so he said, "What is no face?" Who doesn't want a face? Zhang Tingju saw that Xiao Hong dared to confront himself, so he slapped her and knocked Xiao Hong to the ground.
The confrontation with her father lasted for more than half a year, and Xiao Hong fell ill. The grandfather's heart was like a knife, and he said to his son almost pleadingly: "Let her go to school, be careful of being sick!" Zhang Tingju coldly replied: "If you are sick, you will be recuperating at home, what school!" ”
From her father Zhang Tingju's attitude toward Xiao Hong's schooling, it can be seen how bad her childhood was.
A year later, Xiao Hong still went to Harbin to attend middle school. In a confrontation with her father, she achieved a small victory. But soon, her academic career was in crisis.
In 1930, Xiao Hong, who had just graduated from high school, was promised by her father to Wang Enjia, a rich man. Even more unfortunately, her grandfather, who had always loved her, also left this year. Xiao Hong no longer has half a crush on this cold home, and she wants to run away.
Coincidentally, her distant cousin Lu Zheshun wanted to go to Beiping to study, and Xiao Hong begged her cousin to take her to Beiping and study in the first year of high school at the Girls' Normal Affiliated Middle School. Xiao Hong and her cousin rented a house outside the school and lived in the same room, which surprised the relatives in their hometown who learned the news.
The Lu and Zhang families, who felt that they had "lost face", quickly cut off the economic resources of the young men and women. The cousin, who was already married and had a family, had to pack his bags and obediently abandon school to go home.
Xiao Hong, who longs for the love of the opposite sex, feels abandoned by a man for the first time.
Xiao Hong, who had no one to rely on, had to return home, and has been placed under house arrest by her father ever since. But after 7 months, Xiao Hong took the opportunity to escape and went to Beiping again.
Xiao Hong's fiancé Wang Enjia could not sit still, and he was going to Beiping to recover Xiao Hong. Wang Enhou, the eldest brother of the Wang family, learned that his brother was so "out of breath" for a woman, and in a fit of rage, he sued Xiao Hong to the court and asked him to break the marriage contract on behalf of his brother.
Xiao Hong, who was "bold and arrogant", went to the court to counter-sue and sued Wang Enhou for unreasonably divorcing his brother. In court, the judge asked Wang Enjia who was thinking of dissolving the marriage contract?
Unexpectedly, in order to take into account the face of the eldest brother, Wang Enjia claimed that the dissolution of the marriage contract was his own proposition. In this way, Xiao Hong lost the lawsuit and was also relieved from a marriage contract.
However, Zhang Tingju, who felt humiliated, beat Xiao Hong up and sent him to the countryside to be locked up. Xiao Hong still tried to escape again.
Xiao Hong's departure began her bumpy, miserable, and lonely life. After a complete break with her family, she never looked back, and her hometown of Hulan River City remained only in her memory, and finally condensed into the legendary work "The Legend of Hulan River" in her pen.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="22" >02- Encounter with Xiao Jun</h1>
The two talked freely until late at night, and Xiao Jun left the only fifty cents on his body and walked more than ten miles back to his residence. Since then, he has come to xiao hong every day. His feelings for Xiao Hong, in addition to the instinctive desire to protect, there is also a kind of man's liking for women.
In December 1931, Xiao Hong found out that she was pregnant. She was so excited that she wrote "Spring Song" with a pen and set out to sew clothes for her soon-to-be-born child. Xiao Hong, who was immersed in happiness, did not know that the Wang family had explicitly asked Wang Enjia to cut off contact with her.
After five months, Xiao Hong's stomach gradually grew larger. Wang Enjia, who has been paying credit, has owed more than 600 pieces of ocean at the Dongxingshun Hotel, and impatient stores have begun to pay frequently. Wang Enjia excused himself to go home to get the money, leaving Xiao Hong, who was pregnant with Liujia, to wait for the money to redeem himself in the hotel.
The negative Wang Enjia walked away and never returned. This is the second time Xiao Hong has been abandoned by a man.
Xiao Hong, who had been left in the hotel for a long time waiting for Wang Enjia to return, was threatened by the store to sell to the brothel. Shocked and frightened, Xiao Hong was helpless, and in June 1932, she asked Pei Xinyuan, the editor of the supplement of the Harbin International Association Daily, for help.
Although she did not know each other, Pei Xinyuan was very sympathetic to her after receiving the letter, and sent Xiao Jun, the editor of the newspaper, to visit the hotel.
Xiao Jun came to Xiao Hong's hotel with a few books and opened the door of the dilapidated grocery store. I saw a gaunt pregnant woman, pale and tired, wearing a blue cloth robe that had turned gray, and dragging a pair of deformed women's shoes.
Xiao Jun listened to Xiao Hong's story and could do nothing about the arrears of hundreds of oceans. When he gave Xiao Hong the books he had brought and prepared to leave, he suddenly found a few pages of paper scattered on the dilapidated bed. On the paper is a poem written by Xiao Hong:
"Last year in Beiping, it was the time to eat green apricots; this year, my fate is more sour than green apricots!"
Xiao Jun's heart was touched, and he sat down to talk with Xiao Hong. This sitting became a turning point in Xiao Hong's fate, and it was also the beginning of the "evil fate" between the two.
Xiao Jun was born in the military, a few years older than Xiao Hong, and was married at that time, but his wife and children were not around. In the face of this desperate woman, Xiao Jun's desire to protect as a man was aroused - he wanted to save this woman from the depths of the water.
In the summer of 1932, harbin received torrential rains, and the songhua river that broke its banks turned the whole city into a vast ocean. The first floor of Xiao Hong's hotel has been flooded, and the torrential flood has made people panic.
No one noticed that Xiao Hong, who had a big belly, climbed down from the third floor with a rope hanging down and jumped desperately onto a small boat floating outside the hotel.
The cornered Xiao Hong had no choice but to throw herself into Xiao Jun's arms. She snuggled into Xiao Jun's arms, and a smile appeared on her face for the rest of her life.
Xiao Jun accepted Xiao Hong, but could not accept her child. Moreover, his income is not high, and he cannot afford to raise children. On the day Xiao Hong gave birth, Xiao Jun braved the heavy rain to send her to the hospital, but was refused admission because she could not pay the hospitalization fee. Xiao Jun relied on his fist to intimidate him, so he let Xiao Hong live in the third-class delivery room.
As soon as the child was born, it was given to the janitor and disappeared from sight.
A young mother, after experiencing the severe pain of childbirth, and then watching her child being given to someone else, Xiao Hong's heart suffered severe trauma. In many of her works, women's childbirth is often compared to a punishment, and many men often do not understand women's pain, including Xiao Jun.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="41" >03-Get to know Mr. Lu Xun</h1>
After sending the child away, Xiao Hong settled the hospitalization fee with the support of her friends and lived in a two-person world with Xiao Jun. Xiao Jun is Xiao Hong's leader in literature, but it is also the fate of her fate.
During their lives in Harbin, the material conditions were very poor, but the love life was relatively sweet. Soon, because of the compulsion of the situation, the two left Harbin and went to Qingdao to join their friend Shuqun.
In Qingdao, Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun lived a relatively stable life, completing "The Field of Life and Death" and "The Countryside in August" respectively. They also wrote a letter to Mr. Lu Xun, who was far away in Shanghai, and got a reply, which greatly encouraged the two.
In November 1934, Shu Qun was arrested, and Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun had to leave Qingdao for Shanghai. After arriving in Shanghai, Mr. Lu Xun met with Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun, and also introduced them to friends in the Shanghai literary circles, leading them to the road of professional writers.
Mr. Lu Xun was a talented man who admired Xiao Hong's literary talent and once called Xiao Hong "the most promising female writer in China." Lu Xun helped them publish "The Field of Life and Death" and "The Countryside in August", and also personally wrote the preface to Xiao Hong's "Field of Life and Death".
At that time, Xiao Hong was only 23 years old, and Mr. Lu Xun was over fifty years old and was not in good health. In Xiao Hong's eyes, Mr. Lu Xun is a warm old man like his grandfather; in Mr. Lu Xun's eyes, Xiao Hong, who is young, lively and straightforward, is like a child.
Xiao Hong could come and go to Lu Xun's residence at will, and she could talk freely until late at night. Lu Xun personally delivered it to the door and asked his wife Xu Guangping to hire a car to take her home.
For Xiao Hong, who lacks fatherly love, Mr. Lu Xun is not only the spiritual mentor on the road of her literary creation, but also gives her the same care as her grandfather in life. This period of interaction with Mr. Lu Xun gave Xiao Hong a rare happy and happy time. Even in the bleak time of her life, it was the greatest comfort for the rest of her life.
In 1936, Xiao Hong formed a deep relationship with Mr. Lu Xun's family, but her relationship with Xiao Jun was rifted. At this time, Xiao Hong has become a more well-known writer than Xiao Jun with "The Field of Life and Death".
Xiao Jun was merciful everywhere, and before Xiao Hong, he had emotional entanglements with several women, and the cuts were still chaotic. This made Xiao Hong unbearable, and Xiao Jun was still a machismo, which also made Xiao Hong quite dissatisfied with him. The contradiction between the two has a long history and intensified at this time.
At the suggestion of Mr. Lu Xun, Xiao Hong traveled east to Japan. However, during her time in Japan, her mood did not improve, because everything was not adapted, and she felt very lonely inside, so her thoughts for Xiao Jun became stronger and stronger.
At the beginning of 1937, Xiao Hong returned to China, by which time Mr. Lu Xun had passed away, and the relationship between Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun had not improved due to the passage of time.
In less than 6 months in Japan, Xiao Hong wrote 35 letters to Xiao Jun. What was talked about was nothing more than some trivial matters in life, which showed Xiao Hong's thoughts and concern for Xiao Jun. But Xiao Jun did not appreciate it, and he did not know how to cherish and love Xiao Hong.
In Xiao Jun's mind, Xiao Hong always seemed to be the little girl with a big belly and no one to rely on on the streets of Harbin. He could be nice to her, bad to her, even beat her and scold her, betray her; and she could only endure everything in silence like a traditional little woman.
After the outbreak of the War of Resistance Against Japan, they left Shanghai for Wuhan, where they met Duanmu Hongliang. In November 1937, at the invitation of Li Gongpu, Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun decided to go to Linfen, Shanxi to teach. However, at this time, the rift between them could not be repaired, and Xiao Jun proposed to break up.
The third time, Xiao Hong was abandoned by the man.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="58" >04-Married to Tuanmu Hongliang</h1>
In February 1938, Xiao Jun, Xiao Hong, Duanmu Hongliang and others arrived in Linfen. In Linfen, Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun had a fierce dispute over where to stay. Xiao Jun wanted to stay behind to fight guerrillas, and Xiao Hong thought that they were writers and should go to a safe place to do a good job of creation.
In the end, Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun parted ways.
Without Xiao Jun, there would be no Xiao Hong, and he gave her the most fierce and unforgettable love of her life, but also the most hurtful. In addition to the initial love of life and death, in the 6 years that the two lived together, Xiao Jun was mostly domestic violence and betrayal to Xiao Hong.
Shortly after breaking up with Xiao Jun, Xiao Hong and Duanmu Hongliang came together. Duanmu Hongliang is also a northeasterner, and he and Xiao Jun are fellow villagers in Liaoning. His first impression of Xiao Hong was very good, and the elegant and shy him and the rough and reckless Xiao Jun were completely different.
Xiao Hong's combination with Duanmu Hongliang was opposed by all her friends, but she still insisted on going her own way. In May 1938, Xiao Hong was pregnant with Xiao Jun's child and married Duanmu Hongliang in Wuhan.
Lonely Xiao Hong, on the road to love, is "scandalous" and bruised when fighting against fate. She once said: "I wonder if the things I write will be read in the future." But I know that my gossip will be passed on forever. ”
Xiao Hong is married to Duanmu Hongliang, and she thinks she has found the "freedom, equality, and love" she wants. At the wedding, Xiao Hong confessed duanmu Hongliang like this:
"There was no quarrel, no fighting, no infidelity, no ridicule, just mutual understanding, love, and consideration. I deeply felt that people in a situation like my eyes still needed a name. But Duanmu made a sacrifice, and I felt very satisfied with that. ”
Six months later, Xiao Hong gave birth to her and Xiao Jun's child, but the child died a few days after birth.
Xiao Hong once carried Wang Enjia's child into Xiao Jun's arms, and now she is pregnant with Xiao Jun's child and married Duanmu Hongliang. Unfortunately, the child born with Wang Enjia was sent to someone, and the child born to Xiao Jun died prematurely.
Poor Xiao Hong, in this life, will never have the opportunity to be a mother again.
After Xiao Hong and Duanmu Hongliang were together, they gradually discovered that there were many shortcomings behind his elegance and shyness. He was timid, lacked responsibility, was lazy, and was a "coward, a snob, a horse ass ghost, and pretended to be there all day long."
Xiao Hong actually didn't love Duanmu Hongliang, but she had no choice.
The marriage with Duanmu Hongliang did not bring Xiao Hong the happiness she wanted. During the War of Resistance Against Japanese Aggression, the harsh environment, the fatigue of the journey, and the death of the child caused great harm to Xiao Hong's body and mind, and Xiao Hong's physical condition has been very poor since then.
In the spring of 1940, Xiao Hong and Duanmu Hongliang went to Hong Kong.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="74" >05-Xiao Hong died of illness in Hong Kong</h1>
Hong Kong has become the last stop of Xiao Hong's life journey.
During the Hong Kong period, although her health was not ideal, she still insisted on creating, and completed important works such as "The Legend of Hulan River", "Ma Bole" and "March in a Small Town".
In the spring of 1941, Xiao Hongzhu was admitted to Queen Mary Hospital because of tuberculosis. At the end of November of the same year, due to the cold reception received by the hospital, Xiao Hong returned to her home in Kowloon to recuperate.
On 8 December, the Pacific War broke out and Kowloon fell under Japanese artillery fire. The next day, Duanmu Hongliang and young writer Luo Binji escorted Xiao Hong from Kowloon to Hong Kong for medical treatment.
Entrusted by Xiao Hong's younger brother and Duanmu Weiliang, Luo Binji, who is 6 years younger than Xiao Hong, came to the ward to take care of Xiao Hong and accompanied her through the last 44 days of her life. During this period, Dictated by Xiao Hong and recorded by Luo Binji, Xiao Hong's last work left in the world was written, "The Story of Red Glass".
On January 12, 1942, Xiao Hong's condition worsened, and she gradually felt unsupported, and she was misdiagnosed by quacks for laryngeal cancer and underwent surgery, and after the operation, Xiao Hong could not eat, could not speak, and was in pain.
On 18 January, Tsubasa and Luo Binji transferred Xiao Hong, whose condition had deteriorated sharply, to Queen Mary Hospital in Hong Kong.
Late the next night, feeling that she had little time, she wrote on a piece of paper: "I will be with the blue sky and clear water forever, leaving the half of "The Red Chamber" for others to write!" Half a lifetime of white-eyed cold reception... Die first, unwilling, unwilling! ”
On January 22, Xiao Hong passed away with endless hatred at the age of 31.
In the last moments of Xiao Hong's life, she was particularly eager to return to her relatives, and she begged her friend Luo Binji to send her to Xu Guangping. Obviously, her relationship with Duanmu Haoliang is not good.
Luo Binji wrote in "Xiao Hong's Biography": "Xiao Hong was on the sickbed in the sound of cannons, and once said to me that we would die together. ”
This brief relationship with Xiao Hong not only allowed Luo Binji to get the copyright of "The Legend of Hulan River", but also let the literary world remember his name. But later, Luo Binji also turned against Duanmu Hongliang.
Duanmu Hongliang accused Luo Binji of being entrusted by others but having an affair with Xiao Hong; Luo Binji said that Duanmu Hongliang saw that Xiao Hong was seriously ill and wanted to abandon Xiao Hong. Who is right and who is wrong is not the same.
In the last moments of Xiao Hong's life, she tasted the taste of being abandoned by men for the fourth time.
Xiao Hong once interpreted herself this way: "The greatest pain and misfortune in my life is because I am a woman. ”
As a writer, Xiao Hong is undoubtedly successful; but in the face of love, she is a loser. As a new woman with a new education, Xiao Hong has not been able to get rid of her attachment to men. She has spent her life pursuing love and longing to be loved, but she has never been able to do so.
Xiao Hong paid a heavy price for love, but in the end she was alone. She herself said:
"I'm always walking alone. In the past, I was in the northeast, went to Japan after I arrived in Shanghai, returned from Japan, and now when I go to Chongqing, I walk alone, as if I was destined to go alone. ”
Without the warmth of her family and the happiness of love, she stubbornly lived in her own world until "a person silently and silently left this world on earth."
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