Lu Wei will not realize that his own contradictions are slowly growing, and the "I" that he has just begun to sprout has gradually left him. He wouldn't know that the burden on his back was only getting heavier and heavier, and he was slowly turning into a tough camel. Fortunately, at least he was a happy camel at the time.
Even if Lu Wei can go back to the past, what can he change? The search for the self is a lifelong journey, the answer does not flash out of the blue one day, and the self is essentially the result of a constant struggle between instinct and reason. In a way, he has to live in two worlds at the same time. It may sound harsh, but it's a reality he has to face. The way of life chosen by different people is nothing more than a different valuation of freedom.
Perhaps it was only after experiencing it that he understood the real price behind it: he had lost his youth in the struggle for honor, lost faith in the struggle for possession, lost love in the struggle for desire, lost freedom in the struggle for time. He will not know that only by forgetting time can he truly be free.
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