True Story Confessions of an nineteen-year-old girl's emotional experiences.

I'm helpless now, I don't know what to do,

There is a saying that is very good, do not rely on anything, yourself to be responsible for your future. What you plant will reap,

I was ignorant, I used love as a game, from the beginning,

I love you but not deeply because I'm selfish and I'm young. Don't know how to love someone,

I have known you for almost four years, and looking back on these four years, I feel sour, sweet and bitter. But in general it is still happy, but I still do not understand what love is, we just started when I just felt very fresh, I could not think about the future, I was very willful, impulsively ran over to live with you, but I am very lucky far away, met the person is you, and you did not last long, found your past, with a married woman, can not say that I do not know, can only say that I did not expect. I am very sad, but I am afraid, I feel that I am your person, so I put up with it, I am not a sensible girl, whenever I think of you and her together, I want to say two words, otherwise I will be very unhappy in my heart, later life has been very calm, this peaceful life I have some dislikes, but for my later life, such a life is very secure, I think you are a good man, I am very satisfied, although there is no romance of wind and snow, but there is a calm and happy.

Just like that, we walked through the ordinary and uneventful days together. How to say it, sometimes think he and very good, sometimes feel that with him and can not come, in the middle of March 2007 I went to a hotel to work, there is not bad, but your thoughts are very macho, say what to work in the hotel, every day and rich people contact, afraid that I learn badly, but I just don't listen, think you don't believe me too much, just in those days when I worked, we had a lot of quarrels, and then I met a colleague, he seems to be very handsome, the body is also very good, we have talked several times, And finally we had a relationship.

Later he sent me a message and you saw it, I also confessed everything, before this I thought about the result, just want to break up with you, I know very well in my heart, I broke up with you, and will not be with my colleagues,

But things often don't go as I think, you know that things are very painful, you want to kill the man, I can understand your feelings, I can see that you don't want to break up with me, you cherish the feelings between us, you promised me that I wouldn't hurt myself and wouldn't do anything illegal, which made me worry. You silently endured this bitter water. Just want to be with me forever.

But I can't find the original feeling, I don't want to be with you, I have less and less verbal conversation between us, I don't like to have sex with you, I don't like to sleep with you, and I can't bear to see your sad look when I propose to break up. So you don't know what to do now, is there anyone who can help me? Or teach me how to convince my boyfriend so that he can break up with me calmly!