<h1 class="ql-align-justify" > 44 days of restlessness, Bai Ann: Don't think of me as a shameful adult</h1>
Text/Lu Shiwei
On October 29, Bai Ann released her new work "44 Days". The most special thing about this EP is that the 6 songs included are all from a music variety show she participated in this year, "I Am a Singer-Songwriter", which is also a new song she created in the 44 days she participated in this show.
This is also the first time in the more than ten years that Chinese voice variety shows have become popular, and a singer has done such a thing.
When Bai An appeared on the show "I Am a Singer-Songwriter", many people familiar with her were actually quite surprised - it is undeniable that there are still many people who love music or engage in music, and have always regarded music variety shows as a "shameful adult game", in their eyes, musicians should be a very independent, very self-centered and very simple professional identity, should be simple like children, and the music variety show is a group of mature TV people with music as bait under the umbrella of a business situation It is full of all kinds of eyeball economic routines that are not simple and unego or even unreal, and a considerable proportion of the time of musicians in the show is to cooperate with such routines to interpret various true and false life shows, to cooperate with various game rules that change and change, "Is this what a real musician should do?" "Many people who don't come or even watch music variety shows have questioned this.
And Bai An finally came and joined such an adult game.
Perhaps the biggest contradiction between Bai An and this game is the three words "adult".
For many people who listen to songs, Bai An is one of the very few musicians who stay in the state of a girl forever. There will be such an impression, of course, first of all from The white annunciation singer, who began to publish his own creations and singing works on the online platform STREETVOICE at the age of 16, and officially signed a record contract at the age of 17 with a song "BIRD" on the future stage of the Simple Life Festival with a song "BIRD" and officially signed a record contract. Her girlishness comes from her unique pronunciation habits, at the end of 2012, the entire network is hotly discussed imitating Bai An's sentence "draw a chicken (doubt yourself)", as a Taiwanese female singer, this flat tongue tongue indifference pronunciation habit has become Bai An's cold weapon to stand out among a group of newcomers, and her pronunciation habits are not only the problem of flat tongue, but also that her pronunciation style always gives people a sense of underage stupid stubbornness, brave but slow growth of the girl.
In addition to this girlish attitude of language, Bai An's own music works have always carried a strong literary and artistic girlish atmosphere. Born in 1991, Bai An, at the age of 13, began to be interested in music creation, starting from writing a literary novel, a zebra crossing, and the half-tone life of a bird, from the first album "Wheat Field Catcher", the second "What's Next" to the third "1990s", all of which expressed various mentalities on the road to the growth of young girls in their own space, the perspective is always a distance from the ordinary adult world, and the brushstrokes are also with girlish ideals and keen colors. Listening to her songs, it will always remind people of those excellent students on campus with the smell of books, sensitive and delicate but with a firm sense of strength, they are always easy to attract the attention and admiration of the crowd, but they have always stayed in their simplicity and beauty, and rarely really mixed in the crowd.
It was such a White Ann who spent 44 days in an adult music game that she had never seen before. After 44 days, combing through her entire competition process, she vaguely felt that the biggest weapon she took out to invest in and fight this game was precisely a sense of anti-adulthood.
Bai An's first appearance in this show, the first song he sang was "Just Let Me Be Like a Child", this song was changed from Haruki's poem of the same name, another poet with a strong girlish label, Bai An was inspired by this poem, remembering that no matter how old he was, he must have the "child who is particularly eager to be free and eager to fly", thus composing such a "pure and open song of freedom". This is also a simple child-like work, completely without the usual skills in the music variety show that can shock the scene at first, there is no obvious big ups and downs between the melodies, the arrangement of the synthesis song is soft as a cloud, Bai An's tone bounces briskly, and the original ecological chant of the chorus part makes her appear completely unrestrained, really like the joyful play state of the school playground.
However, the oldest and most senior comrades in the show, such as Hu Haiquan, saw through the sensitive motives of this little girl at a glance, and a sentence of "Don't treat me as a shameful adult" allowed Hu Haiquan to see the inner pursuit under Bai An's small and fresh appearance. Sure enough, in the second scene, Bai An took out her "Red Rhapsody", and Hu Haiquan did not misread this girl, she is such a singer with a magnificent inner world but a calm surface, "It is such a person who is particularly good at digging out the inner strength, male such as Liang Bo, female such as Bai An." Hu Haiquan said.
"Red Rhapsody" from the musical style form, in fact, not so crazy, the introduction is even soothing as a dream, Bai An did not begin to change the dense frequency and rhythm until the B part, still just maintain a relatively calm tone of inquiry, until the second chorus drum reinforcement style increased some inner anxiety and uneasiness, and finally ended in a self-examination "Tomorrow you still love me". "Red Rhapsody" is a relatively fierce song in Bai An's work, but she still hopes to express it in a relatively rational state of self-analysis, "too much desire to stain the face and forget the truest appearance", Bai An is to show that she has been soberly looking at her truest place, even if there are many bloody things in it.
What about the truest form of the heart? Next, Bai Ann responded to this question with two songs.
A song about the truth of love, "I love without love", "Unfortunately, the world is often different from what we imagine, just like you love me or not, and pay does not guarantee anything." It doesn't matter who I love, it's just a boring heartbreak in the end."
A song about the truth of the root, "The Beginning of Love", Bai An first sang "I can't be too much, I love you too much, because I still have many dreams to pursue." This seems to be a free declaration that every teenager will say before leaving, but later she sang "Losing you and I are like a kite with a broken line, when we were young, we always thought that leaving was freedom, but before the leaves fell and returned to the soil, the heart will always go back to the beginning of love." Bai An said that the beginning of this love is where everyone first grew up, "Everyone wants to pursue the dream they want in their hearts, but you also especially want to break free of the place where you think he restricts you, but I think those places are feeding us to grow up, without the place where we grew up, we would not be who we are now."
Such a song also seems to make people rarely hear the truth about Bai An directly. A girl like her, watching the calm and calm of the wind and waves, always maintains a good look of quiet years, but she will open a naked self in her own works, pick up the fragments of the sadness scattered on the road to growth, and piece them back together a complete self. Qian Zhenghao, who is ten years younger than her, also understands her truth, "She is afraid of being shackled by the love of a thing, and she hopes to untie this lock to pursue her dreams, but that love will always be there."
However, there is nothing to be ashamed of, who is not like this to grow into a mature self after introspecting through these broken and bumped walls?
The reason why life will have these broken and bumped into walls is nothing more than that in fact, everyone has an uneasy side in their hearts, and the sense of youth is to willfully banish this uneasiness in the world, even if the head is broken and bleeding, it is not a teenager, even if it is a quiet and docile girl like Bai An, this is the most meaningful place why the teenager is a teenager. Bai An also woke up the restless place buried deep in his heart after a deep chat with his brother Ah Xin, and wrote a word that Ah Xin told her, "Uneasy in the World", into a song of the same name, taking advantage of the opportunity to participate in the music variety show for the first time, simply sang it for everyone, and to some extent explained how a girlish person like her would come to such an adult game-like position to participate in the competition.
Bai An wrote the song "Uneasy in the World" very difficult, the melody is very complicated, there are many variations in cutting, the lyrics are also very dense, this is a state that is not easy for ordinary singers to complete, and it must be very focused and concentrated to complete. And Bai An did it, with a song to see her inner uneasiness and restlessness, she also specially invited her brother Martha to be the producer and responsible for the bass part, Martha also made up the wildest rhythm of the whole album for this song, and also let Bai Ann release her ambition to be happy and wanton.
It can be seen that in the whole process of participation, Bai An on the one hand is showing that she has always insisted on herself, has always been proud of herself, the reason why she can get the favor of professionals like Li Zongsheng at a young age is precisely from her own distinctive work characteristics and solid professional skills, for example, in the first game, Jin Zhiwen noticed the kung fu between playing and singing, "the hand plays a rhythm, sings another rhythm"; and the characteristics of her own timbre. Hao Yun said that the tone of her words and the end of the words is particularly sexy, and as soon as the word "who" in "I Love No Love" comes out, it can instantly tie up a hair in people's hearts, and her lyrics are also simple and direct, but there are always a few sentences that will make people have an unspeakable touch in their hearts.
On the other hand, she has to open herself step by step in a new environment, releasing the uneasiness, scars, restlessness and even wildness in her heart. She opened her freshness and new life in an adult game with a childlike posture, so at the end of the show, she spent three days writing a new song "Most Want to See You" to summarize a fresh feeling of the 44 days of participation: "I always hope that my song will be like time and space when everyone listens to it, and then no matter what difficulties and troubles you encounter in this life, but at that moment you will still believe that a beautiful thing happens." 」
44 days, a month and a half may not seem long, but it is enough for Bai An to have a new understanding of himself.
People will always get more rapid growth and deeper understanding in an unfamiliar environment. These 44 days are obviously very precious to Bai Ann's musical life so far, and she should not want it to end abruptly with the end of the show, so she came up with the idea of making this journey and the six songs created during this period into an EP in its entirety, which is what we hear about her new work "44 Days".
Of course, "44 Days" is not simply to include the performances in the program as they are, but in order to present the most ideal musical appearance, Bai An invited the golden song producer Chen Jianliang to work with her to produce the entire EP, and went to Japan to participate in the post-production of mastering for the first time, and also cooperated with Hokjo Hiroshi, who had been the mastermind of the mix. In terms of vision, the Korean imaging team "Nofuture", which won the Best Music Video Award at the 30th Golden Melody Awards this year with the Sunset Flying Car "Slow/Oriental", crossed the sea to shoot the MV of "My Love Without Love", and the well-known photographer Yu Jingping completed the visual shooting for the entire EP, which is enough to see that Bai An has a special treasure for these 44 days.
Therefore, such a game that was originally very commercial for adults has a different ending in Bai An, who has always refused to enter the adult world, and Bai An lets himself enter like a child, injecting a clear stream into such a noisy variety world, and tenaciously exploring himself in it, and finally using the 44 days in the rules of this adult game to open up a fresh vision of himself and produce a new fruit of music for himself "44 Days".
Therefore, different worlds can actually inspire each other, depending on what kind of posture you enter and what you come out with.