Dai Wangshu
"She is the color of lilacs, the fragrance of lilacs, the sorrow of lilacs. In the rain mourning, mourning and wandering..."
What a dreamy and beautiful woman like smoke and mist, the world can hardly imagine.
I only know that this beautiful and wandering "lilac girl" suddenly entered the reader's heart, and also entered Dai Wangshu's heart. It made him think like crazy, tossing and turning.
The same rainy days, the same oil-paper umbrellas, the same lonely poets walking through the long rainy alleys. The girl who greeted her on the other side was as mournful and sad as a lilac...
The drizzle on the umbrella surface slipped down, and the hair in front of Dai Wangshu's forehead was wet with a few strands of rain, and even the robe on his body was wet. But he didn't care very much, or rather, it was too late to care.
The most is the encounter of the green, better than the shyness of the city full of smoke willows. The moment Shi Chenian looked back, Dai Wangshu fell in love.
If the wind blows, his heart will flutter.
Rain Lane
This lonely poet has been wandering the world for too long, and the lonely soul expects to be soothed and comforted. Dai Wangshu felt that Shi Chennian was the "harbor" that made him stop the ship and dock.
Like all the "young people with the head of love" who have just met love, he desperately pursues the girl who pleases him. Romance may be a unique talent of the poet, and in the face of the sweetheart, talent and thoughts are always endless.
Neither the fiery affection nor the piping hot text could fully reflect Dai Wangshu's admiration for Shi Chenian.
"My lover is shy, with a peach face and a sky blue heart."
The sky is blue and the water is blue, and it is the most pure and immaculate. In Dai Wangshu's heart, "Dai Nian is really cute"!
If Dai Wangshu is a scorching flame, then Shi Chennian is a clear spring of cold winter and dawn, cold and cold.
Yes, Shi Chennian didn't like Dai Wangshu.
Dai Wangshu manuscript
Many times, the story develops here, and smart people should learn to stop at the right time. But there are always too many people who blindly believe that water drops are worn by stones, trying to warm up an already cold heart.
As everyone knows, such wishful thinking will only mislead others and mistakes themselves in many cases.
Dai Wangshu's liking for Shi Chennian had no reason to speak of, and there was nothing to be surprised about Shi Wangnian's dislike of Dai Wangshu.
He was a close friend of her brother's, and there was a generation gap between the two of them in age and experience. Interests and hobbies are in opposite directions, and common topics are pitifully few.
More importantly, Dai Wangshu's appearance is not very handsome. At least for the seventeen or eighteen-year-old flower girl, Dai Wangshu, who has a dark complexion and acne marks, does not meet the object of her maiden huaichun's vision.
It is difficult to reject a person, especially a paranoid and stubborn person.
Shi Chenian is like a pedestrian walking on ice, not light, not heavy. Can't be in a hurry, and can't be fast. But even if there are more words of refusal to say, Dai Wangshu will only think that he is "not working hard enough."
In Dai Wangshu's view, those problems that crossed their ranks could be solved. But I don't understand that behind the repeated rejections, there is a naked "dislike".
Perhaps people who are blindly in love always like to immerse themselves in their own world and "add a play" to themselves from time to time. I thought that what I asked for against everything would be true love, but I didn't know that this was more like an emotional "kidnapping".
Dai Wangshu said, "If you don't agree, I'll jump off the building." "Directly tied Shi Chenian to the margins of morality and conscience.
This ethical oppression left the young Shi Chennian helpless to compromise.
Mu Lijuan
So they got engaged. Dai Wangshu was proud and boasted that he had embraced the beauty. The marriage was the "fruit of his victory", and he fantasized about the harvest.
But they forgot that the "poisonous tree" could not give birth to good flowers, and in the end, it was only the fruit of self-eating.
At the end of several years of studying abroad, Dai Wangshu eagerly ran back to his lover's side. But I found that in addition to her indifference or indifference, her originally unheated emotions were now even more faint and even slag.
Dai Wangshu did not understand and did not accept. He frantically searched for clues, but was caught off guard by the truth.
"I send my heart to the bright moon, but the bright moon shines in the ditch." King Xiang intends that the goddess will have no dreams, and what is even more cruel is that she belongs to another.
Dai Wangshu and Mu Lijuan
Sadly and ashamedly, Dai Wangshu only had to "slap" to end his long unrequited love.
To be honest, it is lamentable but not regrettable.
This is a love that should not have begun, even if it is deeply loved, do not use morality to kidnap a person's love. The most unforgiving thing in this world is love.
Although barely earned love is more likely to be praised, because it will encourage people to work hard to achieve happiness. But this so-called happiness is just a mirror flower, a beautiful dream, and it will eventually dissipate.
Dai Wangshu's affair was more or less his own mistake, whether intentional or unintentional, and could only be paid for by himself.
In life, the so-called righteousness and perseverance are valuable to people who also love you. Otherwise, it is just a self-hustle and bustle of moving, to others, but it is only a distraction.
Learn to try to turn around, never look back, don't stay. But Dai Wangshu did not know how to "eat a trench, grow a wisdom." ”
Without Shi Chenian, there was Mu Lijuan.
Dai Wangshu mourned for his "dead" love every day, which made his friend Mu Shiying sympathize and helpless.
"Don't be so discouraged, Shi Jingcun has a sister, I have too, and my sister Mu Lijuan is even more beautiful than her."
Who doesn't have a good sister yet? Although Mu Shiying's practice of "emphasizing friends and light sisters" is worthy of criticism, it is fortunate that it is also "unintentional willow shading".
Shi Chennian didn't like Dai Wangshu, but Mu Lijuan liked it.
Lost mulberry elm, harvested east. Many times, fate is so wonderful.
Mu Lijuan fell in love with Dai Wangshu's talent, and her appearance, like a spring breeze and drizzle, smoothed Dai Wangshu's last love wound.
Friends become his brother-in-law, and Mu Shiying believes that he has contributed to a good marriage. Everyone is also very optimistic about the golden boy and the jade girl, but unfortunately it backfired.
Dai Wangshu loved this bright and bright woman, but more as a good medicine for her.
Dai Wangshu and his daughter
When the two are happy, they don't care much about those details, but in the long-term relationship, the affection is erased by life. When the passion retreats, the dirt hidden in the secret place will only be infinitely magnified.
It can be said that the marriage of Dai Wangshu and Mu Lijuan is also a hidden danger.
It's just that their problems are not irreconcilable, and if Dai Wangshu is willing, he can do it. But only if he is willing.
Dai Wangshu is like everyone who loves and can't help it, even if there are other "red roses" waiting to be released around him, he still can't forget the "white moonlight" of the past. The only difference is that his white moonlight emits "lilac orchids".
No one can never ask for a return for giving, and healthy and long-term love must be a two-way response.
Mu Lijuan is confident that she can take Dai Wangshu out of the shadow of feelings, but she can't help herself out of the shadow of Shi Chenian.
The wedding scene of Dai Wangshu and Mu Lijuan
People's lives will encounter many stages of feelings, and some inappropriate emotions can only pass away with time. But the emotional strength may also fade, so that there is no strength and mood to do it again.
If Shi Chennian is the former that Dai Wangshu is out of place, then Mu Lijuan is the latter that Dai Wangshu has no intention of repeating.
Dai Wangshu even wrote words after marriage: my dreams and forgotten people, people blessed by me. All day long I irrigate the roses, but let the orchid wither...
Roses, Orchids. How not to make people feel too much? What's more, Dai Wangshu did not intend to be "careful".
The love he had in the face of Shi Chennian's stormy love was now only calm. Mu Lijuan, even if it is the sun, will have a sunset.
Countless contrasts and inadvertent attitudes are "stacks of straw" injected on Mu Lijuan.
Dai Wangshu's second wife, Yang Jing, and her daughter
Over time, the enthusiasm becomes weaker. With many trivial things in life, the contradictions will only accumulate deeper and deeper. Mu Lijuan's filter on Dai Wangshu had already been broken, and dissatisfaction and resentment were rolling like snowballs.
If Shi Chennian was once a topic that could not be mentioned among them, then the heartbroken Mu Lijuan no longer had these scruples.
She even publicly stated: "Hmm, Lilac Girl refers to Shi Chenian." ”
This move is tantamount to revealing one's own scars, and when one can tear open one's wounds without scruples for others to watch, the person's sanity and emotions are mostly close to collapse.
Dai Wangshu and Yang Jing's family
"Qing Qing, except for Wushan Fei Yunya..."
Men always like to pin their unobtainable feelings on another woman, but they refuse to give it all. Dominate this, but miss that.
Such a person, seemingly affectionate, is actually the most desperate.
Dai Wangshu couldn't forget Shi Chenian, so what was Mu Lijuan? At the end of the enthusiasm was his "Youlan in the dream", which was wrongly paid.
When the disappointment accumulated to a certain extent, Mu Lijuan completely "cut off her feelings" and walked cleanly. Wave your sleeve and don't take half a cloud with you.
So Dai Wangshu fell into a wandering and Xiao Suo again...
Dai Wangshu passed
This was the case with Mu Lijuan, and so was the later Yang Jing. Same beginning, same ending. At the end of the story, they all left Dai Wangshu without any nostalgia.
Only Dai Wangshu was left alone in the endless pursuit and search for his "lilac girl", and walked narrower and narrower on the road of pursuing love until there was no way out.
It was as if he were living in his own emotional world, devoting his life to finding a hazy and vague figure that he defined as true love.
At first, he thought shi Chennian was. She just walked past him with an umbrella, and even if her footsteps stopped slightly, it was only for the surrounding scenery, never because of him.
Dai Wangshu regarded her as a lover, but Shi Chennian only regarded him as a "passerby".
Dai Wangshu Anthology
It had always been Dai Wangshu who was alone in love, and he half seduced and half forced Shi Chennian to agree to his pursuit. But it is only a disgraceful means to weave an illusory dream for itself.
So even if Dai Wangshu was hurt by his feelings later, there were many people who did not sympathize with him. Because this far-fetched love should not have existed, Dai Wangshu, as the initiator, even had some meaning of "deserved".
That false beauty shattered as soon as it was touched, and dai Wangshu did not want to wake up after waking up from his big dream, so he blindly continued to "sink".
From a more point of view, Mu Lijuan should be the "lilac girl". Because only the person who truly loves you is the one you should cherish and seek.
On the right is Dai Wangshu
Mu Lijuan's love began to be strong, and in the end, it was washed away in just a few years. There are many different factors in this, but the biggest reason must be in Dai Wangshu.
"He has no feelings for me, and all his feelings have been given to Shi Chenian."
To be able to let a bright and stubborn woman say such a self-effacing word shows how chilling Dai Wangshu's behavior is.
If in a relationship, the parties cannot perceive each other's love. Then ask what is the meaning of this relationship, and if it continues, it will only be a mutual entanglement.
Therefore, Mu Lijuan can withdraw from this relationship in time is also a fortunate thing, no one should naturally pour out her feelings unconditionally for another person, she deserves a wholehearted treatment.
It is also because of her indignant departure that Dai Wangshu will have a sense of crisis and loss of "panic". In the end, Mu Lijuan also became another cinnabar mole.
Of course, in this way, it seems that Dai Wangshu's secondary love injury is still somewhat "deserved".
After that, not to mention, Dai Wangshu did not have Shi Chenian and could not keep Mu Lijuan. The love between a man and a woman is a drug that paralyzes him.
He needs it, depends on it, but doesn't really care for it. Such a vicious circle continues, even if the heroine of the story is replaced by how many, the ending is similar.
Bian Zhilin once said: Dai Wangshu died brazenly at a young age, the old social system made him unable to maximize his talents, seeing that the new society was about to appear, Dai Wangshu left.
The same is true of his love, always the time has not come, the time has come for the person to go. He is like a person who chases love, follows all the way, misses all the way, and never can have it.
Dai Wangshu and Yang Jing
Of course, there are his personal reasons, and there are also reasons for the times. It's more like fate has long been arranged.
He wrote the poem "Rain Alley", and he kept wandering around the closed alley like the protagonist. Like a pedestrian who has lost its way, wandering aimlessly, wandering.
Looking for one "mournful and wandering" figure after another, and finally missing it one after another. Until the long rain lane was no longer passed by, only he was alone.
Cold, poignant, and sad...
Most people are more familiar with the lilac poetry of Dai Wangshu and know the beautiful sorrows of his rainy alley. In fact, the story behind him is equally touching to taste, or equally beautiful and sad.
Maybe he is not an absolutely perfect character in the positive textbook, but he is indeed a real, flesh-and-blood person.
He is a gentleman of the Qing Spirit who has a unique style in front of people, and he is also a secular man with a bumpy road.