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When I got the diagnosis report, it was raining lightly, and I asked the doctor in a trembling voice, I ...... Has it been diagnosed?
The doctor nodded.
You have to treat it from now on, otherwise your immunity will get worse and worse.
I looked down and saw that the report said I was HIV positive, and at that moment, the whole world was spinning.
No one knew how I was feeling at the moment, until tears flowed and I wept bitterly.
How many people have AIDS in my age? I don't know, but I think there aren't many AIDS patients my age.
My name is Dafeng and I am 50 years old.
A month ago, I began to have unexplained fever and diarrhea, at that time I simply thought it was acute enteritis, I had taken antibiotics, antidiarrheal drugs, probiotics, and even read Chinese medicine, and I also took Chinese medicine for a while, but the symptoms never improved.
I went to the hospital and the doctor recommended that I be admitted to the hospital for a comprehensive examination, but I refused.
After leaving the hospital and going home for another week, the whole person became more and more decadent, and there was no choice but to go to the hospital again.
After I was hospitalized, I had a series of tests done on the advice of my doctor, and the cause was quickly figured out, which was AIDS.
At 50 years old, I really can't imagine that I would get this disease at my age.
I live in a small town in the south, my wife died of terminal breast cancer when I was 40 years old, and for so many years, although I have been introduced by others, I have never been able to start a new family.
After a long time, I Xi used to being alone.
After I was diagnosed with AIDS, the doctor didn't ask me for any reason, and I didn't say anything, and we both knew each other.
After getting the anti-HIV medication, I took it for three or four days, there was no discomfort, and the blood indicators were rechecked, and they were all developing in a good direction, and the doctor said that you can be discharged from the hospital.
On the day I was discharged from the hospital, my son came to pick me up.
Due to repeated diarrhea and fever, my body was still a little weak and I was a little unsteady when I walked, but my son immediately supported me, but I pushed me away.
I told him calmly that I would try not to touch me in the future, because the disease I had would be contagious.
My son just looked at me stunned, he had just graduated from college, he had not yet started a family, and his eyes were full of innocence.
Seeing this, the doctor quickly explained, don't be too nervous, daily contact, this disease is not contagious, go back and take medicine well, don't have too much burden in your heart.
I said yes, but in my heart I said, "Doctor, don't comfort me."
Now that the Internet has been very developed, a search on the Internet for any problems encountered, and many answers have come out.
Through my search, I learned that AIDS is a very harmful infectious disease caused by infection with the human immunodeficiency virus (HIV), a virus that attacks the body's immune system. It takes CD4T lymphocytes, the most important in the body's immune system, as the main target, destroys a large number of these cells, and makes the body lose its immune function.
The reason why I have fever and diarrhea for so long is actually because of the loss of immune function.
So far, AIDS is still an infectious disease that cannot be completely cured, and after being diagnosed, it must be treated with medication for a lifetime, and even worse, it has been labeled for a lifetime, and it cannot be raised for a lifetime.
On the day I was diagnosed, I asked the doctor, can you keep it a secret for me?
The doctor replied, of course, this is your personal privacy, and the hospital will not disclose the patient's privacy.
I asked what if relatives and friends came to see me and they asked about my condition.
The doctor replied that we would not say it unless you decide to say it, but of course, for the safety of other family members, it is recommended that you still tell us.
My son and I are the only ones in the family, and I will pay attention.
The treatment of AIDS is very simple, and the doctor prescribed me three medicines, emtricitabine + tenofovir + dolutegravir, as long as I insist on taking it every day and come to the hospital for outpatient re-examination regularly.
However, although the doctor did not say it, I knew very well that through the Internet, I learned that HIV antiretroviral drugs are very effective in the short term, but the long-term effect is not very good. The reason for this is that over time, the longer you eat, the more likely it is that drug resistance will develop.
Because the virus will continue to mutate, the medicine has not changed, although scientists around the world are constantly developing new drugs and trying to find a cure for AIDS, but the speed of development is far from the speed of virus mutation.
If it is resistant, it means death.
At 50 years old, how long can I live?
I didn't know it, back home, late night after night, I woke up from nightmares, fear enveloped me, my body shivering in the cold of the night.
You have to arrange something for the future.
Perhaps, tomorrow when you open your eyes, there will be another world.
I carefully liquidated my savings and found that it was not much, I was fifty years old, and my savings were only about 260,000.
Part of the money is used to see a doctor for himself, part of the money is used to buy a cemetery, the house is left to his son, the will is written, the cemetery is chosen, and the rest is to wait for death.
Sometimes I will be angry, and even full of hostility towards everyone, feeling that I have come to this point today, it is someone else's harm, this kind of thinking is terrible, if people always have such thoughts, it is easy to retaliate against society.
Thankfully, I'm a person who can calm down and distract myself.
Think about it calmly, is it to blame others for being infected with AIDS?
After the death of my wife, in order to solve my sexual needs, I stepped into the red light district again and again, often without even using safety measures, and on another occasion, when I went to the red light district, I was arrested by the police and placed under administrative detention for a few days, because I had a disorderly private life and a bad reputation in the community.
I blame someone else for infecting me with this disease, but I don't know that I did it myself.
People only have the courage to reflect when facing death.
I'm completely done with my life.
I am a negative example, if after the death of my wife, I can calm down and rebuild a family, find someone to take seriously, and live a serious life, maybe there will not be today's tragedy, I have reached this age, and I have been diagnosed with this disease, it is really old and not serious, I did not set a good example for my son.
It's just that now, it's too late to regret it.