Sayings：
On Valentine's Day afternoon, we sent a special batch of text messages for 2,307 readers.
This is our third season confession SMS plan, and we want to work with you to seriously fulfill some belated goodbyes.
One of the regrets of saying goodbye is that it is always rear-facing.
The moment of true farewell psychologically is much better than the dull parting of reality.
Looking back after 3 months, 1 year, or even 20 years, some long regrets still haven't found a suitable exit.
And after so long, the moment when he really said "goodbye" was followed by a whisper.
It's "goodbye" and "you're still important to me at this moment."
It's just that I've been standing here for too long, "The next moment, I'm going to keep going." ”
These farewells are the confessions of our time and space dislocation
Author: Readers of Shin Shixiang
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He was the male classmate I had paid attention to early on. Like every idol drama, a teenager in a white shirt.
Our formal acquaintance was quite dramatic, he picked up my phone and happened to add a friend.
It's also like the regret that most idol dramas will have - I confessed across Chinese New Year's Eve, and he politely refused.
I have been brave, not afraid to be brave again, this time it is a confession and a farewell, it is to him who he liked when he was a student, and also to his former self.
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Fell in love for 5 years, broke up for 2 years.
The other day I sent a message: Today you took the dog to the bath again, and I received a text message notification from the pet store.
He said: You are spying on us~
Me: Fart! The pet store number has always been left with me, you go and change it to your own
He said: too lazy to change ...
It turns out that we all seem to be open, but we are also stubbornly trying to grasp the last bit of contact.
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For 5 years, I traveled back and forth countless times on this nearly 80-hour green train.
It takes 17 or 24 hours to transit to Beijing and another 15 hours to Dalian.
Just to see him the moment can sweep away all my fatigue and grievances.
The umpteenth +1 time, sitting on the train back to his hometown, received his breakup call, for no reason, that is, he was not in love.
It's been more than ten years, I didn't expect this regret to last so long, and I didn't expect that there was really a chance to make a breakup confession.
"Missed. Best wishes. Good bye. Take care. ”
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We met when we were 19 and 23, and we plan to go home together for the Spring Festival.
But before the New Year, a serious illness caused my ovaries to shrink, and I even thought I would die after exhausting my savings for treatment.
In a desperate impulse, he broke up and deleted all his contact information.
And after more than 3 years of long treatment, in the year when I finally recovered, I learned the news of his marriage.
I really didn't expect it, the way was not easy, but the way was the pain of neurasthenia and insomnia all night.
——This congratulatory text message, I really want to convey, but the mobile phone number still left my own. Just, don't bother him.
10
To the first boy I liked in college:
The time together is short, and there are still many plans that have not yet been realized.
Chinese New Year's Eve this year, I am still seriously looking forward to receiving your message. As you know, I didn't wait.
But it doesn't matter anymore, the bell will still ring at zero o'clock, a new life will still begin, and I will continue to move forward~
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After completing the divorce procedures today, I didn't want to talk about the last day, and everyone went through the final process step by step.
No matter how much reluctance and unwillingness there is in my heart, I will let go until today.
The only regret is that we didn't say goodbye properly, the children knew to hug when saying goodbye, but we didn't.
The story begins with a text message, and let me end the story with a text message! Finally, I wish you happiness and success in your work, I really loved you.
13
He said he was coming to my city.
Just take it as a good hug after a breakup.
I said no.
I actually regret it now. It turns out that even if it is a breakup, it is complete, and the strength of the shortcomings is that it will always make people unwilling.
14
On the day of the breakup, it was the first time I had vomited in nearly three years, crying and saying "we're all going to get married by the end of the year," and he kept quietly watching me over the video.
Looking back on the regret moments in this relationship, there are actually quite a few, but the last regret is that moment -
I already knew that I couldn't help but cry, at least I was still beautiful in the last face.
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Every time I look at last year's chat history, I shed tears again.
It was a very bad year for me, and it was also the year I lost a boy I really liked.
So this text message wanted to send to myself, as a reminder:
Precious person, at least you have to keep one, if you can't keep him, think about keeping the happiest self in the world.
All right?
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In my impression, he was a man who kept getting sick, couldn't walk, couldn't eat, couldn't talk, and told him to wipe his mouth after eating, and always wiped anywhere except his mouth.
I always blamed him for being sick, for not helping me with anything, for bringing me trouble, and for why my mother didn't start a better, healthier family.
But in the middle of the autumn of my third year of high school, my father left, and I found that I did not dare to face him at all, and I did not even dare to comfort my mother who was crying.
If I had the chance, I really wanted to say goodbye to him and hold his hand in the 120 ambulance, instead of sitting in a corner in disgust at the hand that was stiff and hanging down.
19
This farewell will not be my last confession to you.
Since I felt that you were sick in 14 years, I often gave you love mixed in jokes, I don't know if you received them all one by one?
Valentine's Day is the 22nd day you left me. It's so sudden, it turns out that there are some goodbyes, really never can be well prepared, and can never reach without regrets.
It's just that the first second I wake up every day, I long to confirm that this is just a big dream, or to open the door to find that I have traveled to the parallel time and space where you are still there.
20
That day, I heard from my mother that you slipped in the shower and were admitted to the hospital.
I clicked on your circle of friends on the way home, only to find that the cover of the circle of friends was my puppy I sent you the other day.
Only to find out that your circle of friends signed and said that they are not afraid of death.
Only to find out that I can't remember what I said to you in my last words before leaving home.
When you were alive, I always said that you were a fashionable grandmother, who learned everything quickly, would make electronic photo albums to share with me, and even Angry Birds and Entertainment could quickly clear the level.
But that time I saw you in the hospital bed, you were speechless.
You close your eyes, you gain weight, but your skin becomes good.
I hold your hand and keep shedding tears, and you hold me gently.
Adults say you know your granddaughter is coming.
But Grandma, I just wish if I could come sooner.
[Written at the end]
We don't always say goodbye because we don't realize that there is no perfect goodbye in the world.
Looking forward, I am afraid that I will not be able to keep the past, and I am afraid that there will be no real reunion in the future.
So it's always at this moment, eager to finish everything you want to say. After speaking, I always feel that there is a next sentence.
We are simply resisting the act of separation.
Perhaps the closest thing to a perfect goodbye is that no matter how long the last sentence is, the moment you say goodbye, it's time to start moving on.
Hide from regret with regret, and verify growth with growth.
Only bravery, is a farewell to the best medicine.
Written by: Chen Xiaoxiao
Editor-in-charge: Quite straight
"Maybe you just knew what you needed
Maybe you'll be nostalgic for the past me."