When people are alive, they must raise their spirits and move forward
Author: Xu Guanghui
When chatting with friends on WeChat, I learned that Ren Jun had been dead for several months. According to friends, Ren Jun was born in the year of Ding You, died in the year of Xin Ugly, and died at the age of 64 years, 4 months and 2 days. On the first day, Shen Shi lost his vital signs, and on the third day, he was cremated and ascended to heaven, staying for only 40 hours before hurrying to the Hall of Yama. Former cremation unit leaders, colleagues, relatives and friends held a simple farewell ceremony for him, and then buried him in his hometown in the countryside, where his cemetery was built by his sister and brother-in-law. Friends also said that because he likes to play cards and drink and smoke, although Ren Jun is a section-level cadre, the monthly pension is also about 5,000 yuan, but he is poor and indiscriminate, and the self-funded part during the serious illness and hospitalization is also the account of his sister and brother-in-law. The wife died before him, and the ashes were scattered in the Miluo River; the son had a good career; the grandson had dropped out of school at home, and the whole situation was not good, it was really "going to the red stripe and going in the red stripe".
After chatting with my friends, my heart has been immersed in senseless grief, eating badly, not sleeping well, and several times involuntarily shed bitter tears. I want to write something for him, but it is difficult to write, saying that he is good, he is really not good; saying that he is not good, "the dead are big", afraid of slander. I knew Ren Jun in the mid-1970s, when I was a state official in the commune, working as a private teacher in a primary school, and as a lover of literature, I became a friend.
In Zepan, where Qu Zi was practicing in his later years, the literary atmosphere has always been strong, that is, in the 1970s and 1980s, the commune cultural station held a quarterly poster of literary works and compiled a pamphlet every year. I have great respect for the talents of the heavy duty. Probably in the first half of 1977, I once went to his school to listen to his class, and his soft words were humorous and easy to understand, and the students liked and respected him. After class, he asked me to go to his house for dinner.
When he arrived at his house, only his mother was there, and when he asked, he learned that his father had passed away. His father was originally a famous old Chinese medicine doctor in the countryside. He told me that my father had a great literary feeling, and from an early age he guided him to learn poetry and song, learn ancient Chinese, and try to write poems and fill in words. He then brought me a collection of poems and essays, all very beautiful and neat brush characters, namely absolute sentences, verses and words, which were his father's last works. I still remember a song called "Sending Friends": "Cong Ju puts the hedge to the east, and the leaves fall to the sycamore." Why are the booms and busts different? I think it is heavenly without thickness and thickness, and spring is strong. Thinking of me, I became a man in a flash. The Taiping Dynasty is a happy meeting. King, in all difficulty, I cried on the way. ”
When we were studying, in accordance with Chairman Mao Zedong's idea that "education should be reformed and the school system should be shortened," the five-year primary school and four-year middle school system were implemented, and he graduated from high school at the age of fifteen or sixteen. At that time, the university was closed, and his father let his son inherit his father's business and teach him medical knowledge at the high school level. Because Ren Jun was intelligent and studious, he had a strong memory, and the ancient medical work "Tangtou Song Recipe" written by Wang Ang in the Qing Dynasty was memorized in its entirety. I used to interview him, and whenever I turned to any page, as long as you mentioned a soup head name, he would recite it like a stream. After graduating from high school, he practiced medicine with his father as a barefoot doctor in the brigade. Two years later, he was arranged to become a private teacher.
In 1978, at the age of just 21, because of his solid academic foundation, although mathematics has always been a weakness and seriously dragged his feet, he was still admitted to the Yueyang District Normal School. I remember that when Ren Jun went to normal school, I sent him to Yueyang. At that time, the front of the teacher's training was a strip, and to climb up the hill, I also took him to play around dongmaoling and Yueyang Tower. After graduating from normal school, Ren Jun returned to his hometown to teach at the middle school and established a romantic relationship with his beloved girlfriend. The girlfriend has a clear eyebrow, Peugeot is generous, excellent in all aspects, the same is a native, once his student, the father-in-law is the main person in charge of another commune, the whole family has gone through the procedures for the transfer of rural grain to state grain. At that time, girls who ate national grain were very rare, and it was very fortunate to find such girls.
When Ren Jun was a teacher, he was a well-known and good teacher. In addition to teaching, he is also keen on creation, and sometimes publishes works, and has contacts with famous artists such as Han Shaogong, Luo Shixian, Zhang Buzhen, and Li Free. Because of the good poetry and good words, it is deeply valued by Mr. Zhu Maosong, who is a good person. In the 1980s, Ren Jun was a member of the Hunan Writers Association, certificate number 4-087. It was also at this time that the couple made a home in the city and had a baby son. I remember that after he became a father, he once told me with great joy: the word "one" in his son's single name. He also explained that "one" means pure and exclusive; "one" means full and full; and "one" means simple and clear. "One" has only one horizontal, symbolizing peace and smoothness, and there are no detours. Then he laughed and said that if the son had a creation, in the future, when it comes to sorting by surname stroke, he must be ranked first among people with the same surname.
In my impression, Ren Jun is good at writing embedded poems. I remember that in my early years, I wrote a poem for Han Shaogong. The poem no longer remembers, only remembers that the last three words of the embedded sentence in the poem are "Although the years are few, the achievements have been accomplished." My name is Xu Guanghui, and I married my wife Chao Yanhui, and when we got married, he sent a poem: "Since ancient times, there has been a nest standing in Yanmen, and I am happy to love time now." One heart and one mind and one radiance, just like the double stars are full of garden. "Embedding the names of our husband and wife into the poem, and at the same time fitting with the specific thing of marriage and family, many guests have praised it."
Speaking of Ren Jun's literary skills, there is one more thing worth mentioning. 1992 was the lunar year of Nongshen, People's Daily. Overseas Edition" to the global Chinese Spring Festival League. Shanglian is "Nongshen great responsibility to expand ambition, everyone to forge ahead." "This union is difficult to correct, of which Nongshen is the year; Nongshen plus a single person next to the formation of Ren and Stretch two words, Ren, Stretch and then constitute the Great Appointment and The Great Ambition, respectively; and then the single side is regarded as a human word, and the group sentence is everyone enterprising. Because it was too difficult to be right, after a three-month collection, the first prize was vacant in the end, the second prize was two, and Ren Jun's "Ninety-two New Xu New Spring, Rising Day" ranked first.
In 1991, I served as the deputy director of the municipal government office and the director of the office of the dragon boat racing organizing committee. One day he came to me in the office and said that he was going to hold a nationwide contest to commemorate Qu Yuan's essay contest, and he made a plan to invite Han Shaogong, Wei Yang, and a number of other famous artists. I told him that this activity did not enter the government's big plan, and now there are many things, I have no time to take care of it, and I can't come up with the money to do it. Ren Jun said that this activity does not need to be paid by the government, and can be charged to the participants, nor does it need the government to come forward, and he personally undertakes it, but it needs government approval. I said you left the plan here, and I reported to the leader and gave you permission to do it. After the Dragon Boat Festival, he collected a large number of works, including novels, poems, essays, and compiled a thick book. Later I asked him if he made any money? He said to print, to review, to award, to publish books, some rigid expenditures did not have a budget in advance, the event was a complete success, but the money was not earned.
In the 1990s, I organized the planting and promotion of high-oil corn under the term of office of the secretary and director of the party group of the Municipal Science and Technology Commission, and achieved relatively good results, which attracted the attention of the state, provincial and municipal science and technology and agricultural departments. The Ministry of Agriculture held a meeting on corn production in eight southern provinces in Miluo, believing that "Miluo has created a successful model for the strategic concept of the country's maize southward migration." "Although Ren Jun was working in the education department, he was very concerned about what I did. One day he came to my office and asked a lot about growing corn, and I happily communicated with him. He was going to write a reportage for me. I thought that the road of fame and profit was always bad, so I refused his enthusiasm. At that time, the two of us were sitting next to each other at the desk, and he picked up the material paper on the table and wrote the first wave of sand to me on the spot: "The corn number is high in oil and excellent in quality." The ridges of the fields are green and lush. Happy to have meritorious people to raise big plans, happy in the golden autumn. Eight provinces come together to pay, and the water is thick. Just like the Dragon Boat Race. Wind and rain for the people, to the next level. "That quick talent is really beyond my reach.
After I was transferred to Yueyang in early 1995, I drifted away from my friends from my hometown. As for Ren Jun's contact, knowing that he first worked as an editor in the Radio and Television Bureau, and then retired as the editor-in-chief of the newspaper's supplement, and this old editor-in-chief was a literary predecessor who was very important to Jun, he strongly recommended him to serve as the editor-in-chief of the supplementary journal. When he compiled supplements, thanks to his level and connections, Han Shaogong and other famous artists published many American articles, which was recognized as one of the periods when it was prosperous.
There are some people and things in fate that come unexpectedly. In the second OO years, a colleague of the unit was given the weight of a major leader (this leader has been imprisoned and has become a sinner of the party and the people) and became his superior. Ren Jun thought that this colleague had poor moral character, shallow knowledge, and weak ability, so he openly said something like "this person is blind to so-and-so" and "it is the shame of so-and-so", and regardless of the occasion, when he saw the acquaintance, he said, a bit of the taste of Xianglin's sister-in-law, so that people around him felt excessive, and slowly closed himself in a strange circle, so he was in the company of brand wine.
Having knowledge in the belly is not the same as catching cards in the hand, learning is best is not equal to the best card skills, his spirit of "playing as long as you want, without money I borrow money to fight with you" is used in the wrong place, making himself bitter, but also making his family bitter. The wife who had pure feelings with him at the beginning could not stand his all-day tobacco and alcohol brand, and the gap in feelings became larger and larger, and finally could only formally endure each other as a home.
When Ren Jun was young, he was influenced by good literature, entered adulthood with good careers and specialties, a happy family, and a successful career, although he did not say that he was rich and noble, he really made a good start. If you can move forward step by step, you can completely achieve success. The heart of the pursuit of happiness in life is the same, but the methods of obtaining it are diverse, the martial arts of the text, the light and the dark, the color of the money, the words of the doing, the noble and the lowly, are all the ways to take it. You say that others "abuse the next three abuses" to sell their bodies for glory, but the "body" they sell is temporary, and the "glory" they seek is permanent. Happiness is a good thing, is glory, is enjoyment, is different, on the road to happiness, no one will be modest, will not give in, we can only do our own good, but can not sway others, but can not ask the leader "a ruler to measure people" "the world with this cool heat." "To be arrogant and self-effacing because you are not accustomed to certain people and things seems to be resisting others, but in fact you are harming yourself." Although people are insignificant "hair particles" in society, they are crucial and irreplaceable when it comes to a family. When you collapse, the biggest victims are family, relatives, and friends.
I remember once I met a leader of Ren Jun, and I knew that he was in the same village as Ren Jun, so I asked him to take more care. This leader said to me slightly helplessly: "Director Xu, I am Ren Jun's concubine student, I admired him when I was a child, and he also liked me." Why wouldn't I want to take care of him? But he can't even go to work normally, what can I do! "Cai Si Dad, who is good friends with me and Ren Jun, believes that Ren Jun is reasonable, does things kindly to people, has the ability, can do things, and is very concerned about the feelings of friends. Huai Cai's failure to meet was his pain point, and the idea of "learning to become a literary and martial art, goods and the imperial family" repeatedly hit a wall, and he was hurt by people, hurt by things, and hurt by feelings, so that he was scarred, there was no hope, there was nowhere to heal, and he lost the confidence to move forward with his spirit. It is said that after he got esophageal cancer, he still drank, ate spicy, and smoked, how could he live a long and healthy life? Yes, life is like playing cards, a card in hand, no matter good or bad, we must look at the overall situation, find the right positioning, take it seriously, play meticulously, bet without anger, issue no ha, and lose no cards. Ren Jun, Ren Jun, you play a good hand of cards, can you blame others? Can't complain also. I, I, I cry for you, cry your confusion and cry you.
About the Author
Xu Guanghui, born a poor peasant, grew up on the Miluo River and is now a retiree. When he was in office, he buried his head in the processing of official documents and wrote popular science articles, all of which were carving insects and small skills, and could not be called works. After retirement, I still play with words, which is really self-amusement. Thanks for reading, thank you.
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