In 2005, with the broadcast of the TV series "Bright Sword", the role of "Wei Monk" played by Zhang Tong impressed the audience.
Although the Wei monk did not have special skills, he had a heart to defend his family and defend the country, and with the Shaolin Kung Fu of the clouds and water, he beat the enemy to the ground.
Since this drama, Zhang Tong's breath of a jianghu chivalrous man has been appreciated by major directors.
When he reappears in front of the audience, he is also some image of righteous blood.
But no one ever thought that the "warrior" who was full of spirit in the play suffered from major depression in reality and wanted to end his life several times.
He relies on a large number of drugs every day to stabilize his emotions, but those chemical drugs can only stabilize his condition and cannot cure his heart disease.
After a long period of torture, he finally chose to give up, planning to end his ill-fated life on the roof.
Fortunately, Guan Siting appeared in time and pulled him back from the abyss, which avoided the tragedy.
Many people can't help but wonder, why does Zhang Tong suffer from severe depression? After Guan Siting saved him, what was their current situation?
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Zhang Tong's depression can develop to such a serious extent, in fact, the seeds have been planted at a young age.
He was born in Tianjin, and he had the impression that his parents had quarreled over trivial matters since childhood.
"If it weren't for the children, I wouldn't have wanted to live with you."
Zhang Tong's mother slammed the door after saying this, while his father turned around and threw all his anger on his son.
This made the young Zhang Tong once think that he was a burden to his parents, and he has lived in the thought of self-blame and guilt.
This is also an important factor that causes him to suffer from heart disease when he grows up.
Living in such an environment, his personality became taciturn, and he grew up without a little friend to play with him.
Because he did not like to talk, he was often isolated by his classmates during his elementary school years.
Once something was lost in the class, and many of his classmates put the blame on his head, slandering him as the thief who stole things.
"I didn't! The teachers really didn't steal anything, they framed me. ”
After listening to his cries, the teacher did not pay attention to it, but listened to the rumors of other students and punished him.
He stood on the podium, expounding his "unwarranted" mistakes in words against his heart, and the insults and slanders of his classmates under the podium made him collapse in an instant.
The teacher's inaction and the denigration of his classmates made him feel extremely tormented every day.
Zhang Tong once said that those years in elementary school were the last time he wanted to remember, like a nightmare, making it impossible for people to face it again.
Since then, his personality has become more introverted, and his heart has gradually closed.
After the college entrance examination, he successfully entered the Computer Department of Nankai University.
When he was studying at university, he accidentally fell in love with watching dramas, and often ran to the troupe to watch performances when he was not in class.
"I feel that only when I watch the performance can my inner emotions be soothed."
After a period of in-depth understanding of drama, he chose to go to France to study acting.
Over the course of a few years, he found himself in his performances and his personality was much more cheerful than before.
He returned to China with expectations and expectations, hoping to make a career in the show business circle with his own strength and appearance, but reality taught him a lesson.
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Zhang Tong did not encounter big winds and waves when he first entered the show business circle, as if he had always been blessed with a lucky aura.
His large stature coupled with his handsome appearance is more popular in many dramas.
Although he does not receive some heavy roles in normal times, there are many directors who invite him to shoot scenes.
He also cherishes every hard-won role, no matter how much the role is, he uses a serious and responsible attitude to interpret each character well.
In 2005, he had his first opportunity.
At that time, the crew of the TV series "Bright Sword" was auditioning, and he went to audition with his resume.
The director's eyes looked at him, thinking that he was very close to the image of the character of "Wei Monk" in the original work.
"Do you know martial arts?" Have you ever had any experience shooting martial arts scenes? ”
"Yes, there has been a little practice in between."
Zhang Tong immediately made a few empty-handed strokes at the scene, and his clumsy movements made everyone present laugh.
The director believes that although Zhang Tong lacks a trace of fire in kung fu, the other party's childish and firm belief is too similar to that of "Wei Monk".
In the end, Zhang Tong successfully got this role, which not only made himself, but also achieved a generation of "Wei monks".
In the play, he is heroic and righteous, brave and good at war, never submits to weakness in front of the enemy, and finally sacrifices heroically.
Zhang Tong became famous for this drama, and his career began to go uphill, and many military-themed film and television dramas invited him to shoot.
In 2006, in the process of filming a drama, he met Guan Siting, who is also an actor.
He fell in love with him at first sight, but the other party thought he was just a "fool" with no head and no brain.
In order to express his love for Guan Siting, he rides a bicycle to pick up and drop off each other to and from work every day, and every day he prepares a delicate bouquet of flowers.
Day after day, Zhang Tong's unhindered persistence finally touched Guan Siting's heart.
"Stay with me, although my current ability may not give you the life you want, but I don't want to see you marry someone else." 」
Guan Siting did not speak, but just hugged Zhang Tong tightly, as if acquiescing to his confession.
In order to let his girlfriend live a better life, Zhang Tong began to take on plays everywhere.
In 2010, he met a new director through a friend's introduction.
At the moment, he was still immersed in the joy of getting the opportunity, not knowing that it would become an unforgettable nightmare for his life.
The director had never been in contact with the acting industry before, but he came up with a "don't know how to pretend" look to train every actor.
Among them, the most educated is Zhang Tong.
Zhang Tong is a good actor, and in the process of filming, he often puts forward his own views and thinks about how to make a scene perfect.
But in the eyes of the director, all the suggestions Zhang Tong said were "deliberately provoking" and "playing big cards".
Since then, the director has begun to treat Zhang Tong with colored glasses, and even looked for Zhang Tong's trouble from time to time during filming.
"Is this an actor who came back from studying in France?" Not as good as the acting skills of a dragon runner, I really don't know how to get to where I am today. ”
"Those new college students at Nortel are better at acting than you, do people like you still deserve to be an actor?"
Such hurtful words, Zhang Tong can hear every day, he even doubts whether his acting skills are really too crotch-pulling.
When he returned home after filming, his heart could not be relieved for a long time, and he drank wine cup after cup to vent his grievances.
Guan Siting saw her boyfriend's abnormal behavior and went forward to inquire.
"How to drink so much wine?" Don't drink, go back to the room to rest, you are too tired during this time of filming, you need to adjust it. ”
"Are you saying I'm really unfit to be an actor?" Shouldn't I really have embarked on this path? My acting skills are not as good as people. ”
Guan Siting listened to her boyfriend's ins and outs and began to comfort his emotions.
"Whether your acting skills are good or not is not evaluated by him alone, so many viewers and fans have called for you, how can it be rejected by a director."
Zhang Tong looked at his girlfriend, and the suppressed emotions in his heart calmed down a lot.
03
He continued to pursue an acting career, but found himself getting worse and worse.
In the process of filming, Zhang Tong can always hear the words that denied him before.
"I didn't, I'm a good actor, I didn't."
When other actors called him, he could relax, but his mood could not be calmed for a long time.
After some time, he found himself often caught in such a dilemma.
His nerves began to grow more and more tense, as if he had returned to the time when he was bullied as a child, and eventually kept shouting "I didn't."
After a long period of suffering, his spirit finally collapsed.
He often hears words that deny him, and occasionally sees those around him as enemies.
Whenever symptoms flare up, he would bang his head against the wall and even deliberately fall face down to the ground.
Guan Siting saw her boyfriend's situation, and could only temporarily retire from the show business circle and concentrate on accompanying her boyfriend.
But even if she accompanies Zhang Tong's side, Zhang Tong still has a time when he is alone.
Once, when Guan Siting went to the toilet, Zhang Tong secretly came to the balcony, ready to jump down and end his life.
After Guan Siting came out of the toilet, she saw her boyfriend on the balcony and hurriedly stepped forward to hug her.
"You're going to go, I'll go with you, and neither of us will want to be separated." I've been following you for so long, and before you marry me, are you going to give up on me? ”
Looking at Guan Siting in front of her, she was already crying uncontrollably, and Zhang Tong finally woke up at that moment.
He realized that his actions were not only irresponsible to himself, but also to his girlfriend and family.
With the encouragement and enlightenment of Guan Siting, he began to actively cooperate with the treatment of psychologists, and his mood gradually improved.
"You are great and excellent, we have survived the present together, and we will be greeted with a better future in the future."
Guan Siting's love for Zhang Tong gradually came out of the haze.
When he was no longer nervous every day and no longer had the tendency to hurt himself, he returned to everyone's sight.
And the first thing he did after he recovered was to give Guan Siting a dream wedding.
He is grateful to his girlfriend for still choosing to be by his side when he is most vulnerable and helpless, and tirelessly encourages him.
If he hadn't been stopped by his girlfriend, he might never have seen the sun of tomorrow again.
Today, he is completely out of the shadows and has worked harder than ever.
At this time, he was not only struggling alone, but also for Guan Siting.
"Without Guan Siting, there would be no me now, and I will only live for her in this life."
After marrying Zhang Tong, Guan Siting said goodbye to the show business circle and wholeheartedly took care of her husband's life at home.
They pay each other and go in both directions, which is really enviable.
I wish them eternal happiness, and there is a rainbow after the storm.