Osamu Dazai wrote this passage in "Human Disqualification":
"Overnight, my heart judged two. He came from a sea of people, and he only wanted to give me an empty joy. You come with wind and rain, and I have nowhere to hide. You are gone for four seasons, and I have been ill for a long time. ”
Yes, it must be a pity to be able to judge two people in one night. What a pity a person who can blur his eyes even in his fantasies!
As someone once asked, "Which is more regrettable, never being together or not being able to be together in the end?" ”
If it had been me before, I would have definitely chosen to never be together, as if it were a former crush, just a one-person thing.
But when we meet some people and miss some people, in answering this question, I will choose to end up not being able to be together more regretful.
Because you're never together your regrets will be less, you don't have a real emotional commitment, and when you meet someone again, such regrets can be filled.
But in the end, not being able to be together is not just a regret, more often it is like a thorn, deeply rooted in your heart, from time to time it will sting you.
Even after many years, when you think back on what you experienced at that time, you still feel sad in your heart. I wonder if I could have persevered at that time, if I had made another choice, the result would have been different.
Just as the movie "Later Us" that I have seen before is probably the best interpretation, what is called "even the utopia can blur the eyes, how regrettable" is.
From meeting and knowing each other, to the final love and separation of the north drifting man and woman Lin Jianqing and Fang Xiaoxiao, it is clear that the person who loves each other the most ends in tragedy.
The one who once said that he would go to the moon for you for nine days and catch turtles in the next five oceans finally left her, perhaps that's why the promise can't stand up to time.
Just like there is such a scene in the play, Lin Jianqing makes a lot of money doing games, and the first thing is to buy a house, because this is Fang Xiaoxiao's biggest wish.
He believes that doing so will be able to restore his feelings with Fang Xiaoxiao. But in exchange for It was Fang Xiaoxiao: "You don't understand me, you never understood." If you think that I could not live a hard life with you, then how can you now be sure that I can live a good life with you? ”
So they ended up missing out and became the ones who blushed when they thought about it. It's as if the ending of the play has such a sentence that later we have everything, but we don't have us.
That's why now I would say: "It's even more regrettable not to be together in the end".
One day, you will think of a person because of one thing, one action, one movie. And that person is someone you've promised, wanted to have a future, but never ended up in your future.
Maybe now you think of that person, maybe you've blurred your eyes now. And stories like this play out every day.
It's like reading a story on the Internet where a noodle shop closes for a week and the owner says he wants to take a break to go home, attend his ex-girlfriend's wedding, and smash the yard.
Later, after a few days, the old puller came back, and someone asked him if he had gone to smash the field. He said, "No." He just went to the scene and gave the gift money to write his name, and then left, without letting her see.
He said: "I looked at her from a distance and she was really beautiful in a white wedding dress. At that moment I felt that I should silently bless her. ”
Yes, he used to want that his beloved girl would walk with him for the rest of his life, but the person who stood by her side in the end was not him. Even so he still hoped that he would be happy.
When I say that, I'm like the owner of the noodle shop whose eyes should be red. Although it is a pity, but life is like this, there will be some people, but also miss some people.
But it is precisely because of this that we know to cherish what we have. Because later we may also become "me" and "you". It's as if Fang Xiaoxiao said, "I miss you." Lin Jiansen replied: "I miss you too." But in fact, what Fang Xiaoxiao said was: "I missed you."
Although in the end we will eventually let go, but it is really difficult to forget. The thought of you will still blur your eyes, but in the end it is only hidden in the heart.
May we all be well and happy afterwards.
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