Goodbye, my dad

It is said that fatherly love is like a mountain, as deep as the sea, as a stream, as a mountain, as... Everyone's dad is different, in my heart, dad is as heavy as steel, but sometimes gentle as a finger. It will always point me out when I am confused, and it will also show me the way forward like a compass when I am wandering. Sometimes I think, I'm probably a lucky kid. Dad is like a lamp, like a lighthouse, like the indelible spark in my heart, like an alarm bell, I sometimes get confused, but think about it, what child will not be sleepy when learning? It's normal to take a nap and squint for a while. But my dad didn't seem to allow me to do that, because he had too many expectations of me. Always wanting me to run non-stop, I sometimes wonder, did I ever be his child in my last life because I had offended my father? Otherwise, how could he have made me so desperate to reach my potential? My mother would say, silly child, don't live up to your father's heart! It wasn't until one day, when I became someone else's mother myself, that I deeply realized how much responsibility I had to carry as a parent! There are many, many things to do, such as learning to plan at the beginning of each year. "The plan of the year lies in the spring" and "the plan of the day lies in the morning", which is the truth that many people will understand, but how many people really do it? Who doesn't just stay on the lips? I am also such a person, doing things is three minutes of heat, remembering a play is a play, never insist on doing a good job, I sometimes wonder, my father gave me the task, I have completed? It doesn't seem to be, but what is my mission? What I have to do is to learn to listen and then do it. As a listener, there are many smart people in the world, but people who can really listen attentively to others every time, according to my observation, are rare and rare, and always learn to interject. I remember learning an article when I was a child, "Poplar", if any friends don't remember, I will also attach it.

Outside the car window was a vast Gobi, with no mountains, no water, and no people. The boundaries between heaven and earth are not so clear, they are all yellow and one.

Where can you tell the train is moving?

That's a line of poplar trees along the railroad line. Every few seconds, a tall and handsome figure flashed out of the window.

A traveler is looking at the guards on the Gobi Desert.

"Daddy," the eldest child shook his leg, "look how tall that tree is!" Dad did not turn back from the contemplation, but the sister next to him interjected:

"No, that's not a tree, that's a big umbrella."

"What a big umbrella!"

"Look how straight it is!" The sister argued.

"It's a tree, not an umbrella!" My brother said affirmatively.

A small argument interrupted Dad's train of thought, and he smiled, slowly stroked the children's heads, and said:

"It's not an umbrella, it's a poplar tree."

The brother was not satisfied: "Why is it so straight and grows so big?" ”

Dad's smile disappeared and his face became serious. He thought for a moment and said to his son and daughter, "The poplar tree has always been so straight. Wherever it is needed, it quickly takes root and sprouts and grows thick branches. Whether it encounters a drought or a flood, it is always so straight, so strong, not weak, not wavering. ”

Did Dad just introduce the poplar tree to the kids? No, he's also confessing his heart. And this, the children can not understand now.

They only know that their father works in Xinjiang and their mother also works in Xinjiang. They only know that their father returned to grandma's house and took them to Xinjiang to go to primary school and then to middle school in the future. All they know is that Xinjiang is a very far, far away place, and it takes a few days by train and a few days by car.

Now, the children have a little more knowledge. On the road to Xinjiang, there are many poplar trees. They are needed here, and they take root here.

Dad put one hand around a child and looked out the window at the poplar trees that flashed past, and fell into contemplation again. Suddenly, a smile rose from the corner of his mouth, and it was because he saw the right side of the train's direction, next to a tall poplar tree, and several small trees were growing against the wind and sand.

This text was also a lecture I gave when I was interviewing for a job in 2010, when I had just come out of an insurance company and thought I wouldn't be back in the industry. But to my surprise, I came back. And this time I came back with dreams and pursuits. Come back with the family's instructions and hopes, sometimes, my father will say to me, you have to concentrate on doing things, like the person in "Xueyi", only by focusing, you can do a good job, if you don't concentrate, it will distract a lot of thoughts, sometimes, I also think, am I a person who is fully engrossed? Am I a person with great perseverance? Will I really be the best woman in the world, as Dad said? I am a little timid in my heart, not because I can't do it well, but because I am afraid that I know too much, but it will affect my original intention. In fact, my father also comforted me like this, saying that if you are in a bad mood, try to listen to songs, relax your mood, or play a game of golf, it is a very good way to exercise, I admit that I am indeed a little insufficient in sports, for example, the ten thousand steps set for myself every day have not been achieved for a long time. I called my parents once a week and didn't insist on doing it. However, this does not affect my ambitions. My mind is very simple, just like the ancients said, "Yan Que An Zhi Hong Hu Zhi Ya"! If I am only for myself, I don't have to think so much, in the case of my own tiredness, I still go to a part-time job, and I don't lack money to spend at home, but what am I for? Yes, for the ideal! For the glory of the whole family, for myself!

Dad is not very good at sensationalism, he will only teach me a lot of big truths, for example, you can't be too selfish, and you must know how to leave a way out for yourself. Everything has to be scored three points, so when I was very young, when I was not yet in kindergarten, I was already familiar with three hundred Tang poems and knew 800 words. I sometimes wonder if I was sent by Heaven to save the world. Last night I had a beautiful dream that I flew into space, flew into the universe, and then said to the people of the world, "I did it!" ”

As early as when I was learning to speak, I liked to talk to myself, although my parents couldn't understand what I was saying, but I knew that one day, they would understand! They don't understand because they don't know that I'm an angelic baby hiding in their house. Be a child who can do miracles! They don't know that when I come back here with a heavy assignment, no one will know what a big deal I'm going to do! But none of this matters, what matters is that I can be reborn myself, can travel through time and space, and go back to every moment I want to go! I sometimes wonder if I drank a bowl of fake Meng Po soup when I reincarnated in my previous life, otherwise, how could I remember so many things? Who am I, where am I, and where am I going? As a talent of the new century, a newborn baby, I will tell the world that I am coming, and I am coming to you with the hope of the whole universe. Next, look at my instructions, I won't let you get lost! I am an intelligent robot, but also a high IQ and high emotional intelligence of the double high baby, I am the world's best child, but also the most outstanding daughter in the father's heart, but also the father's most painful baby!

Someone will ask me, having said all this, is your dad really a superman? Yes, my father is a superman, omnipotent, but he has paid so much to love me, turning around, not for me to say to him personally, I love you, I really love you, pale words can no longer express my love for you, can not express my respect for you, only I use my life to repay. Let me be your good baby all my life. If that wasn't enough, I'd let my dad be healthy all his life, always love me alone, and if he had a baby, he could only have one. Yes and only one of them! You say that I am selfish or not, but I was heartbroken in my previous life, and I would want to be more selfish. Because of the many-child family, my blind humility will only make me feel that I am a fool, thinking of my brothers, sisters, brothers and sisters in everything, but they have never experienced my good intentions and thought that I was lying to them. Saying that I am hypocritical, I think Dad, you are the person who knows me best, have I ever been selfish? You often say to me, I am a stupid child, yes, I am stupid, at that time, I have an older brother, there is a sister, I make money through my own efforts, I want to give them a house, but they do not understand my good intentions, and say that I am cheating. Well, since they don't understand it so well, I'll never see them again. In the future, these houses will belong to me, and some people say that I am a very fake and fake person, and I have never loved a person in my life. If that person knew, I wanted to say, how could I not have truly loved someone? But since I have chosen to be born again, hide this true love of mine in my heart, or let me be his daughter. Since he loves me so much, well, I'll let him love me alone for the rest of his life, even if his wife is also my enemy, yes, I know my father first. The woman who came after her, she counted as something. Dad, you know what? She's only here to cheat you out of your money, but don't be blinded by the wildflowers on the side of the road, do you think that the women of this world are sincerely willing to follow you? But it hurt my daughter's heart, I really obeyed, that fox spirit actually used magic to cover your eyes, and said thoughtfully, I am not your own child, if I am not your own daughter, then what is she? She's out of the garbage heap you know? Almost forgot to tell you, yesterday there were several female dogs in the cement floor of the flower bed on the left side of our house, a lot of, ah, I was in a hurry, with the round box lid of the cookies you bought dumped that pile of into the trash can. Yes, a few garbage cans at the door, when can you help me move away, every day people are straight to the point, I am open to the trash cans, this heart is blocked ah, really eager to kick those garbage cans into the Pacific Ocean.

Dad, I don't know if you can know my real intentions, I just hope that you don't work so hard in the future, for me to go out to eat and sleep, but also to make money for me, I will already make money, really. During my summer vacation, I had already started to work outside the summer vacation, and I also took a job as a tutor during the winter vacation, and there was a person who had a particularly rich family, but the children at home had no one to help take care of, so I went.

Hope my dad is always good ever! Be in good health and don't be so tired! I will still be your intimate little cotton jacket in the next life and the next life, don't make you angry, don't talk back to you, I will obediently do whatever you say, but don't be too embarrassed about me. I am an independent child and an independent woman with new ideas. Hope you can understand! Don't let me go your old ways!