Lin Xinru and Jiang Qinqin's version of "Half Life" began broadcasting in 2002, and it is still difficult to watch it after 20 years.
Gu Manlu began to be a dancer at the age of 14, married Zhu Hongcai in her 30s, and died of hatred around the age of 40.
Gu Manzhen met Shen Shijun in the factory at the age of 23, and once talked about marriage, but unfortunately he was raped and pregnant by Zhu Hongcai at the age of 24, and when he escaped from the Zhu family and contacted Shen Shijun, he had already married Shi Cuizhi.
Shi Cuizhi and Shen Shijun grew up together, but unfortunately Shen Shijun has always disliked her, even if she is married, in the long married life, she has not been able to become Shen Shijun's white moonlight and cinnabar mole.
Three women, different occupations, different experiences, different social statuses, but looking at their life destinies and encounters, they found striking similarities. Every woman's body is scarred, and this scar still exists and spreads in today's urban women through time and space, which is heart-wrenching.
01 Gu Manlu: As a parasite of marriage, either mentally or spiritually and physically
Gu Manlu and Zhang Yujin:
"Lulu, be careful, ride slowly!"
"Brother Yujin—ah—"
On a warm day, Gu Manlu wore a blue school uniform skirt to ride in the open space, she only cared about the handlebars but forgot to look ahead, did not ride a few steps and fell to the ground, her knees were broken. Zhang Yujin, who was wearing a couple's school uniform, lifted her up painfully.
"Doesn't it hurt?" I'll carry you to the hospital!" ”
Gu Manlu blushed shyly and whispered, "It doesn't matter, just go home and get some medicine." ”
Zhang Yujin picked up Gu Manlu and put it in front of him, and rode all the way back with joy. This little bicycle, Gu Manlu imagined as a happy express. Green plum bamboo horses, two small no guess, just waiting for the marriageable age to do big things. Unfortunately, Gu Manlu's father left too early, and the burden of supporting the family always had to be picked up. The family is old and small, and a large family still depends on the care of her mother, and 14-year-old Gu Manlu had to tear off her face and go to the dance hall to be a dancer.
The ignorant first love with Zhang Yujin is a touch of white moonlight in Gu Manlu's heart, and it is one of her few clean lives. After that, she was deep in the mud and could not look back, and the experience became more precious and dazzling.
Gu Manlu and the men who raised her:
At first, she could only accept being a dancer, but unfortunately she earned too little to support a large family. In order to live for the sake of her family, she can only grit her teeth and keep lowering herself until she completely sacrifices herself. Gu Manlu has a good skin, and a man is hungry for her body. The rich men around her changed and changed, and she used her fancy years to exchange houses, cars, tickets for her family... And in her own time, in the midst of the lights and dances, she has long gone from the initial disgust to the initiative to cater, and she has become less and less like herself. Even her family felt that she was humiliated and hoped that she would jump out early and find someone to marry.
She insulted herself and exchanged her bloody self for the solid life of her family, and at one point she felt that she was the pillar of the family, and she sold herself justifiably. But one day, when the family needed dignity, she became a symbol of stimulation for the family. She didn't know what she was. When she was no longer needed, she began to panic, she could not go back to mainstream society, she could only buy drunk, sink or even self-destruct in the next three places at night.
Gu Manlu and Zhu Hongcai:
When she picks men, men pick her too. Gu Manlu eventually married Zhu Hongcai, a stinky man with calculating eyes and a bad stomach. She transformed into Mrs. Zhu, but she also lived in the cell that Zhu Hongcai had built for her. He didn't go home all day, and he was still outside in the flowers and weeds, wishing the mansion to be noisy all day. After Gu Manlu lost her fertility, Zhu Hong became more arrogant. Even before Gu Manlu's death, Zhu Hongcai was still playing with his warblers and swallows.
Gu Manlu's life, first met a good person and then met a scumbag, and after breaking the marriage contract with Zhang Yujin, her life came to an inflection point, destined to embark on a road of meeting and messing with scumbags. The men she met later were inferior to the other, not because of her bad luck, but because of her own declining character. She has been staying in the Wind Moon Place, what good men can she meet? Where she marries someone who dares to ask for any love, just to find a long-term meal ticket.
How far can a marriage without love go? How many good days can a woman who depends on men provide for her? Gu Manlu grew a young lady's body but it was the life of a lady, and all her expenses such as eating, drinking, and lasa were attached to Zhu Hongcai, and over time Zhu Hongcai was tired and annoyed. The marriage exists in name only, and Gu Manlu, who is sick and angry and resentful and hateful, will surely go downhill.
Women, the economy is not independent, the spirit is not independent. Attaching everything to a man is to live as a parasite of marriage, with only two endings: either the spirit dies of the body, or the spirit and the flesh die together.
02 Gu Manzhen: Women have three chances to change their lives in their lives, one is the original family, the second is to marry, and the third is to awaken themselves
Gu Manzhen and Shen Shijun:
Peach blossoms bloom, petals fall, under a tree, a pair of bi people, pulling the atmosphere of love.
"Man Zhen, is it okay to marry me?"
"Shi Jun, will you kiss me?"
The two can be called male and female appearance, the three views are also quite consistent, when the love is thick, Shen Shijun took Gu Manzhen back to Nanjing to meet his parents. Although Gu Manzhen comes from a poor family and a dark alley, he is generous and decent in his treatment of people and things. Mother Shen looked very happy and praised her son for having vision. Unfortunately, Shen's father knew about Gu Manzhen's sister, and this marriage was about to turn yellow, thanks to Shen Shijun's persistence, he did not freeze to death. Unfortunately, later Gu Manlu set up a trap for his sister, and a pair of men and women who fell in love could no longer be possible.
Many years later, the two were reunited at Xu Shuhui's house, and at that time, their eyes were full of vicissitudes, and the aura of love had long been exhausted. From falling in love with Shen Shijun to marrying Zhu Hongcai, Gu Manzhen's jump is really big...
In the face of naked reality, to eat, dress, raise children, to run for life, at this time love has become a dish on the luxurious banquet, become a diamond on the expensive dress, dispensable. Where there is anything new under the sun, it is reasonable to exist.
Gu Manzhen and Zhu Hongcai:
Gu Manzhen gave birth to Rongbao after being raped by Zhu Hongcai, and after his sister's death, Rongbao lost his reliable caregiver. After all, blood is thicker than jellyfish and mothers, and Gu Manzhen began to raise this innocent and poor boy. The child is gradually getting older, and the long-term lack of father's love is not good, Gu Manzhen married Zhu Hongcai for the sake of the child.
On the night of the wedding, Zhu Hongcai rejoiced like a pig, and he finally wanted to get a woman as beautiful as carved white jade. Gu Manzhen directly splashed him with a basin of cold water to wake him up: "I only married you for the sake of children, from today onwards we will sleep in separate rooms, I don't care what you do outside." ”
Zhu Hongcai realized at this time that he had knocked Gu Manzhen unconscious late that night, and her first and last time. After that, Zhu Hongcai was outside to play with women, and Gu Manzhen supported himself by the ruby ring. For countless nights, Gu Manzhen tried to wear the ring and leaned against the window to fantasize about what Shen Shijun was doing.
Gu Manzhen's life, cheng also Manlu, defeat also Manlu. Without Gu Manlu for her to eat, drink and study, she could not grow into an urban intellectual woman, with both earning power and feminine charm. Unfortunately, she could not escape Gu Manlu's elaborate situation, was raped by her brother-in-law, thus giving birth to an innocent child, missing a good relationship with Shen Shijun, and her life trajectory and fate have changed greatly since then.
As for her later marriage to Zhu Hongcai, it was completely motherly that trumped everything. In this sexless and loveless marriage, Gu Manzhen was embarrassed by Zhu Hongcai and also embarrassed by himself. Most women have sex out of love, and if they have a deeply loved but impossible man in their hearts, they may be lonely with this pitiful thought in their lives.
Gu Manzhen is such a woman! She always has a stubbornness and independence in her body. No man can rely on himself. A woman's life has about three chances to change her life, one is the original family, the second is to marry, and the third is to awaken herself. Gu Manzhen was not lucky enough, she could only firmly grasp herself and rely on herself.
03 Shi Cuizhi: Love in the face of rich materials, either icing on the cake, or worthless
Shi Cuizhi and Shen Shijun:
In the year of Shen Shijun's brother's marriage, 4-year-old Shi Cuizhi gave the bride a yarn, and 6-year-old Shen Shijun gave the groom a ring. In the eyes of the Shi family and the Shen family, the two were a couple sooner or later. Unfortunately, Shen Shijun had already learned her big miss temper, and he hated it when he thought about it, so he took the initiative to distance himself from her.
Later, Shen Shijun fell in love with Gu Manzhen and deliberately kept a distance from Shi Cuizhi. Miss Shi is also an arrogant person, and there has been no progress between the two. Later, the two became married, and Shi Cuizhi knew that Shen Shijun still had a person living in his heart, who could not be swept away, could not be beaten, and would always sink in his heart. She could only be angry and jealous. In fact, she did not lose money, and there was also a man living in her heart.
These two people are really like each other, with a loved one in their hearts, but holding the hand of another person to get married. Marriage requires a heart that is loyal to each other, and both of them have been mentally derailed for a long time. Their marriage has been planting bombs from the beginning, and friction and seeming separation are common in decades-long marriages.
Shi Cuizhi and Xu Shuhui:
The happiest time In Shi Cuizhi's life was to go boating in Xuanwu Lake, and Xu Shuhui would never forget the words that Shi Mu said to him when he sent her back: "Our family Cuizhi, what you are looking for in the future is a high-gate household, you poor boy is blindly clinging to something here!" These words greatly stabbed Xu Shuhui, who vowed to find a lady who was wider and more flamboyant than Shi Cuizhi in the future to see Shi Mu.
The relationship between the two was crushed by Shi Mu as soon as it appeared. In fact, Shi Cuizhi knew in her heart that she preferred to be with Xu Shuhui than Shen Shijun. Shen Shijun always felt that she was high up in the air and played with the prestige of a young lady, and had already formed a stereotype of her. On the contrary, Xu Shuhui felt that she lived a real, innocent and romantic, frank and lovely, and did not have so many calculations. Shi Cuizhi enjoyed the relaxation of being with him without considering anyone's feelings.
However, fate likes to tease people, and she eventually marries Shen Shijun. At the wedding ceremony, Xu Shuhui was very drunk and personally put Shi Cuizhi's hand into Shen Shijun's hand, telling him to treat Shi Cuizhi well.
Shi Cuizhi has lived a life of food and clothing, and has enjoyed all the glory and wealth. But when I looked at her closely, my eyes were full of gloom. She married a man who didn't love her, and after having two children, she still didn't change that. They often quarreled, and the marriage lived in name only. Women without the moisture of love are like dry flowers, what is the meaning of such a life?
But Shi Cuizhi will not choose divorce. Shen Shijun is not only without her in his heart, everything else is not bad, he is a responsible and good father, and he has a considerable amount of family property, which is enough to give her a comfortable and decent life. No love is nothing, there is a lot of money can also bring happiness. Love, in the face of rich materials, is either the icing on the cake or worthless. Man, only when he is young will he overestimate the value and status of love, and it will change as he walks.
The story of three women: short is life, long is tribulation, loneliness is the norm of life
Gu Manlu has experienced countless men in his life, countless scumbags in his contacts, and finally married a scumbag, and the only man he has loved is his first love Zhang Yujin. Her life was full of dirt, blood and tears, and absurdity, and the only light was that first love, which gave her not a long, chaotic and numb life a chance to breathe. She looked up at the bright moon in the sky alone, recalling the emotional past that had been sealed for many years.
Gu Manzhen is a woman with obsession, and can only love one man in her life. Love is a true belief for her. During the day she is busy with work, and at night it belongs to her and Shen Shijun. She would pull out the ruby ring and stroke it repeatedly, imagining a wedding that should have belonged to her, and the lively scene, the smiling faces, the laughter accompanied by the sourness of the throat, would eventually turn into a cold from head to toe, and a familiar loneliness would once again sweep towards her. In this life she is destined to be alone.
Shi Cuizhi was the most materially abundant of the three women. Unfortunately, no matter how much material there is, it is cold, but the lover's hand is warm. The man who slept next to her pillow could not warm her, and the man who could warm her was too far away to approach in this life. Too close to the heart, too far away, between the near and far, is a dense loneliness and tribulation.
The people in "Half Life", there is no consummation, the appearance of being together is separated, the separated have become each other's white moonlight, and everyone has not got their favorite. It seems cruel, but in fact, this is the truth of life. Life is a gorgeous robe, but when you look closely, it is full of fleas, and no one's life is satisfactory. Short is life, long is suffering, desolation, loneliness is the background, tone and normalcy of life.