New Year's insomnia slaughtered themselves, to help everyone (there are melons) recently insomnia for more than ten days, every day at three or four o'clock can not sleep, white hair is also a little more (non-essential do not stay up late ah!!! ）

New Year's insomnia slaughtered himself, to help everyone entertain (there are melons)

Recently, insomnia has been continuous for more than ten days, I can't sleep at three or four o'clock every day, and my white hair is a little more (don't stay up late unless necessary!!! ）

From small to large, the writing is poor, and I think about where to write.

Coordinates Shaanxi eighteen-tier cities, lz early love, the first two talked about the first object, until the first year, the different places were broken up, seamless (green walk a wave), slowed down for more than a year, during the occasional dream (in fact, now also occasionally dreamed 🐶) in the middle of a period of continuous dreaming for a week, and then heard a mutual friend said that that week she was hospitalized with stomach disease, I also feel very magical.

Mainly talk about the second bar, the recognition is in the junior vacation when learning to drive, there is no first impression, is the feeling of the average person, but the back of the chat more, found that it is very chatty, three views almost, and the world north and south of the chat, what can be said, think this person is very real, and the idea is very mature (not the little girl kind) I am also very recognized, I am more concerned about her, and then found that she has an object... At that time, I thought about it, and it was better to be a friend. (She 94 I 97)

But do not face the thought of whether to dig the foot of the wall, there is a reason for no action, she is a small leader working in a local store, I was studying in Guangxi at the time, after the first relationship, I think that even if there is anything later or off-site, not very good (lz at that time also did not know where he was going to go after graduation, whether to return to Xi'an or in Shenzhen or Guangzhou)

About a year later, she broke up, like many people who have lost love, frustrated and depressed circle of friends, during which we both also talked about her recent situation, the reason for the breakup (remember when I comforted her and said this: There are always people in this world who secretly love you, such as your family, and I ah) At that time, I was holding a friend mentality to talk to her, and sincerely blessed her, because I had just found a job in Shenzhen for less than three months (programmers), or I didn't know what the road ahead was, my eyes were dark, and I was probably scared for the first time I don't dare to find the object of Shenzhen, I am afraid that I will return to Shaanxi in the future, nor do I dare to find Shaanxi, I am afraid that I will not know how many years I will drift south...

In the middle, every time she comes back, she will bring her some supper, small snacks or something, and when the epidemic first began, she would fight the king together every day.

About half a year later, she sent out photos of playing, and she was still very happy at the time, thinking it was a good blessing.

The main topic came, last year, because of the king, we talked quite frequently for a month, and I knew that she had an object. But when playing the game, she will also call another friend of hers, and later learn that it is the man who insists on playing together, and it is not easy to refuse, she said that she only wants to double-row with me - there is a legendary male girlfriend smell. Later, this man showed favor to her, she also showed me a screenshot, and refused positively, not dragging mud and water, and the two people deleted each other. Then it was last year, march to July, four months of time, we interacted more and more frequently, she said she did not want to marry the object, it did not feel appropriate or something (lz was in a state-owned enterprise in Guangzhou at the time) We got up every day to talk until 34 pm, the next day at seven o'clock to get up to go to work, she said to take a shower, you do not return to her, she will send an expression after a while to say that the washing is finished (this feeling of being valued can make people feel at least at this time, she is indeed sincere) during this period of time, there are many examples of this, Also give me a screenshot of her and the object for my quarrel record, for me to argue four or five times, I do not know what to say, at that time I was not sure what position I was, afraid that I was the same as the one who deleted each other before, friends can not do it. Later, we were all careful and tested each other, but both of us were like riddles, talking about non-mainstream copywriting, I have my worries, afraid of the illusion of chatting too much, or frankly not being friends, only hating the two people 2000 kilometers apart, can not come out to do the small actions to determine the relationship... She was probably worried that she was too uncertain to be so far away.

During this period, we broke off contact for three days (this is my most wrong decision) it seems that there is a tacit understanding of who does not look for anyone, I can't remember who took the initiative on the fourth day, and we shared our lives every day as before, saying goodnight to each other. Until her birthday (and my mother's day) I wanted to send her a flower, asked her when it was convenient to take, because she was afraid of her object bumping into her, and added to her troubles (it seems to be quite humble 😑, shivering cold!). When will I be able to stand up)

After listening to the explanation, she asked me why I thought so much about her, always caused her some illusions, suppressed for four months I really lived in Bengbu, before and after the feelings, what I liked about her, from learning to drive to that time. She also said to me, I heard that my mother was a teacher and was afraid that my mother would not accept her kind of dislike of learning, all kinds of hesitation.

I thought that I had exchanged heartfelt complaints, two people had a showdown, everyone was happy, they could be blatant, and they were together. Late, missed, before there were not three days without talking to each other, her family, her object of the family to give pressure (eighteen-line small cities are not like the general late marriage in first-tier cities) to get married, marriage is three months after the National Day, I impulsively, thinking about just the engagement, since the two people have made sense, anyway go back to fight for it, immediately quit the Guangzhou work, a month later back to the hometown. Why would I be so late in this codeword, because I failed after I went back. It's over before it starts, and sure enough, life is far better than a TV series. I didn't go on the wedding day, gave a red envelope, went to Xi'an to find a job, although the idea of seeing her wearing a wedding dress did not lose to anyone. But the person who couldn't accept her wasn't me. In fact, I still quite accept her boyfriend, if my girlfriend talks to someone like this, then I will definitely not accept a direct breakup...

To this day, we are still in contact, and we are out of the big spectrum. (I was told two days ago that they were divorced...) I... There is a saying how to say "although I am immoral, but I am not a latecomer", feelings of this thing you really can not understand without experience, if it is someone else's thing, I may say, such a disgusting thing, the head to you to beat. But after my own experience, I know I'm not going to laugh at anyone in the future, because you'll never be able to empathize.