The character of Xian'er has always been a contradictory character in "Breaking into Kanto", and watching this drama when she was young, she always had some difficulties in her bumpy life.
In my eyes, What Xian'er represents is the most distinctive representative of the brave resistance of women at the bottom of the old society to resist feudal etiquette, although she is weak and weak, but she has a tenacious and tenacious personality, in order to pursue happiness and change her destiny, she bravely breaks through herself and liberates herself.
But she rebelled all her life, going around and around, suffering all the time, but always rubbing shoulders with happiness.
Many people don't understand after reading it, obviously she is a girl who dares to love and dare to hate, she can suffer and suffer, she has courage and courage, why her life will be so tragic.
With the growth of life experience, and then look back on Xian'er's life, from a brave girl who pursues love, to the indecisiveness of several times in the face of choices, to the upheaval and displacement, in fact, the tragedy of her life has a lot to do with her personal character.
If you understand the determination of the fifth master to tell her to pull the "see red" silk cloth, but she bet on her fate to replace the red cloth with a "white cloth", you may understand why such a good girl has lived in tragedy all her life.
01
On the way into the Kanto, Xian'er sold herself to the stupid son of the rich man's family in order to save Chuanwen, she felt that her reputation was damaged, the old Zhu family should no longer accept her, in order to take care of her reputation and face, but also consciously did not deserve to send a text, she refused the proposal to escape with Chuanwen.
If it is said that the "reputation" is lost, Xian'er is helpless to refuse to pass on the text, then the Xian'er who has lost his "innocence" will completely break off his fate with the text.
The reason why Xian'er will lose her innocence is to start from a piece of "seeing the red silk cloth" that the fifth master wants, and it is also the "red silk cloth" that the fifth master wants, which has become the culprit of the tragedy of Xian'er's life.
At that time, Xian'er was already a pillar in the drama class, and the fifth master married the third aunt and wanted to make a colorful head, and asked her to sing a play of "Seeing Red" in "The Tale of the West Chamber":
Chen Wuye pulled out a piece of red silk cloth from his arms: tucked this into Xiao Qiuyan's pants D, and pulled it out of his pants D when Zhang Sheng and Yingying had a private meeting.
The class owner listened to the back and talked to Chen Wuye, but Chen Wuye did not let go, "Either sing or lose a thousand pieces of ocean."
Seeing that the class owner was in a dilemma, if he did not sing this play, the drama class would have no way to live, and Xian'er had no choice but to grit his teeth and agree.
On that day, the Chen family courtyard was illuminated with lights and a joyous place, and the guests were looking at the stage expectantly by Chen Wuye's "color head", with the fifth master shouting, "Let's go up to the eyes, to see the red knot bone eyes - Xiao Qiu Yan pulled ah!" Xian Er obediently pulled out a piece of silk cloth from behind, but this silk cloth was not the red silk cloth that Chen Wuye wanted, but a particularly eye-catching white silk cloth.
The play sang that Zhang Sheng and Yingying had met, And Wang Laoyong, big machine, and other people in the drama team were staring nervously at Xian'er, and under the stage, Chen Wuye stood up again and said: "You guys go up, to see the red knot bone eyes -- Little Autumn Goose Pulling!"
On the stage, Xian Er heard Chen Wuye's roar, and obediently pulled out a piece of silk cloth from behind his waist, but it was a large piece of white silk cloth. It is conspicuous on the stage of the red tong.
In an instant, "Wang Laoyong and the big machine were stunned, Chen Wuye jumped like thunder, while Xian'er looked at Chen Wuye with a cold face."
Seeing this, the results of the back do not need to be seen, maybe everyone can guess it, Xian'er's momentary willfulness almost ruined the life of the class owner, and even the entire drama class had to follow the funeral, and finally, Xian'er had to use his innocence to calm Chen Wuye's anger.
If you say that she has lost her reputation, let Xian'er feel inferior in her heart, and feel that she is not worthy of the text, at least she still has a glimmer of expectation in her heart, thinking that she is at least innocent, but losing her innocence, for the women of the old society, it is simply like the most evil, there is no happiness to speak of, and Xian'er has completely broken the idea of continuing the frontier with the text.
02
When I saw this scene when I was young, I couldn't help but applaud her proud bones, lament her suffering, and when I looked at her as an adult, I thought she was stupid to the extreme.
Before Xian Er entered the drama class, the class master Wang Laoyong told her the ugly words first, and repeatedly refused her to go down this road, and the rap drama "even called Hanako prostitute" is not as good:
Three hundred and sixty lines, the most inferior in this line, the three teachings and nine streams can not be counted, the singing is listed in the lower nine streams, not as good as calling Hanako, even prostitutes are not as good, everyone laughs, but if there is a little way to live, don't come to eat this bowl of rice.
Wang Laoyong exhausted the stakes, but Xian'er insisted on joining the drama class, and when Chen Wuye put forward the embarrassing request that she pull the "red silk cloth", Wang Laoyong also said that he was powerless and embarrassed.
In "Farewell to the Overlord", when Cheng Dieyi's mother asked the class owner to take Cheng Dieyi in, he asked him not to dislike her origins, and the class owner once said to her as a prostitute, "They are all inferior, who hates whom!" ”
At the bottom of the whole society, doesn't Xian Er know what kind of consequences will this willfulness bring to the drama class by replacing red silk with white cloth? Didn't she know what would happen to a "lower-class" who was not even as good as a prostitute and offended the local gentry?
I admit that at that moment, her determination was that Qinggao had a backbone, but in contemporary society, everyone can step on the "drama", what qualifications does she have to talk about Qinggao, what qualifications do she have to talk about backbone, even if they are alive and fighting for their lives, what to talk about dignity.
The middle school text "The Mystery of the Valley" has a saying: Sometimes bending is not about yielding and destroying, but for survival and better development.
This means that when encountering unsolvable difficulties, we must learn to give in and be patient appropriately, which does not mean timidity, but to accumulate strength.
Xian Er said, this is fate! But ninety percent of this fate was caused by her own "self-righteousness."
She "self-righteously" declares her pride in this desperate way to show her indomitability and fierceness, but she uses the wrong place, the world of the people at the bottom, which is full of darkness and injustice, and what she should learn is how to survive.
And This "self-righteous" personality of Xian'er has been shown in her many times when she has faced choices, and it is this personality of hers that dooms her to the tragedy of her life.
03
When Xian'er had to marry her little husband in order to save Chuanwen, Chuanwen had said that she would not abandon her, and the Zhu family would not despise her and let her leave with him, but Xian'er was willingly immersed in her own tragedy, "self-righteous" felt that she had lost her reputation and did not deserve to send a message, so she rejected Chuanwen's proposal, which also caused the separation of the two.
Later, she was desperate to ask the drama class to take her in, and she "self-righteously" felt that it was a great righteousness for her not to find the transmission, but her heart was always unwilling, so she contradicted herself and told herself that she was not worthy of the transmission, but at the same time, she implied that the drama class went to the Kanto, and it was Providence that made her have no end with the transmission.
"Brother Chuanwen, I was cornered, I accidentally hit and bumped into the drama class, but I still went in the direction of Kanto, God let me look for you."
After losing her innocence, Xian'er shrank up again, and when Chuanwu met her and wanted to take her back to the Zhu family, she once again "self-righteously" thought that her innocence had been lost, and Chuanwen would definitely dislike herself, so she refused the opportunity to reunite with Chuanwen.
Later, Chuanwu confessed to her, she once again "self-righteously" felt that she was not innocent, and there was a layer of embarrassing identity with Chuanwen, so she refused Chuanwu, but after that, she staged an elopement again, only this time, it was with Chuanwu.
In fact, if she can't put it down in her heart, she can directly find the Zhu family, instead of always self-righteously "I think they will be disgusted", she can ask the Zhu family whether they will dislike her, ask whether the zhu family intends to marry her, if the Zhu family rejects her, then she will go outside to beg for a life and find a way out, then the words will be said differently.
Xian Er is a tenacious person, seemingly daring to love and dare to hate, not yielding to fate, but in her bones she has already bowed to fate.
When she replaced Chen Wuye's piece of "seeing red silk" with "white cloth", she had actually exposed this defect in her personality, and this character was also doomed to her tragic life.
Each of us is full of contradictions in the face of life choices, always afraid that the road you choose will make you regret it, but if you don't ask, don't want to try, you give up decisively, or even directly admit your fate, difficult to find another way, that is doomed to you may take a lot of detours, but also like Xian'er, miss many opportunities for life turns.